Unrealized Dreams

As I sit here bored at work just like every other day counting down til I can go home, I've been thinking of all the great things I thought I was going to do once i got out of the military. I was going to go to school, I was going to get a great government job, I was going to start working out more. All of these things would be realized since I wouldn't be working 2 jobs anymore, I would have all of this free time, yet here I sit still with nothing accomplished. Granted the school and job thing needs to wait until I move but still. I have always lacked motivation. HB and I were talking last night a bit about it. When I have free time I usually want nothing more than to sit and veg in front of the TV. I barely even read the book that I wanted to because there is things on TV. I don't work out. I have a set of dumbells in the basement I figured I could lift a bit everyday while I watched TV but no I sit and mess around on my computer or spend an hour playing with my guitar and continually leaning an easy part of a song that I never intend to finish leaning the whole thing. My life is always full of unrealized dreams. I start something and never finish it. Hell like 2 years ago I started working towards a degree, I took 3 classes, failed one but passed the other 2 and that was it. No more since then. Hell I start to try to seek medical care before I got out but didn't really finish or follow up. I think I've slightly mentioned a few times but it is kinda embarrassing, they said I have irritable bowel syndrome. For the past 2 years or so my poo is more like soft serve to water. It has gotten somewhat controllable lately since it seems to hit just right. I get to work clock in and then wham there it is, usually just once a day but sometimes more. They gave me a couple different fiber things but didn't really help so I just stopped taking it and deal with it. I should have had a GI scan done to figure out what exactly was the cause but never followed through. This I can blame a small amount of my fatigue and lethargia but the rest is my fault. Maybe its depression or uncertainty or ADD I have no clue but it is something that I don't know how to correct. Maybe its just my dumbass being lazy. This obviously isn't the first time I've realized this, but why didn't I get help when I had medical. My strongest reason has been that if anything goes down between me and my ex then I have a clean "mental" slate when it comes to medical records which I know she doesn't. Another is I just don't like talking to others about my problems, I never have I probably never will. I mean something yes I will tell friends or the people it affects but when it comes to inner turmoil, I think its best to remain in and it will eventually go away. I know its not true but like everything else, I know most the facts, I know what I do is wrong, I know there is some chance that my problems could be solved somehow medically but I don't. Maybe its pride or whatever. I really have no clue all I know is I can't fix it. Will I someday, probably not. It just seems I am constantly in limbo. I'm gonna do this when I transfer, I'm gonna do this when I get out, I'm gonna do this when I move to Texas, I'm gonna do this when we get our house, when will it end. When will it finally be that time. When will I stop procrastinating. Short answer- probably when I die.

Useless

I still don't really have much to say. My buddy Chris and his wifey have been staying with us since Vday and will be leaving us tomorrow. Its been fun having friends again and just sitting around and bullshitting. But besides that nothing but work and hanging out so here's some useless facts!

The world record for the number of body piercings on one individual is 702, which is held by Canadian Brent Moffat.

With winds of 50 miles per hour, The Statue of Liberty sways three inches and the torch sways five inches.

The first product that Sony came out with was the rice cooker.

The Hubble telescope is so powerful that it is like pointing a beam of light at a dime that is two hundred miles away.

The average American drinks 400 glasses of milk in a year.

Eyebrow hair lasts between 3-5 months before it sheds.

Women who are romance novel readers are reported to make love 74% more often with their partners than women who do not read romance novels.

It is possible to get high by licking a toad. The Cane Toad produces a toxin called bufotenine to ward off predators. When licked, this toxin acts as a hallucinogen.

It takes about 63,000 trees to make the newsprint for the average Sunday edition of The New York Times.

If you yelled for 8 years, 7 months and 6 days, you would have produced enough sound energy to heat one cup of coffee.

In 1998, Ten Speed Press publishing company published a book, "The Eat A Bug Cookbook" by David George Gordon that contains over 33 bug recipes.

It was believed by Ancient Hindus that the world was a sphere and rested on the back of four elephants, which stood on a turtle.

Desert snails can stay in their shell for up to three years.

Jupiter is the fastest rotating planet, which can complete one revolution in less than ten hours.

In 1976, a Los Angeles secretary named Jannene Swift officially married a fifty pound rock. More than twenty people witnessed the ceremony.

Apples, not caffeine, are more efficient at waking you up in the morning.

The only poisonous birds in the world are the three species of Pitohui. The Hooded Pitohui from Papua New Guinea is the most deadliest out of the three.

Budweiser beer is named after a town in Czechoslovakia.

It takes 3,000 cows to supply the NFL with enough leather for a year's supply of footballs.

The reason the soft drink Dr Pepper is called that is because the inventor Wade Morrison named it after Dr. Charles Pepper who had given him his first job.

The temperature of lightning bolts is sometimes hotter than the surface of the sun.

The only real person to be a Pez head was Betsy Ross.

In Singapore, it is illegal to sell or own chewing gum

Outside London, Liverpool is the most filmed British city, and was used to film more than 140 films in 2002.

In the 18th century, potatoes were given out as a dessert. They were served in a napkin, salted and hot.

A human head remains conscious for about 15 to 20 seconds after it is been decapitated.

The tuatara lizard of New Zealand has three eyes, two in the center of its head and one on the top of its head.

There are more Barbie dolls in Italy than there are Canadians in Canada.

The microwave was invented after a researcher walked by a radar tube and a chocolate bar melted in his pocket.

In ancient Egypt, Priests plucked EVERY hair from their bodies including their eyebrows and eyelashes.

More people are killed by donkeys annually than are killed in plane crashes.

The country with the highest consumption of candy at 29.5 pounds annually per person is Denmark.

The most dangerous job in the United States is that of a fisherman, followed by logging and then an airline pilot.

Every year Alaska has about 5,000 earthquakes, 1,000 of which measure above 3.5 on the Richter scale.

Nothing

SO I know it's been a while since I've posted anything, and even longer since I've posted anything that anyone would ever want to read, but thats ok since no one really reads anyway other than the few who stop by. Thats ok this is my place to put my feelings so I can look back and reflect. I was planning on doing that but either the computers here or blogger is fucking up. I've had a few thoughts of things to bitch about but haven't really had time, a few things I wanted to discuss but same thing. Well truth is I have time but it's time that I don't really want to spend trying to write crap. Everyday is always the same, work go home do my routine, go to bed. Everyday, nothing really exciting. Perhaps I'll write again when I have something to say other than I don't have anything to say.
I did see Epic Movie last weekend, it was funny but not as funny as the scary movies or anything. It isnt really worth paying money to go see unless you just wanna go to the movies. I watched Smokin Aces yesterday, it was ok. I liked most of the story up til the end, the ending is probably what kept getting it low ratings. It has one of those crappy ass plot twists at the end, and its one that is really hard to follow at least for me. I should have rewound it and watched it again but it pissed me off too much for that. Oh well, thats my 2 cent input. Until next time...

Reality

Today I got my first whole paycheck, I was disappointed. We get paid Bi-weekly, I make $20 an hour and I still made 400 less than when I was in the Navy. Add everything up and I will be making about 1200 less a month now. I will have about 400 a month to spend on whatever I want. This kind of sucks, when I added everything up before I didn't take into account taxes and all that crap. I think I have them taking out more taxes now because last year I had to pay in and I probably will again this year and I don't want to do that anymore but still I figured it would be close to the same money. I think it's gonna be hard for the rest of the time I am here in this area. It probably wouldn't be so hard if my car payment wasn't so damn much but I probably still can't refinance the damn thing. Luckily I do have some money at the moment but that will probably go away whenever I get my taxes done. I'm still waiting to get my W-2 so I can find out how much I will have to pay this year, hopefully it won't be as much as last year. I guess I'll see. I'm just bummed. I had more in mind that I wanted to blog about but now I forgot. Maybe I'll remember later.

Some poker and other stuff

SO this weekend I did a little better at poker, yesterday at least. It wasn't big winnings but I just need the experience. It was a $2 tournament, there were like 600 or so people I came in 28th place, the winnings were only $4 but I was glad I was learning to fold. My main problem is I want to see the flop. I get so pissed when I see the end and I would have had the best hand. I probably would have made it further but I went for it and got beat. I am almost out of money on there, I started with 50 and am down to 5, but it at least lasted me a couple weeks. If I wouldn't have gotten pissed and started wasting my money on cash games I would still be good. Now I know better. It is all a learning experience for me.

It finally snowed here yesterday. I am a dumbass. I have this thing that when I have the heater on in the car I have to have a window cracked because I have a hard time breathing. SO Friday since it was cold I had the heater on and had the passenger window and the passenger back seat windows down about and inch and a half or 2. Well apparently I forgot to roll it up when I got home and since I didn't drive anywhere this weekend they stayed down and it snowed in my car. At least it wasn't raining all weekend. Maybe it aired some of the smoke smell out, I couldn't tell. I felt like a retard when I was knocking the snow off my car this morning and got to that side and saw it. Oh well, live and learn as always. Watched some football yesterday, I was pissed that the colts came back to win. I am rooting for the bears in the Superbowl. It should be a good game. Other than that not a very eventful weekend. It is just really cold. They cancelled and postponed schools today for some reason, we barely got any snow, maybe an inch and it was frozen but the roads were fine. Stupid people, I don't get out of work for snow days, I have to come or I don't get paid. They did talk to me on Friday about switching me to full time since I work over 30 hours a week. It sounds like I can still keep my flexible hours and everything the only difference would be that I will start to get vacation days, which I won't get that many before I leave. Hope everyone had a good weekend.

Poe Toaster, again...

So I missed it this year. I thought I stumbled on it yet again on the day of but I was wrong, it happened last night or this morning however you want to look at it. CNN quotes the gay curator as this years crowd behaved unlike last year, trying to interfere. I can't speak for the rest of the crowd that was there, I wanted to get a photo of the stuff on the grave. Sure I wouldn't mind following him and finding out who he is, maybe get a drink with him. Then I could say that hey I toasted with the Poe Toaster. I certainly wouldn't go blabbing his identity or anything but it would be fun. Who knows the guy might knock my ass out to help conceal his identity who knows. But I missed it and probably won't be here next year but if I come back I may just go and hop the fence myself and stake the grave and catch him by surprise just to see what happens. I wouldn't interfere with the toast just see what happens afterwards...lol.

Useless Facts

Consuming chocolate was once considered a sin during the 16th and 17th century. During that time it was provided in the form of a drink and since drinking wine during lent was a sin, so was drinking chocolate.

If you fart consistently for 6 years and 9 months, enough gas is produced to create explosion that is equal to an atomic bomb.

The ruby red slippers in the movie "The Wizard of Oz" were sold off at an auction for $660,000.

Lake Baikal, in Siberia, is the deepest lake in the world.

Every year Alaska has about 5,000 earthquakes, 1,000 of which measure above 3.5 on the Richter scale.

The average day is actually 23 hours, 56 minutes and 4.09 seconds. We have a leap year every four years to make up for this shortfall.

The electric chair was invented by a dentist.

The stonefish, which lives off the coast of Australia, is the most poisonous fish in the world.

The clown fish has the ability to change its sex. If a breeding female dies, the male fish will change its sex and mate with another male.

Some people start to sneeze if they are exposed to sunlight or have a light shined into their eye.

In 2002, dogs have killed more people in the U.S. than the Great White shark has killed in the past 100 years.

There are places in Saskatchewan called Elbow, Eyebrow, and Drinkwater.

Seniors who drink a cup of coffee before a memory test score higher than those who drink a cup of decaffeinated coffee.

Paul Hunn holds the record for the loudest burp, which was 118.1 decibels, which is as loud as a chainsaw.

A 27 year old heir to a sausage empire was handed a ticket for 116,000 pounds for driving at 80 km/hr in a 40 km/hr zone. This is because the speeding tickets in Finland are based on how much money a person makes.

Popped popcorn should be stored in the freezer or refrigerator as this way it can stay crunchy for up to three weeks.

In Belgium, there is a museum that is just for strawberries.

Ed Cox from San Francisco invented the pot scrubbing S.O.S. pads in 1917. His wife came up with the name, which stands for "Save Our Saucepans."

Dating back to 336 A.D., Christmas was first celebrated in ancient Rome, around 300 years after Christ's birth.

The rarest chocolate bar in the world is the Porcelana bar. There are only 20,000 of these bars produced a year, and they sell for $90 per pound.

In ancient Egypt, the only person who was allowed to wear cotton was the High Priest.

On the new hundred dollar bill the time on the clock tower of Independence Hall is 4:10.

On a Canadian two dollar bill, the flag flying over the Parliament building is an American flag.

Everyday approximately 35 meters of hair fibre is produced on the scalp of an adult.

Apple seeds are poisonous as they contain a cyanide compound.

Iceland was the first democratic country in the world.

There is a species of bird, Antpitta avis canis Ridgley, that barks like a dog.

Since its introduction in February 1935, more than two hundred million Monopoly board games have been sold worldwide.

Ants do not sleep.

Poker sucks

So I wasted about 40 bucks this weekend playing poker. I entered my first tournament and was doing really really good! I was up to 8th place and had a good hand but got beat by a better hand and finished just outside getting a cash prize, my second tounament I got knocked out about the same way but on the second hand. After that I got pissed and started playing some small cash games. It's not good to play when your pissed. Anytime I had a good hand, no one would bet with me and Id only win small pot. When I had an ok hand and stayed in to see if it was the best I would loose. It wasn't a good weekend.But I will keep playing for fake money during the week and hopefully get my skills up. Its hard because it seems some people just bet big to make everyone fold but the time you try to call their bluff they have a better hand than me. Hopefully next weekend I can win my money back. All I need is to place in one of these tournaments, the first one I could have won like 300 bucks. You win some and lose some, hopefully next weekend I'll win some.

Senses Fail Again!!

SO as usual when I go to concerts on workdays, I am tired as hell! Luckily I was home and in bed by midnight but still had to get up at 6am.

First up was a band called The Sleeping, they were ok, their songs seemed really really long though. They would stop and people would clap and then they'd start up again and I would start thinking that the music sounds the same as the last song, then he would start singing and then I'd be like oh this is still the last song. Also the singer kept asking for us to tear the place up but the music wasn't really that kind of music. They sounded ok though, maybe they'll get better.

Next up was Alexisonfire, these guys rocked. They sounded good, I think I'd heard a couple of their songs before. They seemed to be having a blast, the singer was wearing some short cut off jean shorts, which was just funny to look at. I will probably pick up their album and listen some more and maybe see them again. They sold me on their music. Unfortunately I didn't really research any of the bands, I was just going to see Senses Fail. Plus the guitarist did a triple or quadruple guitar spin, you know how some guitarists trow their guitars from the front down behind them and it comes up over their shoulder, well he threw it around and kinda hoola hooped it around several times, it was AWESOME! Plus the singer went out on the crowd and was singing, I always love when they do that, even if it was on the other side from me.

Then Saosin, all the teeny boppers loved them. They sounded ok, the singers voice reminded me kind of Chiodos lead singer, I liked his voice. The crowd was moshing and jumping all over the place, but it again didn't feel like that kind of music. The singer called for people to crowd surf to give the bouncers up front something to do. SO this band I am kind of on the border with, I may check their music out if I remember. Also I think this was when I got knocked around. At one point a pit opened up in front of me, no big deal I stood there, wasn't too bad then apparently one opened a little ways next to me and someone hit someone and they flew into me and sent me flying, I thought I got hit by a car! But all was good and even though I forgot to wear my steel toed boots, my feet survived.

Senses Fail !!! They kicked ass!! They played a good mix of new and old stuff, the crowd was going crazy! Buddy, the singer, was working on his mic cord swinging and pulled off some really cool ones including jumping off a speaker, swinging it behind his back and catching it under his leg. Also at one point he went off the stage and was doing something and he came back on stage doing back hand springs. The only slight problem was it seemed like he couldn't scream too well. Some of the spots that should have been screams he lightened up. I don't know if he's got a cold or something but he still rocked. That's got to be hard as hell, singing and screaming all the time then you get sick, you can't let down the fans, you got to keep your schedule. If that was the case he didn't let me down I still loved every minute of it! They will be on the Taste of Chaos Tour withe the Used, but not coming around here, if they come by you, GO SEE THEM! And they ended the show with one of my favorite songs from the new album, The Priest And The Matador and I'll leave you with the lyrics!

Here I lie
Staring At
Clouds and Shapes
Of dogs and cats.
I hear a woman
Start to yell
"Oh dear God, I think he fell"

I'm the arrow,
Shot straight to hell
From the bow of William Tell.
My body lies
Kissing the ground
Like a cross turned upside down.

A priest is rushing
To my side,
Begins to read me
My last rites.
Father you're too late
My faith is weak
So won't you save your
half-hearted speech.

A man bends down and says,
"Son, we're going to get through this one
take my hand and let us pray..."
I scream, "Please get the fuck away."

The ambulance is singing
As cops push back the crowd
I start to take my last breath,
As blood pours out my mouth.
The medics walk in my way
I think this could be it.
I hear them start to state
The time of death is half past six.

I'm the arrow,
Shot straight to hell

The perfect ending

I am now a civilian. All my doubts were taken away as I pulled onto the base. Lately I have had a hoop in my lip because the skin on the inside has been trying to grow over the stud and was hurting a bit and not looking too good. I know the rules, you aren't supposed to have piercings in when your active duty on base. SO I pulled up and the dumb bitch working yelled at me and told me to take it out, I tried to explain I am getting out today. She said she didn't care so I took it out and as I was pulling away I held it back to my mouth and she yelled and stopped me and told me not to put it back in. I nicely told her whatever despite my urge to tell her to go fuck herself, what is she going to do write me up for disobeying her? I'd be out before she started the paperwork. SO I go up and had to gather some more crap and then endeds up waiting a long time. I did put it back in but took the ball off so it wasn't as obvious, though I am sure a small metal bar sticking out looked pretty funny. While they were going through my record they didn't see all this leave I have been on and was going to give me money for it but I told them no because I know they would come back and I would owe them more when I least expected it so they fixed that, then they had no record of me going to school to be a Radiation Health tech...none, except for a little stamp when I checked in. No graduation certificate, I told him that I had a copy at home but didn't want to go get it, we figured out when I graduated and he added it based on my word which is hugely suprising! But now I got my paperwork and am done, well sorta. Technically I am on inactive reserves until 2010. I have no clue why they do this and don't tell you until you are about to get out that they can call you back until you serve 8 years from the date you join. If I could I would just get really fat so they couldn't call me back, but I can't so if they try I'll just have to sacrifice a couple toes or something.

I downloaded the Full tilt poker, it seems cool so far exceeept that I am having problems getting money into the account. I played a bit with fake money and wasn't doing too hot, I ended up breaking a little less than even, I will probably keep playing that for a while to get the feel for the other people who play there and how they play. This will be a slow process for me since I don't really have the money to keep blowing on it, I have to be smart about it and play the low stakes, when I get good at it I will move up to the higher cost ones. But I will keep you updated.

New Career?

SO I decided that I am going to venture into the online poker field. I've been watching the Texas Hold'em on TV and used to play quite a bit. Lately I've been thinking how cool would it be to sit and play cards for a couple hours, granted the big tournaments are days but then win hundreds of thousands of dollars to millions. I think I could live good off that. I know chances are slim of me ever becoming one of the few who wins that much but hey, maybe I could win some extra cash. I need to figure out something since I have grown accustomed to having extra cash from a second job and all.I've decided to go with Full Tilt Poker which seems good. You can play fake money games and real money games. Some of the games have real pros on there. I figured that since I get home an hour or 2 before HB that perhaps I can play some games when I get home from work or something and then maybe some tournaments on weekends. HB has been complaining since I sit in the basement on weekends to watch what I want to instead of her shows and cartoons, now I will have a legitimate reason, I am working, I am trying to earn some money. I don't want to become one of those fat lazy guys who sit at the computer all day but I think it's the only way to really make money online. The ad-sense thing I added a long time ago and asked everyone to click but no one did, earned like a dollar in the past gawd knows how long. I like poker, don't have any friends to play with anymore so why not try, you see guys on the TV tournaments that made it from online poker, most fall out fast but there are some who make it up to the final table and earn lots of money. Personally I'd be happy maybe winning a couple hundred on the weekends. I'll keep you updated on how it goes. I think I'll download it tonight, but don't know if I will get a chance to try it out or not, we'll see.

Tomorrow I am officially out of the Navy! Thursday I will be going to see Senses Fail for the 3rd time, well the first time was warped tour but it still counts. It's gonna be great! Hopefully we will be able to take pics, it's at Ram's Head Live, last time there we couldn't take pics but I think it was just cause Jared Leto had a zit or something. Hope everyone had a good weekend.

Happy New Year

Hope everyone had a good New Years! Mine was nice and boring. We went out for dinner with some friends and then went home and watched South Park until the ball dropped and went to bed. For the first day of the new year I sat and watched UFC marathon. Nice and boring, a good way to start it out. With this year I will be going through a lot of changes, no I'm not turning into a woman or anything. This year is scary for me to look forward to though. In a couple days I will no longer have any health benefits, I will no longer be getting paid everyday even if I'm not at work, I will be moving further away from my family, and will be looking for a job. Granted I've been through all of these things before, well I wasn't paid everyday until I joined the Navy but everything else, just not all at the same time. All I can do is sit back and wait as times grow closer to the big change. Hopefully the transition will go smoothly and quickly. If anyone knows of a job opportunity that involves playing with radiation in San Antonio, let me know! I haven't been too inspired to write on here and now isn't any different so I will try to think of something and come back. Later.

New Blogger

So this site now has the new blogger version! You may be asking why it looks exactly the same, the answer is simple, I like it this way. So to use all the really cool and easy features that would have helped me so much a year or so ago when I revamped to the current look I will have to start over with a new blank template. Now to get back to this look shouldn't take very long but I am really lazy, last time it took about a week I think of when I was supposed to actually be working but instead but all my hard work into getting this page looking so magnificent!!! Wow even the spell checker is cooler. But I will probably be messing with it over the weekend to get it changed and try to change it back. Hope everyone has a good weekend and have fun celebrating the New Year!

Year in Review

Well this year is about over with. Lets review shall we. Umm HB and I stayed together all year, I went to more concerts, We moved into a townhouse, I got my babies Homer and Marge, HB got her baby Bonn yesterday and that's about it. Bonn is a polish shepard retired military dog. He is cool, listens pretty well and is well behaved. He follows HB all over though, it is funny now HB has me, her boy and a dog following her around the house. I have no clue what the difference is between a polish and german shepard is, he's pretty fluffy maybe polish are fluffy people and thats why they can't screw in a lightbulb. About the name Bonn, no we didn't name him it. His trainer gave him the name when he enlisted kind of like the names given in Full Metal Jacket, at least he's not private snowball. He's 10 years old or so and has some back and leg problems which is why I really didn't want to get him, the last dog I had dies when I was 14 or so and it was hard watching him go, he had glaucoma and stomach cancer or some shit. He just laid there and moaned all day long and looked like death. But HB kept talking about giving him a couple years of peace and loving family enviroment for his last couple years. He does deserve to retire and enjoy some relaxation time. I like him except when he was whinning last night while I was trying to sleep, we put his cage in our room since they were supposed to come and sand our dining room and we wanted it out of the way but I found out today that they aren't coming til Tuesday, I don't think I can take it til then maybe he'll relax a little more tonight I dunno.

Well it may or may not have kicked in but I switched to the new version of google blogger. Damn google and Ipods are trying to take over the world. I signed up and it said it was switchin I don't know if you will notice a difference or not. Hope everyone has a safe and Happy New Year, I may try to get a pic up of Bonn.

I'm home for the holidays

I am back from Ohio. It was good to see my son. I bought him a couple gifts at the toy store and didn't bother wrapping them I let him pick out a Star Wars game and a remote control bigfoot. He seemed to enjoy them and wrapped up magnetics and some leapster games for the leapster his mom bought him for christmas. I was there almost a week and it was still pretty hecktic running around trying to see my family. My parents bought me some clothes and stuff since I didn't really want anything but they suprised me like they usually try to with one big gift. They bought the first grandfather clock that my great grandpa made at the auction last month. I've been saying how much I wanted one since I saw the one he gave to them. Apparently my grandma I don't really care for and my mom got into it about it. My grandma wanted to buy it for my cousin who doesn't really visit with him or anything and my mom said no I was going to get it, she didn't care if she had to go get a loan to pay for it. My grandma is a bitch! But all is good. They said whenever I get settled into a house they would bring it to me. I am excited, it is really nice too. My great grandpa told me that he added me into his will to be a pallbearer if I was around, I told him that I would come home no matter where I am. It is just hard to see him. I don't think he will make it through the year. He is doing pretty good but he just got released from a home again and back to his apartment the day before I got back. Mom told him that I wanted his war scapbook, I hope he changed that in the will, it was going to go to a museum, he's got pictures of Hitlers palace and some of the people over there, there are a few of the concentration camps that are gross but it is what he saw and it is something I would want to keep with the family and pass it down along with the clocks. I told HB last night that I need to go get a nice suit after the new year. Normally when someone goes that is married for as long as he was they go within a year afterwards but he is strong and keeps fighting but I still think his body is giving out. It is funny listening to him talk though. I heard some more stories this time. He goes to the american legion and such and was telling us how he was getting in an argument with some racist people complaining about mexicans coming across the border. He said they had more of a right to be here than most of us. I thought it was funny because most old timers are racist against everyone. OK I am getting sad again.

It is good to be back home with HB, I missed her too much being gone. I feel bad that I don't have a good gift to give her. I bought her a snoopy but I don't feel thats enough, I've grown up used to the fact that most get a bunch of things and usually one big gift that they really wanted and I haven't found anything that screamed HB to me. Sorry I haven't caught up on everyones blogs, I am actually looking forward to going back to work, though I like being lazy I need something to keep me occupied...lol. I'll probably be complaing about work next week. Hope everyone has a Merry Christmas!

I need outta here!

I hate this area!! Now I've never been a fan of shopping or even going to the store but for this time of year, I don't want to leave the house. I don't like people or crowds and this place turns into hell for Christmas. HB has been getting aggravated because I don't wanna go to the store with her. I just went to Toys R Us to get a couple things for my son since I haven't bought anything, well the crowds were horrendous, parking was non existing, leaving I almost got in an accident because these people can't drive. I hate it! I will be driving back to Ohio on Monday, I will do all my shopping there where the stores won't have 1/4 of the people in the same size place. Fuck these people and the stores here!!!!!!!!!

Little Update

Just a quick update, things are going pretty good. It is nice to work from 7-3 and go home and kind of relax. Work is as boring as ever trying to keep busy for 8 hours. My supervisor, kind of, is trying to find me stuff to keep busy but I am pretty happy just sitting here playing on the computer for most the day and doing little bits of work. I finished our room project and my back isn't quite as sore anymore. I still haven't done any christmas shopping, well I did buy my mom 2 shirts online but thats it. I am kind of broke since I made a mistake spending all my money...lol. I forgot to take 500 out for rent so when that hit I was broke. I get paid Thursday and friday so then I can go shopping. I will be back in Ohio next week, I may have to stay an extra day thanks to the schools being stupid. I remember back when I was in school you got like 3 weeks of for christmas so I planned next week, the week before christmas so I could spend time with my son and then come back here and spend christmas itself with HB. But nope my sons vacation doesn't start until that weekend so I may have to stay Saturday so we can have a small thing where he can open my presents. That kind of bums me out. Not really a whole lot else happening. As you can see below Homer and Marge are doing well and getting big. Marge is eating a lot better and more, she's still not as big as Homer.Umm thats about it. I work and go home, feed them, clean up a bit and sometimes try to take a nap but most times just veg out in front of the tv, eat and sleep. I'm too tired to do anything exciting. But there is peace in boring routine. Hope everyone has a happy and safe holidays.

Happy Holidays

From Homer and Marge

The Beginning

So here is what I look like after 2 weeks of not being in the military! I am on my way to being a bum, note the peach fuzz making it's way into a fuzz goatee. HB has said I am trying to be a little mountain man, I think it's more like a hill man myself. I'll post more pics as the hair gets longer and I start looking more and more like a bum!


While trying to take a pic I got this of my eyes that look really blue and cool!

HFSmas Nutcracker!

SO this was my first time at Rams Head Live, my directions there were messed up but thankfully with my sharp sense of direction and a few Uturns I got us there a little late. Apparently one of the bands missed a train so they started an hour late, I was hoping the band didn't make it but they did so the show ran later, I'll get to that in a minute. There will be no pics at least unless HFS puts up pics because no cameras were allowed. It was a nice small place, we were in the back where there was a little step to sit on in between sets which was nice and we were still close to the stage, it was great. The first band was 40 Acres. THey were really good. Good old ole school rock, some resembelance to Guns N Roses. The singer interacted well with the crowd throwing out CDs and Tshirts from his santa bag. The guitarist was amazing!! He could definately be the next Slash, he even had hair working on being like his...lol.

Next up was Shiny Toy Guns, the reason the show was late. They fucking sucked ass!! Thankfully they only played like 3 songs and left! The chick was spazing out while trying to sing and play, the keyboard guy looked like the singer from AFI, gay as hell, the other singer/guitar player had the gayest hair, I hope there are pics so you can understand, he had his part shaved on the side of his head with the rest long. The drummer I think was the worst, he had a triangle painted on his eye like he thought he was in Kiss, he kept doing weird ass dancing moves and being over dramatic while playing. It was a trainwreck!!! Supposedly they just played Letterman which aired last night. They sucked ass!!

Next was +44 Which Kicked as much ass as I thought they would. The ladies loved them some Mark, he would come to the edge of the stage to say hi to everyone, making eye contact with everyone in the crowd, throwing pics to people. They played pretty much their whole album, no Blink songs. Here's the amazing part, Travis had a cast on his right wrist, I don't know if it was broken or what but he kicked ass on the drums with one hand! It was great! I could only imagine seeing him play with both. At one point he smoke a cigarrete while playing, I don't think you'd ever see a drummer doing that but all he was doing with that hand was holding it up so why not put a cig in it...lol. It was great, Mark loved talking to the crowd and the crowd loved him! The only problem was the sound was a little messed up with his mic so it sounded a bit distorted, but don't think it was his fault.

Finally 30 Seconds to Mars by this time it was almost midnight and HB and I had to get up early. THey came out the crowd went crazy as the girls drooled over themselves, HB included. We only stayed for a few songs. They were good though but by that time I was tired, hungry and my legs and back was hurting so I wasn't fully enjoying the moment, totally my fault not the bands. They played awesome and Jared didn't preach too much, he got into it a little but nothing over the top so they stay out of that category. It just sucks going to concerts on work night and the parking garage there was horrendously small, I couldn't imagine trying to get out with a shitload of cars. But we made it out safe, I just got a speeding ticket on the way home. They "reduced" the fine, by saying I was doing 67 instead of 76 in a 55. I think they are full of shit, I may have been doing 70 but whatever $80 down the drain again. I wonder how many speeding tickets I've gotten now, at least 10 I think. WHatever. All n all good time, another good show!