Unrealized Dreams

As I sit here bored at work just like every other day counting down til I can go home, I've been thinking of all the great things I thought I was going to do once i got out of the military. I was going to go to school, I was going to get a great government job, I was going to start working out more. All of these things would be realized since I wouldn't be working 2 jobs anymore, I would have all of this free time, yet here I sit still with nothing accomplished. Granted the school and job thing needs to wait until I move but still. I have always lacked motivation. HB and I were talking last night a bit about it. When I have free time I usually want nothing more than to sit and veg in front of the TV. I barely even read the book that I wanted to because there is things on TV. I don't work out. I have a set of dumbells in the basement I figured I could lift a bit everyday while I watched TV but no I sit and mess around on my computer or spend an hour playing with my guitar and continually leaning an easy part of a song that I never intend to finish leaning the whole thing. My life is always full of unrealized dreams. I start something and never finish it. Hell like 2 years ago I started working towards a degree, I took 3 classes, failed one but passed the other 2 and that was it. No more since then. Hell I start to try to seek medical care before I got out but didn't really finish or follow up. I think I've slightly mentioned a few times but it is kinda embarrassing, they said I have irritable bowel syndrome. For the past 2 years or so my poo is more like soft serve to water. It has gotten somewhat controllable lately since it seems to hit just right. I get to work clock in and then wham there it is, usually just once a day but sometimes more. They gave me a couple different fiber things but didn't really help so I just stopped taking it and deal with it. I should have had a GI scan done to figure out what exactly was the cause but never followed through. This I can blame a small amount of my fatigue and lethargia but the rest is my fault. Maybe its depression or uncertainty or ADD I have no clue but it is something that I don't know how to correct. Maybe its just my dumbass being lazy. This obviously isn't the first time I've realized this, but why didn't I get help when I had medical. My strongest reason has been that if anything goes down between me and my ex then I have a clean "mental" slate when it comes to medical records which I know she doesn't. Another is I just don't like talking to others about my problems, I never have I probably never will. I mean something yes I will tell friends or the people it affects but when it comes to inner turmoil, I think its best to remain in and it will eventually go away. I know its not true but like everything else, I know most the facts, I know what I do is wrong, I know there is some chance that my problems could be solved somehow medically but I don't. Maybe its pride or whatever. I really have no clue all I know is I can't fix it. Will I someday, probably not. It just seems I am constantly in limbo. I'm gonna do this when I transfer, I'm gonna do this when I get out, I'm gonna do this when I move to Texas, I'm gonna do this when we get our house, when will it end. When will it finally be that time. When will I stop procrastinating. Short answer- probably when I die.

Useless

I still don't really have much to say. My buddy Chris and his wifey have been staying with us since Vday and will be leaving us tomorrow. Its been fun having friends again and just sitting around and bullshitting. But besides that nothing but work and hanging out so here's some useless facts!

The world record for the number of body piercings on one individual is 702, which is held by Canadian Brent Moffat.

With winds of 50 miles per hour, The Statue of Liberty sways three inches and the torch sways five inches.

The first product that Sony came out with was the rice cooker.

The Hubble telescope is so powerful that it is like pointing a beam of light at a dime that is two hundred miles away.

The average American drinks 400 glasses of milk in a year.

Eyebrow hair lasts between 3-5 months before it sheds.

Women who are romance novel readers are reported to make love 74% more often with their partners than women who do not read romance novels.

It is possible to get high by licking a toad. The Cane Toad produces a toxin called bufotenine to ward off predators. When licked, this toxin acts as a hallucinogen.

It takes about 63,000 trees to make the newsprint for the average Sunday edition of The New York Times.

If you yelled for 8 years, 7 months and 6 days, you would have produced enough sound energy to heat one cup of coffee.

In 1998, Ten Speed Press publishing company published a book, "The Eat A Bug Cookbook" by David George Gordon that contains over 33 bug recipes.

It was believed by Ancient Hindus that the world was a sphere and rested on the back of four elephants, which stood on a turtle.

Desert snails can stay in their shell for up to three years.

Jupiter is the fastest rotating planet, which can complete one revolution in less than ten hours.

In 1976, a Los Angeles secretary named Jannene Swift officially married a fifty pound rock. More than twenty people witnessed the ceremony.

Apples, not caffeine, are more efficient at waking you up in the morning.

The only poisonous birds in the world are the three species of Pitohui. The Hooded Pitohui from Papua New Guinea is the most deadliest out of the three.

Budweiser beer is named after a town in Czechoslovakia.

It takes 3,000 cows to supply the NFL with enough leather for a year's supply of footballs.

The reason the soft drink Dr Pepper is called that is because the inventor Wade Morrison named it after Dr. Charles Pepper who had given him his first job.

The temperature of lightning bolts is sometimes hotter than the surface of the sun.

The only real person to be a Pez head was Betsy Ross.

In Singapore, it is illegal to sell or own chewing gum

Outside London, Liverpool is the most filmed British city, and was used to film more than 140 films in 2002.

In the 18th century, potatoes were given out as a dessert. They were served in a napkin, salted and hot.

A human head remains conscious for about 15 to 20 seconds after it is been decapitated.

The tuatara lizard of New Zealand has three eyes, two in the center of its head and one on the top of its head.

There are more Barbie dolls in Italy than there are Canadians in Canada.

The microwave was invented after a researcher walked by a radar tube and a chocolate bar melted in his pocket.

In ancient Egypt, Priests plucked EVERY hair from their bodies including their eyebrows and eyelashes.

More people are killed by donkeys annually than are killed in plane crashes.

The country with the highest consumption of candy at 29.5 pounds annually per person is Denmark.

The most dangerous job in the United States is that of a fisherman, followed by logging and then an airline pilot.

Every year Alaska has about 5,000 earthquakes, 1,000 of which measure above 3.5 on the Richter scale.

Nothing

SO I know it's been a while since I've posted anything, and even longer since I've posted anything that anyone would ever want to read, but thats ok since no one really reads anyway other than the few who stop by. Thats ok this is my place to put my feelings so I can look back and reflect. I was planning on doing that but either the computers here or blogger is fucking up. I've had a few thoughts of things to bitch about but haven't really had time, a few things I wanted to discuss but same thing. Well truth is I have time but it's time that I don't really want to spend trying to write crap. Everyday is always the same, work go home do my routine, go to bed. Everyday, nothing really exciting. Perhaps I'll write again when I have something to say other than I don't have anything to say.
I did see Epic Movie last weekend, it was funny but not as funny as the scary movies or anything. It isnt really worth paying money to go see unless you just wanna go to the movies. I watched Smokin Aces yesterday, it was ok. I liked most of the story up til the end, the ending is probably what kept getting it low ratings. It has one of those crappy ass plot twists at the end, and its one that is really hard to follow at least for me. I should have rewound it and watched it again but it pissed me off too much for that. Oh well, thats my 2 cent input. Until next time...