5 more days....

So this weekend was kind of a drag with the storm coming, it didn't really hit until last night but it was dreary all weekend. I've told my son that we'd try to go to the zoo, he wanted to go camping(but not in the woods, maybe the backyard), and several other things. Luckily I didn't promise him all that, just saying "we'll see" I didn't realize til a couple days ago that this was my last weekend with him that HB and I will be taking him back Friday or Saturday. I am pretty excited to have alone time with HB. We can go out on weekends, and sleep in. I think it'll be fun. Granted I am gonna miss my boy again but I think the fit the other day was enough to make me not miss him so much for a while. Perhaps we just weren't meant to be together anymore, or maybe not til later. Who knows, who cares. Nothing I can really do about it anyway. My car is still in the shop, hopefully I get it back before Friday or else we may need to take HBs car and I don't want to. I don't want to put those miles on it or risk using it to hit another deer. But just thought I'd give a quick update before I got to work. I've been waking his ass up 530am and bringing him into work. He was been good, just sits at the desk next to mine playing with a couple little toys. He just gets a little loud sometimes. But anyways, later.

I think I'm better...for now

So yeah I blew up, I got drunk, I yelled at kids as I killed them on Halo, smoked like a chimney. When I was playing the ex called back and actually talked calmly. She wasn't coming. Yesyerday was my first day back to work, hungover and tired as shit. The boy was good, sat in a chair and played with some toys one of the guys here had in his office. My desk was piled with all of the reports that came in since I've been gone. I was fucking furious and was very close to throwing them all over the office since people were too fucking lazy to pick up a little slack for me, there are at least 2 people that I know can put them in the computer. So I sat here and put in the piles for 4 hours, around 200 reports and that was just the piles, not what is actually in my bin. So that what I have to do this morning. I haven't seen my officer and I would have yelled at him yesterday, but think I am better now. Dumbass guy wasn't in yesterday. All the reports I entered into the computer I piled on his desk with a sticky saying please file. He probably hasn't lifted a fucking finger since I haven't been here to ask him to help with shit, and he is supposed to be in charge of me. At least everyone knows he's a piece of shit so it's not like he gets credit for anything. But I just wanted to let people know that I am still alive and so is my boy. I know none of this is really his fault but I can't help it. I don't/didn't take any of this out on him. But I need to get to work so I can get out of here. I keep thinking it's Friday, wishful thinking I guess.

My son hates me and I do too

As far as I know my ex is on her way to come pick up our son. I am kind of happy. I can't deal with being a dad any more. So fuck it I give up. All I am supposed to be is a voice in the phone and a guy who shows up once in a while and brings presents, I'm not even going to do that fuck them both. Sure it was fun at first and evn fun during the day but the past couple nights when he talks to her before bed he starts blubbering about wanting to go home. If thats what he wants so be it. He's made himself puke right outside the bathroom 2 nights and tonight kept puking on the closed toilet seat 20 minutes after I gave him a bath. She yells at me for being a dick about having to clean up puke because she wants to talk to him when he was done and I said no because he'd do it again, then she proceeds to call back 3 times for my address and keeps telling me he doesn't want to be with me. I finally trew the phone against the wall. Like it doesn't kill me enough hearing him cry about not wanting to be with me she needs to rub it in my face. Fuck them they can have each fucking other. Somehow HB slept throught the whole thing. I wznt to fucking punch holes in the wall but no I'm fucking done. I give up. Thats all I can do. I beat myself up too fucking much over this. If she comes she can have him. She has my address. I'll pack his fucking suitcase see you later. Have a nice birthday, and christmas, don't know when I'll be back again. You've caused me too much heartache. I'm cutting my loses. I've tried to make you a good boy but apparently your stupid ass mother and her cousin that she's probably fucking and her rapist uncle are a better fucking life for you. Keep trowing fits for them and only eating what you fucking want. Enjoy being malnutritioned and getting in trouble in school. I won't be at the paerent teacher confrences. You gave up on me after a couple days. We had our talks and had our fun. Nice knowing you.

Sonic Youth!!

So the show kicked ass! Canowine and I both missed the first band which kind of sucked because they sounded good online, Be Your Own Pets, I'm not linking much cause I have my terror running around and don't have much time to blog or even read blogs :( But the show was great I was a little upset they didn't play many of their old songs but what do you expect when a band has been around for 20 years and has a new album coming out, they need to play those songs. but it was great. You Can Check Out the Pics HERE and you can listen to the show thanks to NPR HERE after the first song you should be able to hear someone in the crowd give a shout out to Eck, I'm not sure who but I haven't listened yet. Let me know. Got to go.

Uncle Tom called and left me a message this morning. Good to hear your alive now start posting stuff online damnit, so when I start surfing again I can read all you adventures!

Trips complete

So the trip to Ohio started as a disaster. Driving wasn't too bad, not much traffic and didn't get pulled over, but 12 miles from my town a deer ran into my car. Right into the drivers side. I barely saw its head when it hit, luckily it was only a small doe. It fucked up my headlight, turn signal and dented my doors and scratched the car. I was pissed. I was cruising at 80 on back roads. I stopped threw it in reverse, grabbed my asp baton and got out to finish the deer as I called my mom to see if I needed to call the cops. When I found it and went after it I had my mom yelling at me through the phone to leave it alone and HB yelling at me, wanting to help it. I think the cop had to kill it, it couldn't get up. But we were ok, my car was the only victim. Then that night while I slept part of my tooth filling broke off and I woke up in extreme pain. Good times, NOT! But my family seemed to like HB, it is hard for my mom to like people but I am pretty sure she did. It was a pretty good time. It was cramped for time. My boy gave HB a hard time at first but kind of warmed up to her. I think he gets on her nerves but thats what he does. He is very picky because his mom spoils him way too much and I don't think I can break him in less than a month. I will try though and if need be his summers with me will turn into bootcamp til he starts acting right. The problem is that she spoils him and her "cousin" that she lives with and her uncle thats next door are immature and fuck with him. He thinks it's cool to call names and act up and fight. I usually wrestle with him but he actually punches now and that's definately gonna stop. But that's the little drama I'm gonna be going through. Now tables have turned and HB has to deal with my boy annoying her...lol. Tonight Canowine and I are going to go see Sonic Youth at the 930 club, it's gonna be awesome! I wish HB could come since she still hasn't been to 930 but she volunteered to stay home and watch my boy, so I owe her big. Well need to go somebodys begging for attention.

Busy day tomorrow

Ok so no more promises of audioblogs. I almost did when we went to Howl at the Moon. We parked kind of far because we weren't exactly sure where it was but saw a lot to park for free. We walked in, it was pretty busy, had some drinks, got some free ones and shots for being military. We left went to the lot and it was locked. I was gonna jump the barbed wire fence but then realized that I still couldn't get the car out. I eventually went into a hotel that also used the lot and got them to open it. But we freaked out for a while.

Tomorrow bright and early we fly out of here and to Bmore, then drive to rockville to get my car and then off to Ohio. It's gonna be a long day. But should be fun. I really owe Specy for letting us crash at his place. We took it over, ate his food, slept in his bed. So he'll probably be glad to get his room back, but I need to let him have his computer back. Later people! Have a good weekend!

I'm in Texas Biatches

Whats up, I know no audio's yet. We're in San Antonio with Specy. Houston was ok, her family didn't seem to hate me which is good. They were kind of impartial with me. I hung out with HBs little bro most the time because he spoke english. It was cool though, we ate a shitload of food. We've been here for a couple days crashin with Specy, taking over his place. We've just been lounging and taking it easy. I got my white ass burnt by the pool in Houston, but am healing good. Maybe hit up the pool again tomorrow. Tonight we are heading down to the riverwalk. It is always fun, go to Howl at the Moon, which is way better than in Bmore, sory TG. But just thought I'd give a quick update and maybe tonight when we get stupid!!!!!!!!!!