Alcohol...

SO if you've read anything on this blog you know that I like alcohol. I enjoy drinking and when I drink a lot I do various dumb things that turn into great stories but also make me into an ass. Well here is what happened last weekend. My girlfriend and I have been fighting a bit, nothing really bad but whatever. So I was just drinking beer and watching football. I started to get more aggrivated so I switched to beam and cokes. Well I didn't eat anything all day and apparently she snapped at me and I snapped. I ran grabbed a bookbag and was trying to leave in my car while intoxicated and on snowy, icy roads. I made it less than a mile before spinning out into a ditch. She calls her brother and got me pulled out after I beat the shit out of the back of my car trying to shove it out of the snow. I get it back home and then I don't remember a whole lot. There was screaming, I punched out 2 windows, I slept in the snow face down until my face was blue, I puked on myself, got naked, got slapped, swung at her, missed, grabbed a piece of broken glass and held it to my neck, and eventually ended up in bed. Now normally this story is bad, what makes it worse is all this happened while 4 kids are locked in their rooms hearing it.

I know that the alcohol was mostly the problem but thats not usually the kind of drunk I am. I have also always had low blood sugar, and being in the medical field I've always heard of low blood sugar making people crazy, but I would usually just feel funny and sometimes pass out. I guess with the mix it turned into the fiasco that was that night. The part that hurts me the most is that I swung at her even if I didn't hit her, I tried to.... And that her kids heard all that shit. I don't even know what I was screaming but she said it was bad.

I haven't decided yet if I am going to not drink anymore or just not get drunk anymore. I do very much enjoy a good beer with a meal every now and then or a cold one while watching fights or just with friends. I know that I am too old to be pulling that shit and acting like a fucking child. SO I think I'm not gonna drink for quite a while and guess we'll see what happens. She was kind enough to forgive me knowing that I was sorry and would never mean to hurt her or scare her kids. I apologized to everyone and just need to relax.

Status Update

I know I am a very bad blogger!! I have been keeping very busy though... School 4 days a week, working 4 nights a week. Spending lots of time with my girl... I know we thought we were gonna take it slow but thats what happens. I think yesterday was the first time we actually went 36 hours without seeing each other... I stay at her house a night or 2 a week, working 3rd kinda keeps that sparce I guess...lol. But things are really great the kids and I get along, my son gets along with her and hers. School has been going really good. I am pretty sure I am getting good grades, this week was our spring break. I wanted to go somewhere but she couldnt get a sitter for the kids... But hopefully between semesters we will get away for a bit... I am gonna have to take summer classes thought since I dont have money saved up to really get thru the summer, so I need my GI Bill. But I am at work, so I will leave you with just a few pics from photography class per Dans request One of them will be my girl and I...

The new girlfriend

SO yeah, the last post I mentioned the bartender, I guess Ill just use her initials, ER... So after that first date we went for coffee a few other times and talked quite a bit and it happened... we fell in love. I know it happened fast, we tried to keep it slow but we were officially boyfriend and girlfriend on th 13th, though she says from the first date on the 2nd. Weve got a pretty good system going she come to my house after her morning classes and wakes me up, we spend time together until its time for both of us to go to class then I go to her place when I am out of my classes until I have to goi to work...lol. Weve been doing that the last 2 weeks. We decided that we need to slow down a bit since we spend about all our time together. Her kids are really cool, last weekend I took my son over to meet and play with them and they all got along great. I am really happy, finally. Its been a really long time since I've felt like this. Hopefully it will last!! Like I said I am back in school, since I am on hold for my nursing I am going for Visual Communications. I am enjoying my photography and flash class. They are fun so far, the other 2 are quite boring... But thats my update for now, I will try to write more when I get more time, I am at work now....

2010... will it be different?

All right so that chick from the last post ended up going crazy, like most of them do. We slept together and then she got mad at me about it even tho she is the one who took me into the bedroom. So yeah we don't really talk...lol. The last couple days have been a crazy drunkfest. We went to my friends cabin by the lake and were wasted. I made a toilet out of snow that was used for piss and puke alot! I went streaking, i think that is my new tradition, for me to get nake on New Years. Since things went bad with the last Chick I have been talking to a bartender. Ive been flirting with her for a while and now she split with her boyfriend she has been living with for over a year. SHe is a bit older than me, 33 and has 5 kids. The kid things scares me a bit but figured I deal with that as it comes. We kinda had our first date last night and I was still really hungover...lol. It was luckily a short date before she went to work we went for coffee and just talked. AFter a bit I started to get queezy and I must have gotten pale. She said that it would be bad for me to puke on our first date so we should go... I agreed...lol. Ahhh and I wonder why I have problems. I guess on the bright side at least I have been talking to chicks, I had a pretty long dry spell. And come on, if she is still talking to me after last night shes got to be cool! She is going to the good expensive college and is wants to ba an athletic director at a retirment home, she will minor in religious studies, so I will have someone to argue with and teach me more about religion...lol. But thats my update for now, as I've ended most these last ones... we'll see where this one goes!

Woman update

So yeah from the last post, I got my wild crazy night with that chick and then she grew attached so I don't talk to her anymore. On another note a week or so before that night Vic brought a chick back to my house from the bar but nothing happened between them. Well her and I have been talking and she is super cool. Weve made out a couple times but she is a typical woman who don't know what she wants. She says she don't want a relationship and doesn't want a fuck buddy but she wants to fuck me. And she seems so normal and cool at any other conversation other than that one. In other news all of my friends have girlfriends again. Vic fell for a chick hed been talking to. My best bud has had a gf for a while and they are going good again. And my long time single friend has fallen head over heels for a new chick who is pretty cool but here I sit alone. I do hope things work with this chick but Im not sure if its cuz I like her or because everyone around me has someone. I don't know. Shes got a son a year older than mine, we are supposed to get them together this weekend. I guess we'll see how that goes and go from there...

Adventures of Vic and RC

Obviously I have neglected this for another while, as usual. I have been on a reading rampage lately... I read 2 books in like a week and then needed to find another. I asked friends got some suggestions, looked online and came across the best title in the world... "I hope they server beer in Hell", if you are a man pick this up!! Women, I'm not too sure...lol. It is about this guys adventures drinking and fucking and getting in trouble. I think that I may have enough crazy stories to fill a book. May not be quite as good as his, but would be funny nonetheless!

K To the Adventures of Vic and RC, Vic is my cousin's babydaddy's bro. He is recently single and needed a wingman, so we started hanging out since I have been single forever and only one of my friends are and he never wants to go try to pick up chicks. SO this past weekend we go up to the bar on Friday. I spend most the night trying to bring home the bartender that was flirting with me a couple nights earlier with no success, he succeeds getting a chicks number who calls 15 minutes after we leave and comes and hangs out at my house, only prob is she doesnt bring her friends, just her... Oh well...

Sat night Vic bro tells us there is a party in a small town like 35 miles away, we say fuck it and go. This is not a party! It is a couple other people one with a kid sitting and watching Ice Age while drinking a few beers. We end up running out to the car to get smokes and hear music, so we follow it. We are less than a block from a bar with some good music, a couple hot chicks and tons of dumb redneck guys. We check it out, go back to the house for a few beers and tell them we are gonna hang at the bar. I see the hottest chick in the place checking me out, her friend is pretty cute too. We go up and try to talk, they straight up turn their backs on us!! Fuck them... well she kept staring, I later find out she works with the bar and thought his bro and I were underage. Once they check our IDs she stops looking. This place is crazy, there were prego chicks running around, a 75+ yr old woman on the dance floor dancing to Black Eyed Peas... it was funny. So we have a beer chill, I had another OK looking chick checking me out but she was with the prego chicks. We decide to leave, as we are walking out the door a chick grabs Vic and tells him to stay and dance. I asked if he wanted me to stay, he said he'd be ok, so I go back to the house and drink a few Captain Morgan and cokes real quick and then head back up. Vic is dancing with one of the prego chicks... He comes over to me and says that she is into him, she just saw her baby daddy and all kinds of stuff. SO I start dancing with the one who was looking at me earlier, she is ok... kinda a butterface... everything looked good but her face... BUt she could shake her ass! So end of the night comes and they invite us back to their friends house. We go and sit there, there is Vic, Myself, Butterface, 2 prego chicks, big black dude shows up, and a big guy with a fake mohawk... We sit and bullshit for a bit BBD is hilarious! Vic has prego on his lap, I got my girl on mine so we at least know we arent getting left out from the other guys. SO Vic and his girl go upstairs to bed, a lil later my girl and I try to... well there is one bed and they are fuckin in it. So we go back downstairs, prego comes down and says its ok they are done. We go up and lay on the floor by the bed. We start making out, can hear Vic making out, we start going at it, they are too... It was kinda funny. This chick feels like a virgin, I know I am pretty good size but I had some probs getting it in and now can see that I am hurting her. I ask if she wants me to stop, she says no she likes it rough... ok. They finish and are listening to us, prego makes a comment and I tell her that she is messin with my concentration and we all lose it laughing. Other prego comes up stairs and all girls go down to bathroom, I look down and I have blood on me. I tore her... I was like freaking out and other prego starts yelling about "you're in trouble motherfucker!" I tell vic I am jumping out the window, but decide not to, I just yell "She told me it was ok!" They come up and she yells at vic, apparently he left a lil hickey on his prego... HAHA It was crazy! SO We take some women home from a bar, 2 of them prego and I end up tearing up the non prego one a couple feet from Vic.... I couldn't wait to tell my friends this story! Well now both chicks are in love with us... I told him that I am only gonna hangout and fuck this chick for a week or 2 tops... I at least need some wild crazy sex with no one else in the room!!

October Update

Wouldn't it be awesome if I came in saying that I won the lottery or something great happened... Yeah but that type of shit don't happen to me! SO where shall we start? Work still sucks, I am getting more hours, 37 a week, at my main job which still isn't enough to really afford my bills, I am still working 1 day a week at the other job til the end of the month. I am really tired of it, the autistic guy I work with is a real pain in the ass and has gotten physical with me, last week he ripped off my necklace for the 2nd time and scratched a nice gash in my neck. I am still not sure how I restrained myself but I did remain somewhat calm and took a couple deep breaths. But thats enough to put me over the edge.
Lets see last I was waiting to hear from the nursing program, if I can come up with 100 by the end of the month I can be on the list to finish my classes in spring of 2011... so I am going to start in Jan for a degree in Visual communications, photography, video, and web stuff that I have always enjoyed. Again I doubt I will find a job as that but I will at least be able to get my GI bill while waiting for the nursing. And who knows maybe I will come across a job in it... then I won't have to go back.
In other news still just sit around most the time I'm not at work. Got a big Halloween party on Sat that should be fun as hell, we are havin a hairy buffalo, kewler stew, grog, or whatever you wanna call it when u mix a shitload of clear alcohols in a cooler with fruit. I will be going as a priest, well a catholic one because I will be flashing my goods and harassing little boys, well boys since everyone has to be over 21. But should be fun... Thats about it for now, hope everyone elses lives are going better!

Make up your own snappy title...

So its not as if anyone reads this anyway... most of my hits are from people trying to find out if the Marlboro Ranch thing is for real or not... Anyways so life still hasn't picked up from last post, to be honest everything is exactly the same! I am broke and living mainly off my credit card in hopes that I will somehow come into money to pay them off before I exceede the limits. So I know I was slightly depressed in last couple posts, but now that my son is back in school I am back in familiar territory of not having a reason not to drink! I do work 3rd 6 nights a week now... 5 at the assisted living facility and 1 at my old job with mentally handicapp in hopes of actually affording my bills... though I only work 6 hour shifts at my assisted living... SO I sleep in til 3 or so and get up and lounge til its time to go to work... usually make a drink or 2... A friend who is recently laid off and I are trying to start working out, to give me a reason to get up and give him something to do other than take care of his sick father, who has brain cancer and has not been feeling good.

Also 3 of us have started our own Midwestern Drinking Society(MDS) since we have been drinking slightly more than usual... Even though we are all poor, we take turns buying when we can... the one thing that helps us get together and forget about most of our problems in life. Not very good therapy and we know it, but it works for now... and we are thinking ahead that if we get this thing going it can be a mix of "Old School" and "Beerfest"... I decieded that I want a MDS sponsored Beerfest by 2012! We've heard of a beer olympics happening here sometime... so we figured that would be a good place to go completely public, as we have been setting up our rules and regulations... But as it is getting late it's time for me to start getting ready for work... yay... NOT!

Down down down...

Hello world... its been a while. Life has been fairly shitty like usual, like I should have expected anything different. Work actually has not been too bad, except I only work 4 days a week so I don't make enough money to pay all my bills. I just finished all of my savings this month so now I am completely poor and don't know how I am gonna survive next month. Also I work with a chick 2 of the 4 days who is a piece of shit, she doesn't really work and it just annoys me knowing that she has a job, she should be fired and just pay me her salary too... I do all the work anyway! Speaking of chicks, there still are none, the one that was supposed to be moving up here, we were talking for a week or 2 and things were cool, then she stopped talking to me and thats been it. My cuz who she was supposed to move up here with said she hasn't heard from her either.

Whoever said money can't by happiness was a fool. The last several weeks while I watched my savings dwindle to nothing my depression has been rising. Everytime it does all I hear in the back of my head is that my life is worth $250,000. That would be enough to help my parents for a while and hopefully keep my son from going through this crap. Then its even worse to realize that your death could be what is best for your family. Obviously I have overcame these looming thoughts before and hopefully will again but it just sucks and its obviously a subject best not discussed. I usually burn thru my savings in summer but then start back in school and start adding back to it but this year I can't start fall classes because I have to wait for the school board to approve my application for nursing program and until that happens there are no classes for me to take. SO I am fucked! Lets see if and how I can get out of this hole...

Jumping off a bridge

So I know that I pretty much never get on here anymore. Mostly because not a lot has changed. I did get a new job working a retirement home instead of with menatlly handicap. I did however meet a cool hot chick that is friends with my cuz who should be moving up here from southern Ohio in a couple weeks. We will see how that goes. ALso went and spent the weekend at a lake house with some friends. Included fun in the sun, chilling on a boat in my speedo and oh yeah I jumped off a bridge! Here is my Youtube video of it and if u want check out my channel and see some of my drunken boxing videoes.

Short Update

Another update.. Lets start with I saw Silverstein for the 6th time in concert a couple weeks ago. I think I cannot see them in Detroit again. The first time I did I ended up breaking a guys arm, this time I took a friend, but we got lost thanks to yahoo maps directions that led us to Canada, where we were detained for trying to cross the border without passports. We got lost several times but found the place before it started... the show was great, got some good pics. Then we got lost trying to get home several times as well as almost running out of gas from being parked on the highway for no apparent reason. Other than that things have been pretty much the same, just work and school. My finals are tomorrow... my last chance to pass my anatomy class.. which I have a final test and then a comprehensive final right after! Then my Poetry final which I will prob not do well in but I am pretty sure I will still pass it reguardless. I got a laptop finally!! A week before school was up...lol. But it rocks, I love it and now am addicted to it. I sometimes get internet at work, where I am now. Taking a break from studying anatomy... my brain is fried! Looking foreward to Cinco de Mayo, celebrate my independence from this semester of school... and prob drown some sorrows about being lonely as usual. I've been really tired of being single. Which is good timing cuz cinco de mayo is when HB broke up with me, what like 2 years ago. Which was my last real relationship... the one that claimed was my girlfriend since was just a title, and the others have only been friends with benefits... I miss that warm happy feeling. But whatever.. I try to meet people but this just isn't the area for it... I'm hating this place more and more... but hopefully spending the summer with my son will help cheer me up... though he doesn't get out of school for another month... Well guess need to get back to studying... YAY NOT!

My tat finished

I know I look pale but it's winter!!

Marlboro Ranch

So I know it's been forever, I have been pretty busy between work and school. They have me working more hours at work now, and school is kicking my ass! But I have been back for just over a week from my trip to Marlboro Ranch in Montana, it was amazing!!!! Everything was free, free gourmet meals buffet style so you can eat as much as you wanted!Snacks all day in between, free alcohol from 5pm-1230am. Packed scedule of activities, free gear inclyding a parka, gloves, some badass boots and socks. a fat check to cover the pay you were missing from not being at work. The view was crazy out there everywhere you looked looked like a postcard. I had to come back to flat ass Ohio, sucked! But My friend and I had a blast, we went on a wilderness thing and just saw terrific views being surrounded by mountains. We went tubing and snowmobiling. We line danced, toured Yellowstone national park. We didn't get to hook up with any ladies, most were couples and the ones that were just girls were taking back home and stood by thir man even though we tried...lol. We did meet a couple cool as people though. We were put into a drawing to go back in the summer, that would be great if we won that! SO if you're a smoker I suggest you smoke Marlboro, they take care of ya! And if you quit like I did almost 2 years ago, keep on their mailing list and give the coupons to people you know that smoke!!! Gotta run to class! I got pics on my myspace.... take to long to put them here, I took over 200!!!! LAtaz!

New Tat!!

It hurt pretty bad, but the main problem was trying to get comfortable and to keep myself from flinching, my body kept trying to jerk and I had to concentrate on not!!

New Year or same old shit?

So I am back in school, of course as usual things don't work out for me, ever! So I was supposed to only have 2 classes this semester and have all 12 credits to be considered full time. Well the first day, before my nursing class started they asked if I was there and I said yeah, they said I had to go talk to someone cuz I wasn't supposed to be in the class. Apparently I am not yet accepted into the nursing program, and I can't be in the class until I am accepted, and then there are no openings til next fall. I don't understand how I could have had a seat already but now I have to wait so long. So that class was 8 credits, I had to find a way to make them up. Since it was the first day of school, most classes were already filled. Plus I have all the classes I need except the nursing ones! I ended up gettin an understanding poetry class. and a microsoft apps online class. I hate takin online classes because I slack on them too much! But that is only 6 credits so I am only considered a 3/4 time student which fucks with my GI Bill and my monthly payments. WHich I will prob survive, but I am fucked on spring quarter! I'm going to have to get a second job or find a way to get more hours at work!

Not sure if I mentioned it here yet or not, I did have 1 stroke of luck, I won a trip through Marlboro(cigarettes) a trip to their ranch in Montana. All expenses paid, they give me money, and all kinds of shit. Thats going to be Feb 18-21. That will be my buddy and I. Should be fun! I am finally getting started on my new tattoo on wednesday! I am excited, its taken a while because I came up with my concept and my artist was having a hard time trying to make it into a tat... We argued, discussed and made some compromises, and finally came out with a badass sketch! I should put a pic up wed or thurs.. I'm sure it will prob only be an outline, it's gonna be on my side. I know people think why are you doing this when you are constantly bitching about money problems and being broke. This money is from a check I got back from the school last quarter, I put it away for this as part of my christmas present to myself. I never really buy myself anything and I have been missing out on the concerts I wanna see because of school, work, and the weekends I have my son. I never really have "ME" time to be able to see any! SO I save all that into one thing for myself! Plus when things are down, the pain and watching something cool develop like that makes me happy! But that is about it for now.