Trips complete

So the trip to Ohio started as a disaster. Driving wasn't too bad, not much traffic and didn't get pulled over, but 12 miles from my town a deer ran into my car. Right into the drivers side. I barely saw its head when it hit, luckily it was only a small doe. It fucked up my headlight, turn signal and dented my doors and scratched the car. I was pissed. I was cruising at 80 on back roads. I stopped threw it in reverse, grabbed my asp baton and got out to finish the deer as I called my mom to see if I needed to call the cops. When I found it and went after it I had my mom yelling at me through the phone to leave it alone and HB yelling at me, wanting to help it. I think the cop had to kill it, it couldn't get up. But we were ok, my car was the only victim. Then that night while I slept part of my tooth filling broke off and I woke up in extreme pain. Good times, NOT! But my family seemed to like HB, it is hard for my mom to like people but I am pretty sure she did. It was a pretty good time. It was cramped for time. My boy gave HB a hard time at first but kind of warmed up to her. I think he gets on her nerves but thats what he does. He is very picky because his mom spoils him way too much and I don't think I can break him in less than a month. I will try though and if need be his summers with me will turn into bootcamp til he starts acting right. The problem is that she spoils him and her "cousin" that she lives with and her uncle thats next door are immature and fuck with him. He thinks it's cool to call names and act up and fight. I usually wrestle with him but he actually punches now and that's definately gonna stop. But that's the little drama I'm gonna be going through. Now tables have turned and HB has to deal with my boy annoying her...lol. Tonight Canowine and I are going to go see Sonic Youth at the 930 club, it's gonna be awesome! I wish HB could come since she still hasn't been to 930 but she volunteered to stay home and watch my boy, so I owe her big. Well need to go somebodys begging for attention.

Busy day tomorrow

Ok so no more promises of audioblogs. I almost did when we went to Howl at the Moon. We parked kind of far because we weren't exactly sure where it was but saw a lot to park for free. We walked in, it was pretty busy, had some drinks, got some free ones and shots for being military. We left went to the lot and it was locked. I was gonna jump the barbed wire fence but then realized that I still couldn't get the car out. I eventually went into a hotel that also used the lot and got them to open it. But we freaked out for a while.

Tomorrow bright and early we fly out of here and to Bmore, then drive to rockville to get my car and then off to Ohio. It's gonna be a long day. But should be fun. I really owe Specy for letting us crash at his place. We took it over, ate his food, slept in his bed. So he'll probably be glad to get his room back, but I need to let him have his computer back. Later people! Have a good weekend!

I'm in Texas Biatches

Whats up, I know no audio's yet. We're in San Antonio with Specy. Houston was ok, her family didn't seem to hate me which is good. They were kind of impartial with me. I hung out with HBs little bro most the time because he spoke english. It was cool though, we ate a shitload of food. We've been here for a couple days crashin with Specy, taking over his place. We've just been lounging and taking it easy. I got my white ass burnt by the pool in Houston, but am healing good. Maybe hit up the pool again tomorrow. Tonight we are heading down to the riverwalk. It is always fun, go to Howl at the Moon, which is way better than in Bmore, sory TG. But just thought I'd give a quick update and maybe tonight when we get stupid!!!!!!!!!!

Goodbye...for now

First off, if you don't have your speakers on, turn them on. HB was kind enough to pick up a CD on her way home yesterday. Silverstein's new(kind of) album. 18 Candles: The Early Years is a compilation of their early stuff with a couple added acoustic and live song. 2 of the songs were recorded right here at the 930 club on March 1, if you remember I was fighting with Specy to go to either that one or the next day in Baltimore but he bitched out on me. Fucking fag, you'd be able to hear us screaming "Already Dead" like we did at the other times we saw them. But this acoustic version of Call it Karma is fucking GREAT! The original kicks ass to but I love the way he plays his guitar. Now if your a fan which most of my readers aren't because you suck!(just kidding...well a little) most of the songs from the early albums are the same as what was on "When Broken is Easily Fixed" which was there first full length album. It's kind of cool hearing how Shane sounded 6 years ago.

Again I have tons of shit to do, I am supposed to show an officer how to cover for me while I'm gone but he's no where to be found. I am pissed and about to just leave and say fuck it, what are they gonna do fire me? Bend my dogtags? Fucking officers! I am starving! I have to eat all the breakfast sandwichs I have so they don't go bad and get thrown away, so thats gonna be my lunch today. I am about to go eat it so I can leave soon. Well there is the retard officer and he just said yeah I know how to do it...ok fuck you them later, now I have to go down and do the shit I could have done earlier. Fuckin asshole! and then the guy in charge of me gives me 2 big boxes of things and said to go through them and see if their are any old ones and take them out! I am out of here in an hour. Fuck all these fuckheads! Vacation is starting early cause I'm not staying long at my other job. I still need to pack and shit! Peace everyone. Like I said look for audio coming soon!

It's dangerous driving with air conditioning and subwoofers

That would make a good album name. Hmmmm where to begin. Nice boring weekend. Saturday Specy and his new bride came over and we had some drinks, food, and good times talking. They were our first real guests in the house since we moved in, HB did most the cleaning before they got there, I tried to help but felt mostly in the way so I tried to keep the boy busy. Today I was swamped at work so I left early. I like being different, most people stay late when they have a bunch of shit to do, I run away. I got most the shit done I needed to. I then drove here to my other job. It is hot as fucking hell outside. Anyone who has rode with me knows I usually have to have my window cracked a bit. I'm not really sure why but I do, in winter its because the heater chocks me, I need fresh air and summer, I just like the windows down and the wind blowing through, but it was too fucking hot. So I'm cruising with my air on and music blaring not thinking anything til I passed a couple cars and looked at the spedometer and was doing almost 100mph, I looked at my mirror to see if any cops were around but because of the vibrations of my bass I could barely see cars getting smaller. So I decided that I have to pay attention and slow down when I have the air on, I guess I can tell how fast I'm going by the wind blowing in when the windows are down. Luckily no tickets. We leave Thursday for Texas where it will be hotter, hopefully the weather is just trying to get me pre climatized, though I hear it's been flooding down there or some shit, so the rain will feel good. I will get to meet Hbs family, which I am sure they will kick me out of their home and forbid her from seeing me again, perhaps by not even letting her leave the home until I die. Just kidding, parents usually like me. I tend to keep my mouth shut around them for the most part, so they think I'm shy when I'm really just trying not to go off on some tangent argument about god knows what. Plus they don't speak good english so maybe I'll try saying stuff in jibberish and act like I can't believe they don't understand me. Again I guess I just get goofy when I get nervous but I am pretty sure things will go fine. HB's been trying like hell to get out of going to meet my family. Though I keep telling her they like her already. My mom even asked what kind of food she liked or wouldn't eat. She didn't give a shit about my ex...lol. She'd just say she's eating what everyone else is, or she just assumed because she was chunky that she wasn't picky, who knows. My mom is usually pretty honest and bitchy. I don't recall her saying anything to my ex, but I do remember her telling me she didn't like her when we were dating. But on the bright side of both we can meet the family and then if we don't get along we live far away(for now at least). We'll get to hang with Specy in his new place, drag him out if we're invited to hang with HBs friends down there, hopefully he can make some new friends, though I doubt it cause we are really bad when we get together. I wish I could have taped our dinner conversation...lol. I don't remember everything, just orgys, AIDs, and whatever else came to our minds at the time that we thought we could do. It's always fun but usually worse in pubic. But the girls get along and accept us, which is very hard to believe, I think when we're not around they talk about how dumb we are and how they are trying to change us and not let us hang out, but whatever. Hope everyone else had a good weekend and look for some audiobloggs when I'm gone, I am sure if Specy and I get drunk we'll call up. Laterz!

Another one bites the dust

When I was thinking about how much I wanted to say about Specy getting married yesterday, that song popped in my head. do..do..do..another one bites the dust... But it was nice and a good time. It's nice seeing friends get married and not being pregnant...lol. It's just a shame that the case has been one of them being far away for a bit, with Uncle Tom going to Korea and then Specy being in Texas. HB and I have been discussing our wedding plans, she said she didn't know who I was marrying because it wasn't her, I told her I'd hold a gun to her head and she told me to shoot her, she'd rather die than marry me. Nice huh? Here I give this woman my heart and soul and worship her with all my existance and this is what I get....Ok don't start to pity me or give HB shit. We both have a sick and twisted sense of humor so we laughed about it and I make her feel guilty. It's what I do. But Specy and his new bride will grace our home with their presence Saturday night, our first house guests...lol. Our bedroom is looking good it is nice to have dressers, everything is actually looking good, just messy now, like we've been living there for years...lol. I'm thinking about seeing if I can just not do my PRT(physical readiness test) I mean really I am getting out in January, so that means I would have to take this one and one more, so what are they gonna kick me out if I don't do it. I've been getting short timers syndrome, I just think fuck it I'm getting out, what are they gonna do? Wrong attitude I know but hey thats me. I am fucking dehydrated from drinking yesterday so I am thirsty as hell and of course a water main or some shit broke so we have like no water in the hospital. I am fucking tired!!!! I want to just hide and sleep, maybe I can actually sleep in tomorrow! Probably not, I don't know if it's because of Gabe or what but now my body forces my eyes open by at least 930 on weekends, I will still be tired and try to hold them close but they will open and just stare at the wall until I get up. It is really annoying. I miss when I would sleep until at least noon if not 3. But I guess that was because I was unconscious from drinking or whatever else and didn't hit whatever surface I ended up sleeping on until the sun was rising. AH, the good old days. But I'd like to dedicate this song to Specy, the love of my life

Another One Bites The Dust-Queen

Ooh, let's go
Steve walks warily down the street
With the brim pulled way down low
Ain't no sound but the sound of his feet
Machine guns ready to go

Are you ready, hey, are you ready for this
Are you hangin' on the edge of your seat
Out of the doorway the bullets rip
To the sound of the beat - yeah

Another one bites the dust
Another one bites the dust
And another one gone and another one gone
Another one bites the dust, eh
Hey, I'm gonna get you too
Another one bites the dust

How do you think I'm going to get along
Without you when you're gone
You took me for everything that I had
And kicked me out on my own

Are you happy, are you satisfied ?
How long can you stand the heat
Out of the doorway the bullets rip
To the sound of the beat
Look out

Another one bites the dust
Another one bites the dust
And another one gone and another one gone
Another one bites the dust, eh
Hey, I'm gonna get you too
Another one bites the dust

Hey
Oh take it
Bites the dust - bite the dust hey
Hey
Another one bites the dust
Another one bites the dust, ow
Another one bites the dust, hey hey
Another one bites the dust, heeey
Ooh show down

There are plenty of ways that you can hurt a man
And bring him to the ground
You can beat him
You can cheat him
You can treat him bad and leave him
When he's down, yeah
But I'm ready, yes I'm ready for you
I'm standing on my own two feet
Out of the doorway the bullets rip
Repeating to the sound of the beat
Oh yeah

Another one bites the dust
Another one bites the dust
And another one gone and another one gone
Another one bites the dust, yeah
Hey, I'm gonna get you too
Another one bites the dust
Shoot out
Hey, alright


But seriously Dance Fanatic better take care of him and I wish both of them the best. She is now my extended family and always welcome where every I am. And I will always be here if you need and ear or even a shoulder. Love you both! Everyone have a great weekend and celebrate! And be memorable of those of us fighting and those who have died and can't celebrate life and the day off!

Useless Facts

When your done click this thing above this and see where it goes and I'll see how much your supposed to get for every click.



Annually 17 tons of gold is used to make wedding rings in the United States.

An office desk has 400 times more bacteria than a toilet.

Amish people do not believe in the use of aerosal air fresheners.

A 13-year-old boy in India produced winged beetles in his urine after hatching the eggs in his body.

The average four year-old child asks over four hundred questions a day.

18% of an Americans income is spent on transportation

In 1982, Larry Walters tied 24 weather balloons to his lawn chair in Los Angeles and climbed to an altitude of 16,000 feet.

850 peanuts are needed to make an 18 oz. jar of peanut butter.

Amazingly, goalies in the National Hockey League played without masks until the year 1959.

The 1912, a wrestling match in Stockholm between Finn Alfred Asikainen and Russian Martin Klein lasted more than 11 hours. Klein eventually won, but was to tired to participate in the championship match.

More than 50% of the people in the world have never made or received a telephone call.

The most overdue book in the world was borrowed from Sidney Sussex College in Cambridge, England and was returned 288 years later.

Emilio Marco Palma was the first person born in Antarctica in 1978.

George Washington grew hemp in his garden.

The largest bill U.S. bill made is for $100,000.

The first domain name ever registered was Symbolics.com.

It would take twenty new mid-size cars to generate the same amount of pollution that a mid-size 1960's car did.

Another word for hiccups is "singultus."

Former U.S. president Ronald Reagan worked as a lifeguard in his youth at a beach near Dixon, Illinois and saved over 77 lives.

Alexandre Gustave Eiffel, the man who designed the Eiffel Tower, also designed the inner structure of the Statue of Liberty in New York Harbour.

In Singapore, it is illegal to sell or own chewing gum.

An average home creates more pollution than does the average car.

Each day the sun causes about one trillion tons of water to evaporate.

The term "mayday" used for signaling for help (after SOS) comes from the French "M'aidez" which is pronounced "MAYDAY" and means, "Help Me."

American Airlines saved $40,000 in 1987 by eliminating one olive from each salad served in first class.

Kite flying is a professional sport in Thailand.

Some bitching and stuff....

So yesterday after coming across the link below, I was infuriated. I am tired of coming across these websites that are so fucking ridiculous and yet genius at the same time. Trade a paperclip for a house, Save Toby, and all the rest that I don't know about yet. I ran an idea across HB, I was gonna start another blog in which I would buy a mouse and auction it's life off, I would mail it to the highest bidder, if it wasn't enough money I'd kill it, but with her being a vet she said I couldn't do it. That was the best idea I could come up with so I sold out my blog, if you notice above this post is a banner thing. Since blogger has adsense I figured I'd try it and see what happens. I was also surfing trying to find out how to make money taking surveys and surfing the web. There was a lot of spam and pop ups and shit but I am doing it on work computer so I don't care. Well all that amounted to nothing. When I find out how this adsense works I'll ask all of your help to earn me money and then let you know how it works and I'll help you. I don't know if it goes by views of this page or if you have to click it or what. They should be sending me an email in a day or so.

One of the things I have been meaning to bitch about but keep forgetting... I am tired of seeing fatasses!!! I'm not talking about chunky people or anything like that, I mean the huge fat fucks that can barely walk, the ones who get handicap stickers so they don't have to walk as far when they really need to park at the very back of the lot. I have one in my office, she pisses me the fuck off. She hobbles in on her cane and has to rest on one of the chairs she places around the room, then rolls towards her desk and the hobbles to the other chair. She gets fucking winded switching chairs. If she is in a chair away from her desk and her phone rings she asks someone else to run over and answer it. She asked me one time and I bit my tongue(really bit it) and answered it for her instead of saying get your fucking fat ass up and get it yourself, maybe if your fucking run you'll fucking have a heart attack and do yourself a fucking favor and just die! I don't understand how people can let themselves go like that. I can understand heredity and thyroid problems and all that making people chunky or overweight, but only to a certain degree. Watch what you fucking eat when that shit happens, especially if your too fucking lazy or your body(knees, ankles, whatever) doesn't permit you to exercise. For fucks sakes have some fucking dignity. But you see these people on talk shows and shit getting lifted out of their bed with a crane or bulldozer, fuck them if they don't have the will to get out of bed, they don't have the will to live, put them out of their misery. Fuck I am getting pissed now. But like I said I'm not talking about fat as in slightly overweight but still functional. My ex's cousin was 14 and weighed over 300 lbs. It was crazy, she should have done like her sister and married a heroine addict off the internet and gone on his diet and looked anorexic as hell a year later but that's a different story. She would sit down and eat a whole chicken that was cooked for the whole house and then eat cake and ice cream and whatever else she could get her fat fingers on. Looking at her actually made me nauseous. Ok I need to go smoke now....Happy Tuesday...Lol.

HORSESHIT!!!!!!!!

I hate the fact that I can't come up with a great retarded plan like THIS and get famous!

Nothing

Well I kind of got something to start out with. HB called me a bit ago and started off the convo with "I'm the worst girlfriend in the world" so my mind goes nuts, I'm thinking she ran over my dog while taking everything I own to a pawn shop so she can buy drugs on her way to a gangbang with all my friends and family and whoever else got the flyer or email. But then I realized that I don't have a dog and my family and now all guy friends are far away, so then maybe an ex or random guy tripped and landed with his penis in her, or stuck his tongue in her mouth and it took her a bit to realize that she can't do that, now one of these things especially the first would win the "worst girlfriend in the world award". But no the diamond fell out of the ring I got her for Valentines day. I looked up ojnline, it appears that the warranty I got for it covers lost diamonds so we can take it after work as long as I can find the paperwork in the mess that is our room.

I've come to decide that I probably need to stop posting little shit about my life since it has become really boring now that all my friends have left, and HB has tamed me...lol. Even Specy's girl told her last time they hung out that I've calmed down alot. When in reality I just stopped drinking so fucking much. Drinking+depression= me acting like a damn fool. Me+HB= me happy and calm. Now I still drink a little every once in a while but it is controlled amounts. I have been feeling the urge to get drunk lately and maybe get a little crazy but it's just not the same without having a bud there to get in trouble with. Specy will be in Wednesday, we may get drunk while he's here but I doubt we'll have a night to ourselves. And if we do we won't be out getting in trouble, probably just stay in and play xbox and shit. God what happened to us...lol women. Not that it's a bad thing, they keep us from getting in trouble, though we are due to get surrounded by cops. Ok Now I forgot where I was going I guess that's my point. I just really have nothing entertaining to talk about anymore. I still haven't posted the pics, I'd say I'll do it tonight but we'll need to go by the jewelry store and we need groceries, I don't think either of us can remember the last meal we had that was home cooked. But yeah so I am tired of typing so I'm sure your tired of reading, laterz...Happy Monday.

Letter Game

I sit here at work on a Sunday :( because my bank account has dwindled during this move and vacation coming up in a little over a week. I need some cash. But my love did this and no one volunteered so I figured I'd do it....

This is how it works: Comment on this entry and I will give you a letter. Write ten words beginning with that letter in your journal, including an explanation of what the word means to you and why, and then pass out letters to those who want to play along.

My letter is "b...I'm not sure where to begin, hey that begins with B...

Bed: I love to just lie in bad, I never want to get out of it, especially while I'm lying with my love. It is so comfortable and feel like nothing in the world can bother you.

Blood: The life fluid that everyone needs to live. It's so full of life with it's bright red color. I love the metallic taste of blood. I usually only drink my own blood but am open if HB is down...lol.

Blurry: It seems a huge part of my life is blurry, either drug induced or just from my delusional mind. I know that when I look back on past event some have been altered to better suit what I thought should have or what I wished would have happened. Plus it just seems like everything is flying bby so fast.

Baggage: I have it, not so much physically, yes I have a kid but not all the time. More emotional, I'm just fucked in the head. I am insecure and feel everyone is out to fuck me over, just because that's what it seems like so far but maybe that is all a part of my blurry memory.

Barbed Wire: I have always been fasinated with it, don't know why really. I used to have a necklace that I got in Myrtle Beach with one barb(?) on it. I wore it all the time, I'm not sure what happened to it, I think it stayed in the ex's jewelry box. I also have it tattoed around my left arm.

Baseball Cap: That's what it's called though I usually doin't wear one with a baseball team. Though I used to wear a White Sox one all the time until it flew out the back of a truch and then I got my Korn hat, and now my freak hat. I always wear a hat, don't know why, just my security item of clothes or something. I feel better wearing it.

Beach: I love the beach and have always dreamt of owning a beach house, though unless I win the lottery will probably never happen. I've been to several beaches and usually I would end up walking along it alone, just thinking as the waves and sound and just the whole atmosphere swallowed me whole. I just love the feeling and how it seems to open up my mind, though it was usually to dark and depressing thoughts.

Brain: Mine is highly disfunctional and sadistic. I end up thinking about the craziest shit for no apparent reason. It is a problem, like when I was painting for 5 hours. I woulod just start making up shit in my head, conversations that I hope never happen. Again I just need to keep it occupied and confined so it doesn't roam.

Burning: I am fasinated with fire. Perhaps that is why I was a pyro. But just watching a bondfire or anything, I find it beautiful. Again it is kind of like the beach, I get swallowed in and my mind wonders.

Breath: Everyone needs to breathe to survive. Sometimes though you just need to take the time to take that extra long slow breath. The one that clears your mind a bit and calms you down. The one that I forget to take way too often. The one that stops you from making a mistake or saying something you shouldn't.

Well that's my 10, anyone else up for it leave me a comment....

I'm sooooo fucking tired....

It seems lately all I want to do is sleep. I don't want to get up in the morning, I don't want to work, I just don't want to do anything, but I trudge along doing all the normal shit and just cutting corners. Our place is coming along nicely, still have a mess of shit in the dining room and our bedroom resembles a dump with the trashbags of clothes, but all that will be fixed soon. We got a nice bedroom set that will be delivered Wednesday. I recommend that no one goes to Marlo furniture in Rockville. I've been there before, a little expensive but not bad. We went one day and found this bitch from some 3rd world country more than likely around romania or something. She was rude and wierd. She recommend things we didn't want, we went back the next day to get the one we wanted and went to find someone to ring it up and ran into her again. She asked if we slept in the store, we showed her what we wanted she asks us if we know how to clean it and keeps going on about it and shit. I really wanted to say listen bitch fuck off, we want it give it to us and kieep your fucking mouth shut, but I behaved. She went and started to ring the shit up and said that it was out of stock and we couldn't have it til June, I said too long, we'll go else where, she made us stay so she could copy my drivers license and shit and say that it will be waiyting for us when we come back. I had to hold on to this piece of paper and guard it with my life or else someone would come and get it and I'd have to pay for it. I kept trying to refuse but she said she had to. We went to the room store where this really big dude let us wonder around and came to us exactly after we found what we wanted which was pretty much the same shit but cheaper. He was quiet and helpful and awesome. I then ripped up the paper that I needed to guard with my life and all is happy. With our bedset is gonna be a twin size bed for the boy, so we got all the big purchases out of the way now. Wedesday they hooked up the cable, internet, and phone but everything but the cable was fucked up yesterday, they fixed it today. Hopefully tonight I can get on Halo with Specy for a while since it has been a while. Sometime this weekend I'm sure I can get some pics up from the concert and see if I can get some pics of the place that aren't still clutered with boxes. Hope everyone has a good weekend. I will be trying to rest and get everything organized. Wish me luck, I'll need it!

Long weekend update

I need to try to make this quick because I've got a busy day, but it was a long weekend so I don't know if I can. Friday I painted for 5 hours and got the boys room, the bathroom, and office painted. I still have the dining room, our bedroom, and 3 bathrooms to paint, but they'll probably wait a while. We moved everything and nothing really got broken and no one really got hurt so it was a good move. My buddy from Bmore cancelled because he twisted his knee and we had to call in HBs Officer in charge who gladly helped and was very much appreciated. We've just been making trips to apartments to fill up cars with shit now and getting all the rest of the little shit. My apartment is finally cleared as of yesterday. Our living room looks livable, and HB fixed up the office to look nice, the boys room looks pretty good, but the kitchen, dining room, and our room are still a mess. Sunday we went to our concert, it was a great timne. First band was Red Jumpsuit Apparatus who was really good I dug it. A good rock band with some screaming. I don't thing HB cared too much for them. They were pretty funny, just thanking us for putting up with listening to them and for at least listening since they didn't have much choice since we were already there. Next up was Keating who was also pretty good, a little softer and I think the singer was gay. He liked touching himself while he sung. He also had his pants barely on his hips I guess to show off his big belt buckle or some thing but they still sounded good, it's hard for live music to suck. I mean a few beers and live music, you really have to suck to make it bad. Next up was Men, Women, and Children Uncle tom, Canowine and myself almost went to see them at the Black Cat a while back. They play kind of 70s music. It is very off, but it was a GREAT show! They put on a very entertaining live sow. Jumping around, getting the crowd to sing, clap and make you just jump along with them. They were having fun and it made everyone else have fun even though their music is very different. They came out equipped with head bands, and 2 had puffy shirts and bandanas hanging off thier guitars. It was awesome. Definately check this band out!! Then 30 Seconds to Mars took forever to come on stage which was very annoying. But eventually they came out and put on a great rock show. Jared annoyed me a little and it irritaed me that the crowd would just chant his name but I did admit, try chanting 20 seconds to mars, go aheadt try, it's hard, too many sylabols. I suggested 3SM to Hb but I wasn't sure if it would fly with the crowd. Jared talked to the crowd and asked how the back of the crowd was doing in which one guy flipped him off and he stopped and had the guy come up by the stage and he turned the lights on so everyone could see him and had us scream fuck you to him. And said shit about this was a family and he's too negative and shit. Plus Jared had a red smear on his forehead that really annoyed me, I hate when guys wwear makeup too "look rock" or whatever. But HB got a lot of pics and we just need to get them on the computer. She also got to meet the band and get their signatures for buying their CD there. I was happy for her. I think it was a pretty good Bday present, even though she's been fighting with me bout not really wanting to go, she had fun. Yesterday we went out to eat for HB's Bday with some people she works with, it was a pretty good time.

My back is really fucked up, I had to take a percocet this morning and feel like taking another. I'm not sure if it's just from moving or HB and I's run in. After moving it was sore and crap but now my sharp stabbing pains are back, it's always in the same spot. I've been running around all morning and unable to take big breaths I feel like I'm hyperventilating. Still no pics of our place since it is a mess but hopefully we can get our pics sometime soon and will post them when we do. Now I need to try to catch up on everyone elses blogs!

It's Friday!!!!!!!

About fucking time. Everyone is leaving but I have duty so I have to stay which is bullshit. I would normally just take off but I have to wait for the other dumbshit to come in so I can show him what needs to be done Monday and Tuesday since I won't be here and he hasn't really been here this week. I went during lunch to get more paint and other shit. I may just stay there and paint all night, so it's done and over with. I've been tired a shit lately, HB and I are like an old couple going to bed around 930 and shit but we've just been dragging ass!! She's been down and shit and I just don't really know what to do or how to help. Maybe if I finish painting that will be one less thing to bother her. Plus I know my lazy ass, if I don't do it now, it won't get done. Especially when we get cable and internet and I can play my xbox with specy! Mother's Day is Sunday and I didn't get my mom a card, I just figured I'll call. I've been wondering if I should do anything for my ex or HB. I guess I am taking HB to a concert on Sunday, does that count even though I said it was for her Bday? Who knows, who cares. Hb's been down about all the change, I've just kind of been blah. I mean I'm excited about having our own place, and meeting her family, and seeing specy soon, and getting my son but for right now it's blah. I'm trying to run around and get shit done. Picking up shit from my apartment and dropping it off, getting supplies and painting. My body's been sore and I've been lethargic. This is how I can tell HB is my kindred spirt. When one of us feels bad, so does the other, though she always seems to out do me. I have a sore tooth and back pain, she gets a UTI. I get eye problems, she gets pre cancerous lesions. But I don't mind too much not winning the "Ha, my problem is worse than yours" prize. Especially since that prize is just me moaning about my insignificant problems while she sucks up hers and still tries to baby me while I feel like a complete ass. HB is finishing painting the kitchen as I type, it is bright ass red, we will have to take pics. Seriously thought I mean RED it is different, our whole place is gonna be different which is cool but I hate the fact that it's not gonna be ours for ever you know. I guess it's just me being lazy and look at it as hey here's my hard work that's gonna be for nothing in a year you know. But what can I say, it's what she wants and I love her and want to do what I can to make her happy and this is just a little work that I can help with. Well jackass should be getting here soon and I need to smoke before he gets here and pisses me off. Have a great weekend, we should be back on Wednesday, hopefully with some pics of the place and 30 Seconds to Mars. Happy mother's day to all you mothers.

2 more days...!

That's right I have been living out of a duffel bag since November, stopping at my place and grabbing clothes and then staying at HBs. But in 2 more days that will be no more, well for 2 weeks anyway when we take our trip. Yesterday I painted our living room. We picked out our colors on Tuesday, which was more fun than I thought it was gonna be. HB pissed off a deaf person at Home Depot. She asked a question and he asked what because he was deaf and had to read her lips, she laughs when she's nervous and didn't know what to do and he got mad and asked why she was laughing. Then I asked him the question, whatever it was. My aunt is deaf and reads lips, I think sometimes we over do the lip thing but hey that's what I'm used to doing. I kept giving her a hard time asking if she was gonna laugh at my aunt because she can't talk as well as that guy could. She said probably...lol. I was wondering why the guy got so bent out of shape but I guess being in this area he probably gets a lot of shit. But we are still slowly dropping things off at the place, I am going by my place and grabbing some more shit here at lunch and dropping it off after work. We need more paint already, we only got one gallon of each color and it took the whole can to just do the living room, we still got the dining room, hall, and stairs to do in that one. Most the big stuff is going in the living room so we figured that should be the first thing to paint, not much furniture else where so it won't be too hard to move stuff when we get to it. But Saturday is gonna be the furniture and us being moved in!!

I bought a couple of CD's the other day. Tool's 10,000 days, which kicks ass just like Tool always does. I haven't had too much time to devote to listening so far but none of it really jumps out at me like Undertow and AEnima so I was a little disappointed in that sense but it still rocks! I also got Thursday's A City by the Lights Divided which is little softer than I thought it would be but it kicks ass as well. And Flyleaf's Flyleaf I forget how I stumbled over them the other day but I heard the beginning of their first song "I'm so sick" and it reminded me of Kittie and Otep so I had to get it but there isn't as much screaming on the rest of the songs, it's more like Evanescence and I've noticed I've run out of descriptive words so hold on why I consult with my thesaurus...it's transcendent. I just enjoy good music, I may not be able to explain it but hey I dig all 3 of them, That's all that matters. Look them up and maybe you will too and if your better at describing them, let me know what you think. Thank god tomorrow is Friday!!!!!!!

Music vids

I discovered a new website yesterday www.punkrockvids.com it has awesome videos like Silverstein "Smile in your Sleep" This doesn't capture all the energy of the show but if you watch close it shows how they don't care so much about people jumping on and off the stage and even shows a guy hit the stage head first. The quality isn't great but still I can't wait to see them again for the 4th time!

I actually stumbled on the site by looking up Chiodos and seeing they had a video there for "There's no penguins in Alaska" and after seeing that video I definately want to see them live! They play next Friday in Fredericksburg, VA with Between The Buried and Me, Giant, August Burns Red. I kind of want to go. I need to get as many concerts as I can in. But it's gonna suck going by myself.

They have quite a bit of live music but unfortuantly most are quicktime and I only have WMP on my computer here and can't get fucking QT on this fucking computer!

Well HB has been stuck with me for 200 days now. I think she won a new toaster or something for it. It is quite a feat. We are allowed to start moving our stuff into our new place so I'm gonna go during lunch to get some clothes and shit and maybe dishes. Everyday this week we should be dropping off carloads so that we can get the furniture this saturday and not have too much other shit to get and organize.

WATCH THE VIDEOS!!

I am weird

I have always been well aware that I am weird, but today it struck me in a different sense. I took my uniform home Friday and grabbed a new one when I was at my place, threw it in the car. Last night around 11 while I laid in bed trying to go to sleep I remembered it was still in a ball in a bag in my car. I was too lazy to go get it so this morning I woke up threw on clothes and ran out to get it. I gave it a quick as hell ironing job and was disappointed in the results but was strapped on time. Now I sit here in my uniform with little wrinkles and creases out of place that are driving me insane...me the same guy who could be going to a nice restraunt and grab a stained pair of clothes in a ball on the floor and go. But I am different in my uniform. It really pisses me off seeing people jacked up in uniform. When their hair is out of regulation or uniform looks like shit. Though when in civilian clothes I couldn't give 2 shits what my clothes look like. I don't really understand it. I guess it's just because I secretly do like looking good once in a while and my uniform is my chance to look professional or some shit, who knows. I had a good weekend. Friday I drove 3 fucking hous up north of Bmore to my buds bday party. I thought I was being slick by printing directions that avoided the major highways that I knew would be backed up during rush hour. Well my way took me on a long ass drive staight through the slums of Bmore. I am not easily scared but I turned down my stereo because of my speakers and got out my knife, opened it and sat it under my leg waiting for someone to come up and try to reach through my window. Yeah I could have simply rolled them up like everyone else but it was nice outside and I will not change my routine because there may be a chance of bitches fucking me over. Fuck them. But I arrived safely and consumed a shit ton of beer and passed out on his couch. Just like old times. Returned home to HB so she could go out Saturday night with the girls. Sunday we just vegged out and talked a bit. I love how we can just talk. I mean about anything and everything. Talked to Specy Saturday night and then HB and I talked to him yesterday because she felt the need to call and inform him that while I was talking to him the night before I was taking a dump. She thought it was odd though I knew he wouldn't care. We should be getting the key to our new place today after work. Move our shit this weekend!! I need to pack up all my shit sill, I threw some clothes in garbage bags on friday but I need to gather my dishes and shit I didn't even think of. I will probably do that this week sometime. We have quite a few little boxes in our dungeon that I didn't even think of. I'll grab them for dishes and shit it should be great. Well I suppose should get to doing something. Tomorrow I will hunt some more boxes for HB my co-worker just said that I should be able to find a bunch downstairs so I may grab them and hide them in the dungeon. I now have a mission. Happy Monday!

Music Shit

The other day a buddy offered me tix to see Blue October in Bmore, I denied because I didn't know who they were plus it was a weekday. Now I heard their song "Hate me" and kind of regret it, I like that song but watching the video I hate when guys wear eye make up, that's just gay!

HB bought some CDs yesterday I listened to a couple songs off Matchbook Romance "Voices" I only listened to the first couple songs but I am confused about it. It reminds me of Robert Smith, of the Cure, singing on Metallica's Black album. The music is great rock but the singing in my opinion sucks for that type of music. The song is fast and rocking and then the singing is soft and slow. He startes to pick it up a bit and sound like he is gonna wail but then nothing. Maybe the rest of the CD gets better but I was disappointed, I thought that I heard them before and liked them.

She got Desden Dolls because I've mentioned them before. I thought about picking it up before but it is just very weird, it kind of scares me. Haven't got a chance to listen to it yet. She also got Aqualung, the only sone I know is "Brighter than Sunshine" I like it.

DC101 has a shitload of Sonic Youth video's HERE is 100%, if you scroll the top to "S" you can see all the rest. They are really old, like 50 now. But Pixies still rocked for being that old. I need to start listening to the Cd canowine made of what he thought was their best songs.

I need to pick up Tool, Thursday, and possible Pearl Jam's new albums that came out Tuesday. Maybe I'll do that after work. If anyone has listened to any of them let me know what you think. Well I'm outta here. Have a good weekend all. Be safe and don't do anything that I WOULD do.

Sonic Youth!!!!!

I need to make plans for a babysitter. I saw Sonic Youth is playing the 930 club and had to get 2 tix. Problem is it's Thursday June 15th, I think HB has to go to work the next day and I'll need to find someone to watch my boy on a week night. Is 5 to young to stay at home by yourself, even if he's asleep. I'm kidding I will fid somthing. SONIC YOUTH!!!

THEY always pick on me

You know "they", being everyone who can. So I went to my eye appointment yesterday, my vision is 20/20 in one eye and 25/20 in the other. But he yelled at me, he asked how many times a day I've been putting in my eye drops. I lied and said twice a day, he said I needed to put them in 4 times a day and artificial tears 4-6. Apparently my eyes are starting to look scarred which is bad. I'm not sure and he didn't explain how bad, but I think if they scar I am going to go blind and die a couple days after. So I yelled at HB to make sure I put them in. He said I'll be doing this for a couple months. I haven't put them in in at least a week or so. I can see great, they didn't hurt, I thought I was all clear but I was wrong like usual.

I left work here early yesterday, about 12, I did a bunch of work so I figured I deserved it. When I got out to my car there was a ticket on it. I park in patient parking because staff is far away. How do they know I'm not a patient, just becasue my car has hospital stickers, maybe it's my wifes car and she has an appointment while I am working. But of course this isn't the case so I can't go argue that. I think it was one of the fat cops I made run the other day, he found my car and ticketed it. So that's another $50 out the window, my second in about a month, not to mention my speeding ticket. Fucking cops are always after me. They left me alone for a while so I didn't know it was a conspiracy but now they are back. I thought about fighting the system and keep parking in my spot but then decided that I didn't want to keep giving them my money that I could use on Cds or movies. I can't wait 250 days until I am a civilian and don't have to work here anymore!!!! Hopefully I will have enough leave to stop working around November! 2 full incomes for 2 months and only working one job! Merry fucking Christmas indeed if it works that way. I have it planned already, my hospital badge is good until 2008 so I can still get on base. I can wake up with HB and go to work and then leave after I get enough hours in and come to base and go to the gym, since I alway claim I don't have time, I will then.

Yesterday HB bought our tickets to Texas, "they" only screwed us on taxes and shit. But I called and reserved a Uhaul for moving next weekend, they only had a 10ft truck which I believe with my expert tetris skills I can fit all our big shit into, but I can't pick it up until after 4 on saturday which sucks because I wanted to get everything loaded up as early as possible so I can rest and shit, then unpack on Sunday. I have a friend coming down from north of baltimore on Saturday because the hard part is gonna be getting my shit out the window and HBs down 3 flights of stairs. But getting the stuff in the new place shouldn't be too bad. I'm excited. Then after unpacking the big shit we can go see 30 Seconds to Mars Sunday night for HBs Bday present up in Bmore. And unpack everything else Monday and Tuesday since we took off.

Thank god that tomrrow is Friday, I will be heading north of Bmore to that friend I mentioned house for his Bday, I haven't seen him in a couple months. I may have to get drunk as shit. He was one of the ones that went to the strip club with me in San Antonio for my Bday 2 years ago and bought me lap dances and I got to go on stage and everything. Good times except getting my sack hit by my belt. I'd like to do the same for him but I don't think his wife would like it...lol. Well in case I don't post tomorrow, everyone have a good weekend. Try not to get "them" hold you down. Fight the man!!!!!!

Surrounded by Cops....again

That's right I've mangaed to get surrounded by cops for I think the third time in a little over a year. This time at work of all places and thankfully not really at fault or in trouble. So here's the thing, we have a little room that we share with Radiation Safety, it has quite a bit of radioactive shit in it. Well there was talks of an alarm getting put on it and blah blah blah but we are authorized to go in. I had to go in to check on our shit. The phone rang when I went in, I didn't answer it because no one calls us there, well it rang again. Still didn't answer it. Heard car outside door. I was finished and walked out. Cop car was there, told me not to move, 2 more fat ass cops ran around the corner, it was funny one was fucking huge and out of breath. They asked what I was doing, I told them, they asked how I got in, I told them I had the code, they told me to read the sign about calling Rad safety, I told them I didn't have to. They asked if I went through that door, I said yes it's the only door(wanted to say no I walked through a concrete wall). They called everyone and verified that I was allowed and said to call them next time. Now here's the kicker I walked the couple of feet outside to smoke and there was a helicopter overhead!! That is a new feat that I don't think I can top and get away with. I told my officer in charge that I wanted to keep not calling because it was funny watching them run but he said that I'd get in trouble. There was only 3 cops and one car, but a helicopter! See my DUI there was like 5 cop cars and probably the same cops maybe a couple more, with Chris there was about 5 cars from county, state, and sheriffs. Next time I guess I need FBI or ATF! That could be fun. But that was my exciement for this afternoon. Hope everyone else can have that much excitment and not get in trouble. Well I guess I should do some work and planning for the next time!

TMI...Perhaps

Great weekend. Let's see, Friday I went to my other job and when I got home HB put Gabe to bed and went to a slumber party, it must be the season since Sandy just went to one the other day too. She came back late with a few things that shant be mentioned. Then we went to bed. Saturday we watched a couple movies in the morning and Gabe was excited about going to CHucky Cheeses but we said he had to take a nap first so he wanted to go to bed. He actually slept for like 3 and a half or so hours during which time HB and I participated in around 3 hours of love making which was the greatest I've experienced to date. And it was also the greatest workout I have ever had including in bootcamp where we had to exercise until we formed condensation on the ceiling. Every part of my body was sore. But yeah I know you guys didn't want to hear it but I just had to mention it, thats why it says TMI. But we went to chucky's and it wasn't bad, the pizza was way over priced and there were quite a few ghetto people there but the kids had fun running around and stuff so it was cool. Sunday was all about chillin, we watch Aeon Flux which I liked but it didn't match up with the cartoon, but then it made the cartoon make more sense. I am still not too sure if I liked it or not. I like the story line but it wasn't quite as weird as the cartoon. Though it did have some awesome outfits that I want to get for HB if I could find them anywhere. But yeah that was my weekend in a nutshell. Now this morning kind of sucked. I had to get up early and HB got to sleep in a bit. So I got up did my morning thing and then went back to bed to lay down for a while before I had to leave. Crawling into bed, her body was so warm, it felt so good. It was kind of like a chilly summer night and how good a fire feels warming your skin. So warm and felt so good. But then when I tried to get up she half asleep rolled over and grabbed me and tried not to let me go. She gripped my arm tightly as I tried to leave for work. I was so close to just crawling back into bed and saying fuck work. I really wish I would have. I await the day when I am out and can go to my other job whenever I please. I can crawl back into bed and wait to go in until she is up. I can stay in bed forever. I talked to Chris he should be in a couple days after I move, what a dick, I helped him move 4 times and he can't come in a couple days earlier. But fuck him, I can do it on my own, ok maybe not but I will have someone help me lift the heavy shit. Well I guess I need to start doing something here. Hope everyone had a good weekend and has a decent Monday.

2 Jobs Suck

That's right I said it. I got off at 11 today, I should be home taking a nap and watching porn but no I am an american, well person. And that means I am a slave to the almighty dollar(franks, or whatever your fucking countries have). So I work 2 jobs. It's not really that I NEED 2, but I never have enough money, well not as much as I want. I always have enough for bills, gas, smokes and all the little shit. But as a person we are greedy and want more, so here I am reading my email and getting ready to go play with lead bricks and continue to abuse my back. Oh well. Now I get newsletters from Tshirthell.com and they are hilarious. If you can't go to this website from work like I can't, well not from the navy, here is an excerpt just for you. I hope Chris reads this since he is in San Antonio!!! And he loves to bust on HB for being Mexican. Anyway you can check the full newsletter HERE. I gotta get to work.

America Fixed in Five Paragraphs

America is currently facing two huge crises. Immigration is the one making all the headlines, but with gas prices passing three dollars a gallon, it shouldn’t be forgotten that we are also in the middle of an oil crisis. And while politicians waste all their time bickering and finger-pointing, both of these situations continue to worsen. That’s why I’m extremely pleased to announce that I have solved both of these problems simultaneously. The solution is very simple.

Cars fueled by Mexicans. I have designed a prototype and I am just amazed at the performance of this machine. Why this technology didn’t already exist, I’ll never know. Even more baffling is the fact that when I contacted America’s leading automakers, none showed interest. Most of them replied with a simple “Is this some kind of sick joke?” and hung up. I’m assuming I got this response because they didn’t take me seriously. But once I send them all a video of me putting parts of Mexicans into a blender, pouring them into a tank and demonstrating the car’s power, I’m sure the offers will come pouring in.

All of this is not to suggest that I don’t support alternative fuel sources. Hybrid cars and ethanol have both made immeasurable contributions to the cause, but they both have their setbacks. Hybrid cars, while environmentally friendly, offer very little power. And ethanol, for all of its positives, will ultimately leave farmland overworked and useless. And neither of these options does anything to help slow the immigration problem.

Cars fueled by Mexicans (CFM’s), on the other hand, provide many positives, and virtually no negatives. First and foremost is the fact that it will do wonders to curtail the illegal immigration problem facing this nation, but there’s so much more. They provide all the power of conventional autos with virtually no harmful effects on the environment. In fact, my design includes something not too dissimilar from a dryer’s lint-trap, which collects the bits of Mexican which don’t go toward fueling the car and make an excellent lawn fertilizer. And I haven’t even mentioned the fuel efficiency yet. My current design gets nearly 1,000 miles to the Mexican, depending on his or her weight. And considering how plentiful and renewable they are, I couldn’t possibly imagine a better option when you take our present situation into consideration.

So there you have it. The solution to not one, but two problems facing America. If I can find a sponsor or an automaker bold enough to think outside the box and back me financially, we should be able to roll these off the production line within six months. And if Congress approves my bill proposing that we ship unemployed African-Americans to other countries to help pay down the national debt, there’s two more problems solved. Keep your fingers crossed for a better America, and a better tomorrow.
-T shirt hell

Islands

Last night was a good time! I picked Uncle Tom up and we headed for the Black Cat. We got front row parking. There was a small line out front, we walked down to the pizza joint to yell at the for not having gravy for gravy fries that is on their menu and everytime Tom sees it and wants them but they never have gravy. Then we just bullshitted in line and watched a guy puke and walk across the street and puke in the middle of the road and we talked about how old we're getting. It was a younger kid maybe 16 fucked up on something. It was funny. We went in when the doors opened, got a couple beers and played the new pinball machine pictured below. I kicked ass finally since Tom usually buries me. Some guy came up and told us about it. He goes to the club just to have beer and play pinball. He was cool. Bought us a couple games so he could jump in our rotation. We went upstairs to see Cadence Weapon up on stage, he is a canadian rapper. Which really wasn't what I was expecting. But he sounded really good, most of his music/beats whatever you wanna call it sounded like video game music, kind of like Becks last album. He jumped down in the crowd and was jumping around and everything, just having a good time. Tom bought his album and got him to sign it and we took a pic with him.

Next up was Why? These were 3 talented guys. The drumer was also playing xylophone at the same time, the singer was playing a drum and keyboard at the same time, the third played a guitar and keyboard at the same time. The music was really good but the guys voice killed me. Tom thought he sounded like They might be giants but after thinking for a while, he sounded like the singer from Primus "My name is Mudd" except not as cool and rapping a little more. So We ditched and played some more pinball.

We got back in time for Islands This was great. These were the band geeks people made fun of in High School. The had 7 people, playing lots of instruments from sax, 2 violins, a recorder, clarinet, keyboards, bass, guitar, drums, I think that was all. This was fun, they were all jumping around, the music was great, they are all extremely talented. These Canadians rocked the house!

A little dark but can't lighten it at work

I am the Champion!!

Uncle Tom getting his ass spanked at some poker pinball!



Cadence Weapon


He came down and was jumping around with the crowd


Uncle Tom and I with Cadence Weapon

Islands


More Islands


Islands


Islands


The best pizza!

Some New Music

So a couple days ago I noticed my car wasn't as loud and when I checked I saw that I blew both of my subs. So I went to best buy yesterday and exchanged them, god bless my 4 year warranty. I've already exchanged them twice and the amp once. I can't help it I like my shit loud and sometimes make it too loud and blow shit. I just need a super system like I had in my first car. The car almost fell apart from the music. I did blow a couple of speakers on that too. Anyways I picked up a couple of Cd's too. And this is music that I think most of you would actually like. It is mellow. I like some mellow once in a while. Well I got 3 kind of mellow and haven't quite listened to them all though they are on my computer on shuffle. I like what I've heard so far. I think all of you should go out and pick them up for yourself. I am sure you'll enjoy it. Well except for Chris and maybe Zefyur if you guys even read here anymore. Bitches. Oh yeah Zefyur sent me a t-shirt and hat from Hard Rock cafe Kuwait, I had no clue they had one there. They really are everywhere! But here's the CDs, check out the bands give them a listen. I need to go to Uncle Tom's going away in a bit.

Pretty Girls Make Graves - The New Romance

The Fray - How to Save a Life

Elefant - The Black Magic Show

Really good shit. I will try to take a bunch of pics of my and Uncle Tom's last go round with the Black Cat, I will hopefully be going back but it will be sad being sans Uncle Tom!!

Oh yeah go over to HB's blog and check out my sexy goggles I had to wear after my eye surgery!

Yep it's Monday

Good weekend, about the same as all the rest which is good. Saturday I went to my other job and the owner of the company got to see my new hat since I forgot I was wearing it. But when I saw him glance up to read it I took it off. He was nice to me though since I saved them from having to call a locksmith. A guy got a key stuck in a door and me being the criminal I used to be attempted breaking in by sticking my arm and pliers through a mail slot. It almost worked but not quite, my forearms are pretty big from....*cough* working out. But then I used the pliers to get the key out without breaking it which I was close to doing with only my hands. So he gave me fruit and bottled water and called me by my name which I think he didn't know but the other guy probably told him that I was attempting to fix the problem. The rest of the time was spent chilling with HB and her boy. I've got some music news that people may or may not care about:

Pink Floyd's Roger Waters is doing a US tour where he will play the complete Dark Side of the Moon album. I'd like to see that, but I'd like to see the whole band a lot more. Smashing Pumpkins are reuniting and trying to start doing another album. And KoЯn, Deftones, Stone Sour, Flyleaf, and Dir en grey is on the Family Values Tour.

I asked HB about going to see Ozzfest and Warped Tour in August since we won't have kids. Ozzy is on Aug 6 and Warped is Aug 10. I really want to see Ozzy! And there are other bands too, and Warped Tour has bands I wanna see, plus it looks like this year you are allowed to bring in a backpack and a sealed bottle of water so maybe we won't get our camelbacks taken away this year. Plus I won't have Chris saying come on lets go up and fight thousands of people to get close to the stage and sweat our balls off in 90 degree boiling sun. HB and I can just hang out and listen and watch from a distance and not have to spend $100 on bottled water. It says you can take one bottle, I'll take a fucking water cooler bottle. I am excited. I guess it's good that the future excites me. I keep creating things to look foreward to. Moving in, in a couple of weeks, then going to Texas, then getting my son, then time without kids, then concerts. Lots of exciting things...lol. I just ate 3 pieces of pizza before I started writing this and I am already hungry again. I think I have a tape worm or something.

Tomorrow is Uncle Tom's going away lunch from work. I will go have some Vietnamees with him and we will go for his final time to the Black Cat with me that night. We will be seeing ISLANDS (ex-Unicorns), WHY?, CADENCE WEAPON, pretty much no names though Islands had some help on their album from a couple members of the Arcade Fire. It should be a good night, some beer, pinball, and after concert pizza!!! So we will bid Uncle Tom a good farewell. And try not to get raped by the penis tree agin...

Me and my hat

My hat, Mike and me in San Antonio



My hat and me on our Vegas trip



Before the burial



Before the burial



The first pic of my new hat and me



In the bag

End of an Era

That's right. Since I stayed at work way to long yesterday due to my dental appointment and everyone else was gone today the guy in charge of me told me to get my shit done and go home. So I did and was gone by 10 for my "eye appointment". I came straight to my other job and clocked in and then went to the mall since I was gonna get a new hat tomorrow but now am gonna watch Hbs boy so I won't be coming in. So I went to look at Hot Topic and was gonna swing by Spencers but I couldn't find it and was too lazy to walk all over, it was a big ass mall. So I went back to Hot Topic, they didn't have really cool hats so I had to get the one that was my size and fit great and that is this one:



I know HB isn't gonna like it but hey it's a new hat. And it's probably better than the fuCKYou one I wanted from Spencers. So My hat will be retired this weekend. I am trying to break in this new one. I will take pics of the retirement ceramony and post them. I am gonna miss wearing that hat. I can't find a good one of it posted anywhere. That hat has been with me for 6+ years, it is soaked with my blood, sweat, and tears and it shows. I will miss it but I will not throw it away, It will go in a ziplock bag and I will put it away and keep it forever. And watch as the germs on it turn to mold and then to the cure to cancer, AIDS, and every other disease because that it how awesome my hat is! I'm gonna go cry now so I can start to break in my new hat with my tears.

The greatest band EVER!!!

Ok so I came in to work this morning and was very disappointed that the internet wasn't working and I was forced to finally file the pile on my desk. When that was done I needed to kill more time so I put in the DVD from the Paste Magazine Uncle Tom gave me, I already watched all the videos and movie clips but there was something else on there so I watched it. It has changed my life. Who ever would have thought that anything would ever come out of Norway, who ever would have thought that Bonnie Tyler power ballad "Total Eclipse of the Heart" would ever be cool. Well click HERE NOW witness the greatness that is Hurra Torpedo. If you are like MartiniLove and can't listen to it because your at work and don't have speakers then as soon as you get home you must run in and get on the computer, come back here and click that link. If not then you hate music and will spontaneously combust tonight while you are sleeping. You have been warned. And you should all also pass this band along to all your friends because they need to see this to change their lives around completely for the better. I don't know how any of us have survived this long without witnessing this. They need to come back the the US and do another tour. I will seriously drive halfway across the country to see them. This would be the greatest show ever. Plus they really sound good. So please everyone for your own sakes don't ignore my plea or else your gonna die tonight!

Your still reading?

After 427 posts, wow! Especially since it's lost all of it's entertaining value what so ever, but then again it really didn't have any to begin with so I guess your not missing anything. Not much been happening on my front. I guess things have mellowed out a lot since I don't have my partner in crime here anymore. I need to start packing my lunch of bring in sandwhich shit. I've been buying lunch like crazy and between Subway, Taco Bell, the occasional salad, and the chicken I got today I spend anywhere between 6-8 dollars a day on lunch, lets do some math shall we. We'll round that to 7, that's 35 a week, 140 a month, 1680 a year. That's over twice my current rent. It's retarded not to mention I buy all kinds of stupid shit that at least entertains me for a couple weeks or months, but food, shit that keeps me happy for only an hour tops. And this shit isn't really delicious especially after eating it every other day. Steak and cheese sub, or grilled stuffed burrito. I tried some of the other stuff today, I got chicken and rice, it goes by weight, cost 9, for 2 pieces of chicken and some rice that did fill me up but wasn't really that good or that much. The rice is the main thing that filled me up. Fucking people, I tried last week to go to the little shop and buy a small sandwich and a bag of chips, it still cost 5.50 and was no where close to filling me up or good. Bags of chips cost .99 for a decent sized bag but when you open it, it's all air, it has a much chips as the little snack bags you used to be able to get for .35 back in the day but now cost .60 in the vending machines. It's fucking retarded. I really hate this inflation shit and not really the fact that yeah cost and demand and shit but the fact that it jumps so high and the quality and quantity gets smaller. I think when I get out and HB decides where we're gonna live I am buying a gun and killing my own food. I have never hunted well I kind of have I shot birds, fish, and people with a bb gun. Yes fish, it flooded and fish were in puddles near the creek and we shot them. I think I shot a squirel or 2 but don't remembered if they died. I'll start stealing peoples farm animals or pets or whatever. Hopefully I will be able to find a doritos farm. MMMMMmmmmm Doritos. It'll all be free after the cost of the gun, bullets and fines for hunting on people property and theft. Whatever I think it would still be cheaper that 140 a month, and Think of all the more stuff I will get and how many times I'd get away with it before getting caught. Just a thought. The only problem is my lazyness, but I do overcome that when I'm fighting anything like "the man" that is jacking up my costs. Well I better go, I need to go syphon some gas out of the car next to mine, I'm getting low again. I'm not paying fucking 3 dollars a gallon!

Useless Facts

Albert Einstein was offered the presidency of Israel in 1952, but he declined.

Adolf Hitler wanted to be an architect, but he failed the entrance exam at the architectural school in Vienna.

Each year the Pentagon estimates their computer network is hacked about 250,000 times annually.

From 1939 to 1942, there was a undersea post office in the Bahamas.

The average adult has approximately six pounds of skin.

Pretzel snacks have been around for over 1300 years. A European monk invented the snack using used leftover bread dough.

If all the Oreo cookies ever sold were stacked on top of one another, they would be as high as 13.3 million Sears Towers.

Some of the titles that were considered for the hit T.V. show "Friends" were Six Of One, Across the Hall, and Insomnia Cafe.

Iguanas can recognize their human handlers and greet them differently, compared with strangers.

In North America there are approximately 618 roller coasters.

The dromedary camel can drink as much as 100 litres of water in just 10 minutes.

In ancient Greece, throwing an apple to a girl was a way to propose for marriage.. If the girl caught it, that would mean she accepts.

During the Gold Rush in 1849, some people paid as much as $100 for a simple glass of water.

Abdul Kassam Ismael, Grand Vizier of Persia in the tenth century, carried his library with him wherever he went. Four hundred camels carried the 117,000 volumes.

Just by recycling one aluminum can, enough energy would be saved to have a TV run for three hours.

On average, Americans move to a new place eleven times in their lifetime.

Damn cops!

Another decent weekend has passed. Pretty laid back. Saturday I went to my other job so I can get some extra money for our move next month and to start paying for my eyes, which are still getting better everyday. They are pretty much like new now except still a little blurry at furthur distances. But on my way to work I got pulled over for doing 80 in a 55. Cop was being a dick like most of them, this was a younger buff guy probably was a high school football player who wanted to feel like he had power so he became a cop. Well The guy must not know how to run out of state license. He told me that Ohio didn't have record of me or some shit and that he could take me to jail and have my car impounded and shit. I told him to look at the license it's good til 2007 plus I am in the military so even if it was expired it was good with my military ID, he threw a bit of a fit and told me to fix that shit or whatever than reduced my speed to 74 so my fine is only $80. So I immediately called my aunt who works for the DMV back home, she was off but called the highway patrol because she used to work there and still has friends there, they said everything was ok and the guy was a dumbass. I said that's what I figured and went on my merry way. So I had to stay at work for 4 hours to earn enough money to pay my ticket, it was a beautiful day so I left and went back home to HBs. We watched some movies, read our books and just chilled. Yesterday we did the Easter thing with a friend from work. It was fun, we went to the park ate some Popeyes hid some eggs and let the kids find them and then let them run around the park and play. It was fun. She served me breakfast in bed yesterday and it was delicious. I wok up ate it and went back to sleep, not very thankful I guess but I was tired. Well I'm at work now and a little stressed, I fucked up, but trying to fix/cover up. Everyday I have to fill shit with liquid nitrogen and I filled it friday but the tanks were low so I didn't fill them all the way and when I came in this morning the shit got too hot, which requires us to do all kinds of shit for a week to fix it. I don't want to so I just refilled them this morning and am trying to reset everything on my own even though I don't really know what I am doing and hoping it fixes it. It was looking better but now I've got another error that I am trying to fix. I have to go back down soon and hope it works. It's hard work being lazy. Oh well shit happens. I do this shit everyday for a machine that we use like one every couple of months, it's kind of bullshit. Plus I got plenty of other shit I can do instead, like blog. But wish me luck on covering up my fuck up and hope everyone had a good weekend and have a decent Monday, I know it won't be good because let's face it, it's Monday.

An Update

Above is a pic that I got through a link from CJS It's kind of neat, I think it just takes words from your sidebar. My eyes are kind of getting better, it comes and goes. The pain is mostly gone, it's down to an irritation. It just sucks because one eye will get clear and the other blurry and then they switch, it reminds me of when you have a cold and one nostril is plugged and that shit always happens. But I go tomorrow to get the contact bandaids taken out, hopefully it will be better then. I have been wearing my sunglasses at work, its fun people look at me funny but it helps, the florescent lights are irritating. The computer screen is really bad. I found that if I peer barely over my sunglasses at the computer screen there is kind of a shadow and if I use the eye that is clear for the moment it is easy to read the screen but I look funny doing it. HB has some pics of my glasses that I have to wear at night, they are cool, clear goggle with white foam shit around them. It's so I don't rub them while I sleep. Plus it helps prevent smoke from getting in my eyes. I'll tell you guys what I don't deserve HB. As many have noticed that when one of us has something wrong so does the other. Talk about conjoined souls. When we met we were both sick, she has woman problems, I get the eye thing, she gets sick so do I, She has surgery, so do I. But even though we are both messed up she still tries to baby me. I try to do the same for her but she usually won't let me. She offers massages and I do too but she turns it down. The other day I mentioned that one side of my shoulder hurt and she was rubbing it while I did dishes. I love those little moments like that. Last night she called to find out what seasons of the Simpsons I had, I told her and she bought all the rest because they were on sale. I mean yeah if I see their on sale I may pick up one or two but she bought like 4 of them, thats over $100. She really didn't need to do that but it does mean alot. She knows what I like. She is way too good for/to me. But I try my best to treat her the way she should, like the goddess of the world. But I am getting handed anotheer pile of shit to file. This is really dificult to do when it's blurry but hey I still gotta do my job. I wanted to add another countdown to this page but it messed up my HB counter and that's way more important but I only have 271 days left in the Navy then I am a civilian!!!! I can't wait! I leave you with a song dedicated to HB and it is as if Weezer crawled into my head and stole this....

My Best Friend - Weezer

When everything is wrong I'll come talk to you
You make things alright when I'm feeling blue

You are such a blessing and I wont be messing
with the one thing that brings light to all of my darkness

You are my best friend
and I love you, and I love you
Yes I do

There is no other one that can take your place
I feel happy inside when I see your face
I hope you believe me
Because I speak sincerely
and I mean it when I tell you I need you

You are my best friend
and I love you, and I love you
Yes I do

I'm here right beside you
I will never leave you
and I feel the pain you feel when you start crying

You are my best friend
and I love you, and I love you
Yes I do

You are my best friend
and I love you, and I love you
Yes I do
Yes I do...
Yes I do

I can see!! Well kind of...

I had my surgery. My eyes do hurt, it hurts about like when my eyes were fucked up except now it's in both eyes. But things are pretty clear just a little blurry. Looking at the computer is a little hard but I still have to be at work. I am so lucky to have HB babying me and driving me around though it was kind of torture yesterday because I just wanted to go home and take a nap and we had to wait on food. But I still love her. And for those of you who don't know....Percocet, coffee and cigarettes don't make a good breakfast. My stomach hurts. I didn't want to take the percocet this morning but it hurt pretty bad so I did. Well I have to get ready for my appointment, I gotta go back so they can make sure I'm ok. It was wweird but quick. Have a good day peoples.

It's Monday

So I'm back from my trip and I'm not sure how much I am gonna remember of what all I wanted to type, because I am really nervous about my eye surgery today. My stomach has been really queezy since I woke up and I've been lightheaded and all that shit. But the drive was ok. I didn't get any speeding tickets so thats great. Most of the driving was clear minded, I didn't think at all except when trucks blocked both lanes and I was pissed that I couldn't keep flying between 80 and 90. It was a nice meditation, then when I got into Ohio the ex kept calling me to tell me she couldn't get ahold of my parent to drop my son off before I got there. I started thinking about her. I realized that I am pretty sure I never actually loved her. The thing was I really like someone else I couldn't have and well she(the ex) really wanted me. That was the first time at least that I noticed that a girl wanted me. I liked her best friend, she was way hotter! But the feeling of being wanted is something that I always wanted and it was a great feeling and I thought that was love. But if it was love then why did I always think about "what if I was with..." I mean it was everyday I wished I was with someone else, we fought a lot and all that shit. I think I just wanted love so bad I made myself believe that that was it. Then thinking about how Hb and I started and how it just happened. It truely was just tripping and falling into love, when you least expect it. The feeling is so much more than what I thought was love back then. Obviously there is no book that says this is how love feels. But with HB I can tell. It hurts when she is not around, I think about her all day everyday, I constantly feel wanted, like I wanted, but not only wanted but needed to survive as I feel that I need her to survive. I'm sure I am making everyone nauseous now but that is just the tip of that thought that lasted for a couple hours. I made great time, 7 hours there and 7 back. It kind of sucked being just a short weeekend. Of course I spent it all with my boy who was great for me except one incident of him stealing his cousins change which I did the same thing and got my ass beat for but I just yelled at him and told him next time I was gonna beat his ass. What does a child not even 5 yet need money for, I did it because you learn at a very early age that money is everything and you need as much as possible. But we played and wrestled and had a good time, I saw my grandparents and only one of my cousins. I wanted to see my other one that I've been talking to on myspace and email that I recently found out is going through the same shit I did at her age but when she called saturday night my parents were gone so I couldn't leave even though my son was in bed so I told her we'd catch up in June. That's pretty much my trip, nice and boring yet fun to just see the family. Well I finally finished the huge stack of files that have been piling on my dek, well they are in the computer and now I need to try to file as much as possible before I leave at 2 to go to my eye appointment. If I can see to type tomorrow I may post an update if not then I'll catch up later. HB brought her camera so she can take pics of my eyes when they are all jacked up so maybe we'll post them so people can see what I am going through and decide if it's worth it or not.

I'm ready for my trip

So the plan is to ditch out of work around noon. This should get me to Ohio by 8 or so. It appears that it will be raining the whole time. The green is all ove my path but hopefully it won't be anything too bad, not like it's stopped me before. I've kept cruising at 70 while people were pulled over on the side of the road from not being able to see. I am kind of looking foreward to it. I seem to meditate when driving, well I guess when I'm moving. Last night traffic was bad and while I sat there I just kept getting the urge to stomp on the gas pedal and ram the cars in front of me. I don't know why but when traffic is stopped on 4 lanes of traffic it pisses me off because there is absolutely no reason that should happen short of an accident which there wasn't. But back to my point. I will have a clear head with my favorite rainy weather, though I don't really like driving on major highways with a lot of rain. But it's supposed to be a lot colder up there as well. I'm just pretty excited to see my boy. I miss him. I hope he likes the Easter basket that HB helped me make for him. Though I guess she deserves total credit, I just bought a bunch of candy and some movies and she bought the stuff for it to go in and it was her idea. But she tries to help me the better dad I want to be by helping me see my ignorance. I am nervous about money becoming tight this summer. with us moving and shit, needing to get everything turned on and U hauls and all that crap. And then also having to pay for my eye surgery. I thought we'd be all good until they jacked us on the security deposit but I know we'll make it through. I just can't wait til I go on terminal leave from the military and start working my other job full time. My god I will be raking in cash, especially if I can get like 2 months!! It will be a good Christmas with me getting paid for 2 jobs full time. But I am thinking way to far ahead, though June is coming up fast! Hmmmm I just thought of something, we don't have to cut our Texas trip down anymore since my ex doesn't have a job anymore, she probably doesn't have to go wherever she said she needed to then. But I guess I'd still like to go about the same time, that way HB will be on leave and we can stay a few days there and she can meet my family and see the wonders of Defiance. Well hope everyone has a good weekend. Hell I hope mine is good to, I think it should be, though I will miss HB.

busy.....

Yesterday was very busy. Well work wasn't too bad, I had quite a few things to do but most were easy and didn't take much time but afterwork was when the craziness hit. So I left work and went back to my place to start laundry since I had no more jeans or boxers. I posted the pics from YYYs and left. I had an appointment at the eye doctor at 4. I got there early and everything was good. My new surgery date is Monday and I swear to god that if it doesn't happen people will be injured severely!! I went from there to meet HB at the base so we could go sign the lease for our new townhouse at 430. I forgot the directions to the realators house and number luckily she remembered the number and got us there around 5. Signed that gave them a shitload of money and I ran out the door by 530. I had to be at counseling by 6. I was a little late but they didn't care we just watched a movie thing which was kind of neat. It was about the life of Rayful Edmond who was like a huge cocain druglord from here in DC in the 80s. It was actually pretty cool. One of the guys in the class used to run around with him. He said he knew all the people they interviewed and the actors who played them were also from the same block and shit. It was interesting. But I am going to miss the end of the movie since we only watched half and it was my last fucking night of that shit!! No more counselings, no more forging AA slips, no more random drug tests!! Now all I have to do is get off probation, I am gonna call my PO today and see about it. He better let me off. I am going back to Ohio for the weekend to see my boy. I am gonna try to get out of here early on Friday to make the 8 hour drive. I will be back Sunday though. I think it should be good. I need to get some tax shit from the ex anyway so it works. Well I am tired as shit since Chris kept me up late playin Halo last night so I am gonna go smoke and wake up. Happy Thursday fuckers!

Yeah Yeah Yeahs!!

I need a new camera, all pics are dark and really shaky, I need a stabilizer thing or something to help fight with the crowd! Damn blogger is too slow pics are HERE!!


So last night was the Yeah Yeah Yeah's concert. First band up was Blood on the Wall Who were different and by different I mean they sounded like everyone. They reminded me of some classic rock band that I still can't name, then some songs sounded like Pixies and Sex Pistol, and Breeders. The big guy had a cool ass voice though. Nice screaming and fast paced somewhat punk music. Then it slowed down and the chick would sing. It was pretty good, but nothing exciting. Oh yeah I almost forgot this concert was lesbian fest 2006. I mean everywhere, and not the cute lipstick ones either, the really scary butch ones. A couple points the sight of a couple of them really made me nauseous. But it did make it easier to make our way up closer for the YYYs. Although some were pissed and Uncle Tom heard them bad mouthing us but I don't listen to shit like that. The show was great. The part I love the most about concerts like this is when you see them smiling and having a good time. And Karen O was smiling the whole time. Guitarist Nick Zinner was shredding the shit out of that guitar. I mean that guy could play like hell!! I hate him for being talented. Drummer Brian Chase had his girl watching from up in the balcony Karen told us before Maps when talking about everyones love and of course she said I was her love, she looked directly at me and ointed and winked. That's my story and I'm sticking to it!! After they were done we hung around up front, I really wanted a drumstick but they wouldn't give me one, Uncle Tom got a setlist which I stole from him and claimed as my own for getting the tickets. But it was good I ripped some poster off the wall for him so he was happy. The whole concert was recorded by NPR, you can listen to it HERE If you listen carefully with it turned up, before and after Phenomena around 25,28-29 minutes you can hear me yell out for canowine, though I used his real name. I wanted to give him a shout out because I figured he'd find the recording and might hear it. Ha Ha we went and saw them and you didn't :P But yeah, I got a lot of pics and hopefully they all come out and I will post them tomorrow. It was the perfect finish to a Monday!

Useless Shit

Things I wonder:
Who decided that eating animals was ok but eating humans isn't? And for that matter who decided fucking humans is ok but fucking animals is wrong?

How did society evolve so much, we used to hunt with sharp sticks and shit and now we have skyscrapers and airplanes and shit. How do things like that come together, it baffles me. Someone said hey lets put these metal things together and add this fuel thing and hey look it's a car that moves on its own and shit.

Why the fuck to people pay so much money for "fashionable" shit. Look at my $1,000 suit that is made from the same shit as that $50 one there but it's Gucci or whatever.

How did people find medicine, people just got sick and they gave them random shit to see if they died or got better?

We've evolved so much where the hell are my flying cars and telepoter things so we can solve this traffic and gas problem! Well Here's the car but it needs to be more affordable!


Useless Facts:
A rocket-like device can be traced back to Ancient Greece when a flying steam-powered pigeon was built out of wood.

The most valuable painting made by a female artist is "In the Box," painted by Mary Cassatt. It was sold for $3.67 million at Christie's in New York City.

By law, information collected in a U.S. census must remain confidential for seventy-two years.

The sex of a baby crocodile is determined by the temperature in the nest and how deeply the eggs are buried.

A man filed a lawsuit against his doctor because he survived longer than what the doctor had predicted.

India has a Bill of Rights for cows.

The Hawaiian alphabet only has 12 letters.

Russian I.M. Chisov survived a 21,980ft plunge out of a plane with no parachute. He landed on the steep side of a snow-covered mountain with only a fractured pelvis and slight concussion.

All polar bears are left-handed.

An average adult produces about half a litre of flatulent gas per day, resulting in an average of about fourteen occurrences of flatulence a day.

An ear of corn always has an even number of rows because of the genetic formula which divides the cells.

Americans drink over a billion pounds of coffee every year and around five million bottles of soda.

An elephant's trunk contains more than 50,000 muscles.

A whale's penis is called a dork.

An eagle can kill a young deer and fly away with it.