Random shits

Well we'll start with the latest thing that pisses me off and that is just a minute ago I bought 2 tickets to see 30 Seconds to Mars in May for HB's Bday. For anyone who doesn't know it's Jared Leto's band and it really surprised me that he was actually good. But anyways 2 tickets $15 a piece and a total of $16.50 for convenience charges. What is the fucking deal with this shit. I am really fucking sick of it. Really what more do they need than 39 cents for a fucking stamp to mail them, hell they don't even need that ticketmaster has emailed tickets to me before. But it didn't give me the option this time. Seriously why don't they just make ticket prices higher or some shit instead of it looking like hey, these tickets are cheap and then charge an extra 7-8 bucks per ticket. Fuck you corporate america, fuck you in the ass with a 4x4 wrapped in razor wire while someone rams a 12 in wide dildo down your throat, lets see how you like the way you rape us for fucking tickets!!

Ok we apparently got the townhouse, we should be signing the lease next week or so. I am really fucking excited about it. We should start moving in the middle of May. It's closer to work than HB's, about the same from mine. I am excited, we will have like 2 weeks to get everything fairly settled before we go to Texas and then when we get back, I kind of just want to leave from the airport to go pick up Aaron and bring him back but I'm not sure if I can con HB into that. We'll see. Yay for us!!
It is beautiful outside, and they still have the heat on in our office. So it feels like I am back in hell. I thought when I escaped last time that I had a lifetime before I went back but apparently not.

So I did pick up YYY- show your bones yesterday and here's my review of it. I listened to it the rest of my day at work but I couldn't pay it it's due because of efveryone talking and shit. But when I put it in my car and got the chance to listen to it. it was a different experience. Now the first time I heard YYY was seeing the video for Maps on MTV as probably most the rest of us. I dug it because it was really different. Upon hearing the rest of the album I fell in love with it. Here's this 3 piece band with a crazy chic singer screaming and it was pretty much punk rock. Which of course was my fav choice in music. When I saw them, they were the best performance at the festival. Well after what seemed like forever they've got a new album. Now this isn't as punk or hard as fever to tell but it definately shows a growth and change in the band. It is more musical and a little slower. There is still some screaming and shit but it's just not as fast paced. I think this concert Monday will be the best. I mean both CD's are only about 35 minutes long which is why they weren't on stage for long last time, so now they got over an hour of music and will be able to go back and forth from the fast paced fever to tell and the slightly slower show your bones. I'm pretty sure Karen O will be on and full of her energy the whole way. I'm excited!

I've got one more counseling session to go!!! But I have to go in Saturday at like 10 or something for paperwork, which better not take long because I was gonna go to my other job since I have been slacking and cuz I need to get more money before our trip and for moving and hit. Anyone care to lend a hand? I will buy beer and pizza!! You know you want to! But I'm hot and hungry so I am gonna go outside and smoke and then grab some food or some shit. Fuck off, I am always hungry I know!

Motherfuckin bitch ass doctors!!

So they aren't doing my surgery today. They claimed that my fucked up eye is the same and my other eye now has some shit on it or something. I don't care if they are fucked up I just don't want to wear glasses anymore! But he wouldn't listen to my logic, his whole morale shit or something made him give me more drops and wants to see me Friday down at the DC office. I may have to just metro there, I hate driving and especially a weekday morning I doubt I will find parking. That shit pisses me off almost as much as the drivers around here and thats a fucking lot! But I guess on the bright side I can go to counseling tonight and probably next week and fucking be done with it. I wasn't sure if I'd be able to make it if I did have the surgery. But whatever. I am fucking hungry but what else is new. The townhouse we like sounds like a go. They want a bigger security deposit because our credit isn't good hopefully we offered him enough. If I don't hear back today I'll call tomorrow. I'm just pissed about my eyes! So I can't talk right now. It's nice outside I may walk down to the NEX and see if they have the new Yeah Yeah Yeah's. Hope everyone else has a good humpday, mine would have been better if stupid doctors didn't fuck shit up and worry about patients and just do what I fucking want!

New CD's!

That's right there are lots of kick ass CD's that just cam out. Ok maybe not lots but a couple. Last week I missed the realease of From First to Last - Heroine I have their first album and really dig it. The singer has a somewhat higher pitch kind of girly voice that some may need to get used to but all in all I really like them. Anyone who has a song that screams "shake it like a salt shaker!" is badass to me!

But today there are 3 releases that I really may need to stop and pick up on the way home. First is Rob Zombies new album Educated Horses. He played a nice mix of new stuff and old stuff at the concert that I left out of my review he pretty much played a new one than an old one, even playing some White Zombie's more human than human and thunderkiss '65. The new stuff was the same style, just pure Zombie rock!

Today I am Metroing down to get Uncle Tom and my tickets for the Yeah Yeah Yeah's There new album Show your Bones is supposed to be a great follow up to Fever to Tell. These 3 are so fucking talented it's unreal. The energy you get from Karen O is amazing. She can scream like a banshee and yet sing a nice lulaby. I can't wait to hear the whole album. You can check out their new video on yahoo. My comp is slow there so no link find it though!

Third release today is Atreyu - Deathgrip on Yesterday again I own their previous album The Curse and it is good old death rock! Some screaming and some ballads but all great. I regret not getting to see this band at warped tour and thats all My Chemical Romances fault for sucking and being poser pussies. Fuckers! bUT HOPEFULLY THEY WILL COME BACK TO THE AREA AND i WILL GET TO SEE THEM. Damn cap locks button and damn me for being to lazy to retype. But yeah if you check out these albums you can be my friend if not I don't know just do it! But I need to go pick up my tix. Later.,

Pics from Zombie

I got to leave work early because I wasn't putting on my uniform so here's the pics, some look artsy! Blogger is too slow and I'm lazy so here's the snapfish version since I took so fucking many!

CLICK HERE AND CHECK THEM OUT

My weekend, Zombie, and my eye

Had a pretty good weekend. HB had duty, but Saturday we went and looked at houses to rent. We saw a really nice townhouse, the landlord was cool and really liked us. I hope we get that place. I just called to check-up on it becasue they wanted to run a credit check. She said the results were in but she still has to meet with the landlord to see what he wants to do. So everyone keep their fingers crossed. Sunday we had lunch at Jaleo's it was nice. I conned Uncle Tom into going to see Rob Zombie with me. So I didn't have to go by myself. The first band was Bullet for my Valentine who were great. I've heard them before I don't remember if Chris said something about them or if I just stumbled on them on myspace. Anyhow, they kicked ass! I am going to pick up their CD whenever I get the chance. I was suprised as hell that there wasn't a mosh pit. Rob Zombie was up on the balcony watching. It was cool. Next was Lacuna Coil who I've never heard of. They were pretty good but sounded a lot like Evanescence. I mean a lot! Apparently their Italian or something. The chick was a hottie, the dude kept puffing out his cheeks like he had a mouth full of cum but they sounded good. And they were all doing that standing in a line and head banging together, I like that it looks cool. Everyones hair flying at the same time. I told Tom I can't wait til I get out and grow my hair back out but he said HB probably won't let me. The next we had Rob Zombie it won't even let me go onto his webpage from work. Let me first say Damn he looked good for being 40. I remember seeing him on tv when White Zombie first came out and he looked rough and old. He looked good and healthy which is good since most musicians start to go down when they get famous. I'm gonna have to go see Slither next weekend. He plays a doctor in it. But anyway, he kicked ass. It was pure and simple badass rock show. They had a giant screen in the back playing random aneme, how ever that's spelled. Lots of boobs on the screen. Rob was jumping around the front of the stage from one speaker to the next. It was awesome! I talked Tom into fighting through the crowd with me to get up front. We got center stage and like 4 people back from the stage. Hopefully the picks turn out. It's always hard to steady myself with the crowd pushing and then he wouldn't hold very still. Also yesterday I found some spare tickets online for the Yeah Yeah YEah's show next Monday. They sold out in minutes and I was supposed to get tix, I saw them at HFStival 2 years back and have been dying to see them again. Tom has yet to see them. I have to go tomorrow to meet whoever the fuck this guy is and get the tickets at a metro stop. Hopefully HB will lend me a metro check. Today I went for my pre-Op eye exam and they said they may have to postpone my surgery. I am a little pissed off about that. They said my problem eye was inflamed. and they gave me drops. I have to go in Wednesday morning for them to see if they can do the surgery that afternoon or not. They better do it, I want this shit done and over with!!! But yeah thats what it been like so far. I am refusing to wear my uniform today at work. I am wearin my concert T. I am tired as shit. I set my alarm for 5 and woke up a little after 6. Well hope everyone is haveing a great fucking Monday!

My Blogger Duty

Since my daily reads are becoming more weekly reads because people aren't posting as often, or at least the people I have grown accustomed to reading for the past year, I feel it is my Blogger duty to keep posting stupid shit no mater how insignificant it is. Now as most people have probably noticed this site has evolved with me throughout the time I have been blogging. I think it has actually imatured though instead of maturing. At first I was kind of unsure what I could put, about myself and my thoughts, on the internet. And by this point I just don't really give a flying fuck! Which has kind of made this blog more and more like me. Scary thought huh, if we take a look back, The first month or 2 was mainly about music, which is what I wanted. I wanted to share my kind of music, the underground screamo if you will with the world who may not have heard it, I wanted to stumble across others who shared my taste in music. There were also my concert reviews, which were getting rather good if I may say so myself. I was starting to feel kind of like a real journalist reviewing concerts, but then that dropped off with the number of concerts dropping. Now its just kind of, went was good, here's some pics. But oh well. Now it is pretty much just a journal, with random thoughts and random stupid shit. I'm surprise I haven't recruited more readers. I've had a variety of different things but not many stuck around to read. Although I was competing with Canowine at The Smudge with hits when I had the pics of Ti1a Tequi1a up, but the only looked at the pics and never actually read anything. Oh well, fuck them. This is my place and I have my usual readers and that's all that matters. We should have another blogger get together, I think I read that Blue was moving here to the east coast. But he doesn't even read anymore so... He was the first one who I saw linked to me. I remember looking at my statcounter and seeing people coming from golfmerchant, I was like WTF is that, so I clicked it and read a bit and was just kind of like wow, I have a reader, he was more of a lurker but he doesn't link to me anymore. I must have made too much of an ass out of myself at our blogger meeting. I was pretty wasted but I don't think I made a scene there, it was walking back to the car where it started going wrong. But oh well. Who cares, not me. I do like the way my page looks now though, I am proud of myself. I can't wait to get my eye surgery, I am really tired of wearing my glasses. I only have 2 more counseling left, I'm not sure if I'll be able to go next week, since it is the same day. Maybe if I feel like it HB can drive me and I can sit through it. Just to get it out of the way, I'll just need to wear my sunglasses, I'll be on drugs. Our usual counselor isn't our counselor anymore, from now on it's the other chick that I bitched about before. No one likes her, she just talks about herself and shit. She always tries to talk to me when I'm in early and just reading a book. I ignore her and keep reading and I still hear her talking to me. It's really annoying. I just want to get it over with and try to get off probabtion as a whole. But I just figured we could all reminisce and perhaps people will start blogging again, but if not I guess I need to go out and explore again and see if I can find new people to keep me entertained while I sit here at work and can't surf half the net because it's blocked. But if I do have to do that, please know that I will never forget my first posse. You guys are more than welcome to keep reading and I'll be sure to keep you on bloglines in case you decide to post something again. Happy Friday Fuckers!

Surgery and more

So Yesterday I talked with the Laser eye people that I went to see Tuesday. I filled out a form for a loan to pay for it, it costs $4,000. Wells Fargo denied the loan application. I don't really know why my Loans keep getting denied, my credit isn't that bad. I need to go out and start getting loans for as much as I can and put it into an account and set it up to automatically pay the bill back, damn that's a great idea, except for intrest. But they tried a different place and it was approved. So Monday I have my pre-op appointment where the look more in depth at my eyes and the Wednesday I will have the surgery. I am having PRK instead of Lasik, because apparently my corneas are steeper than most and they don't want to slice that much of it. PRK is cheaper but apparently because it is more painful, but it is safer so it's got it's ups and downs. The custom PRk has a 10 year warranty thing, so it my eyes fuck up or get worse in 10 years they will fix them, so that is cool, I figured I'd better pay the extra for that, this isn't a stereo that if it breaks I can buy a new one. So that's gonna be awesome! I am excited and nervous, but they'll give me valium and percoset so it's cool.

Let's see there was more shit.... HB has been stuck with me for 5 months now, and we are looking for a place to move in together. QUite a bit of changes going on, but I am kind of excited about each one, which is kind of unusual. I like keeping things the same, but I figure that if we change them not and I get into the routine and then all will be better. Or something like that, I don't know. I am excited about this summer. Go meet her family, hang out with Specy, come back maybe she will meet my family and then Aaron will come stay with us for a while. It should be fun, she will get to stop stressing out about Gabe doing things and I will start stressing out about Aaron and well the house will probably just remain a disater zone stamped by the kid. I just filled out a thing online to become an ordained minister, so once they send me my certificate in my email I can officially marry people and shit, just to be sure that in case we have a situation like at Uncle Tom's wedding, where the chaplin was late, I can step uo and perform the ceremony, sure I may not carry a bible or whatever they read from but I am sure I can wing it pretty good. So now everyone needs to refer to me as Father Randy, or Father RC666. Wow that has a nice ring to it. I can't believe I haven't done this earlier. I'm sure there was more shit I wanted to say but fuck it I'm getting distracted by the people in my office talking loud and arguing and I have to keep putting my burns in on this guy who talks way to much shit.

Regular scheduled nothingness

So I believe I am getting back to normal, well normal for me anyways. I am kind of anxious and nervous about my son coming to live with me. I don't really know why, I seemed to take care of him most the time except when I was gone to the field or schools. I think I am just nervous that I am rusty, but I talked to him last night and he's excited so I am too. HB and I need to start looking for a new place, and I need to find someone to move into my place. Hopefully we can do it right before or after Texas. I've got my consult for laser eye surgery today, I think my eyes all better, they've both just been dry, it's a little blurry but I think thats just because my glasses are old and my eyes probably changed a little bit. Hopefully they'll say they can do it soon and have a cool payment plan and not charge me too much. It kind of sucks that it seems most bloggers are blogging less and less. I kind of get it though, I am slowing down, running out of things to talk about, but fuck it, this is nothingness so I can make a whole post about random shit. Yesterday I was thinking about one I did a long while back about things I wonder, I think one was who decided to suck on a cows tit and did they try it with a bull. I may need to start that again yesterday I was wondering if why you never see women giants, like over 7 foot and if Guy giants have an average sized penis, if they do that has to look funny, I wonder about midgets too, I've only seen female midget porn, I don't remember seeing a guy in there but I was wasted out of my mind then also. How did Adam and Eve feel when they decided he decided to put his dick in that hole and then found out a couple a months later that putting it in that whole made a baby come out 9 months later. Yeah I defianately need to start a draft of some of that shit and wait til I get a bunch of good ones. And please if anyone can answer any of these please feel free or to at least give me you opinions about it. That is if anyone still reads after I make them throw up in their mouths a little bit. That's always fun though. Yeah I'm thinking of more and more of those so I need to write them down before I forget. Happy whatever day of the week it is, I forget.

Bad Daddy

I am. People try to ague my good points to me but I don't need convincing and I already know the truth. Why does it always take a slap in the face for me to open my eyes and realize shit. I guess I just prefer to ignore problems most the time. Saturday my ex and I got into an argument on the phone after I talked to my son and he was talking about living with me. She says he thinks I don't love him because I'm always at work. And here I am trying to put off him coming to live with me during the summers for another year. Why well many reasons. I have a small ass apartment that I never stay at, and I am selfish. I am very selfish actually though I never really realized it. I sit and complain about missing him and what not but do I ever get up and actually drive back to see him, it's really not that far. No, why because I am doing my own thing, living my life, having fun, working. But I need to step up and start being a dad. I need to drive back at least once a month, I've been seeing him twice a year, for a week at a time. That's bullshit. I'm missing his life. I am a piece of shit. I called to try to get him back in the daycare on base for this summer. so he can come stay with me. I won't be able to go to my other job for the time he's here but oh well, that money is just a luxury. I really don't know what to say. I am kind of just shocked and disgusted with myself. Especially at the fact that I just kept putting it off, and ignoring it. I am going to start trying to be a good daddy. I am going to try to be a better person in gerneral. Yesterday I was upset thinking about all this so I ran away to my apartment by myself to drink. I needed to escape. I realized thats what I do, when I am down I just exile myself and try to get fucked up and forget. I have been slowly getting better. In the olden days I'd be getting stoned, tripping, coke, special K, or even huffing to escape. Then it became alcohol since it is legal but I'd still go drive around and dod stupid shit. Now it's down to drinking, playing Halo, and smoking a pack of cigs. But nwo I need to start going to the gym or some shit. Lifting weight to relieve stress or hell run even though I hate it. I need to make changes. I need to talk about it with HB. I tried but the more we talked the more I wanted to escape, fighting back tears. I don't know why but no one needs to see me cry. But I need to get my shit in order, I am a very bad procrastinator until I want/have to do something right now. But this is my son's life, I can't put it off or put my life in front of his. I need to grow up and be a daddy.

Revenge of the Eye Part 2...*UPDATED*

So Yeah My eye problem is back except in the other eye. And it's back with a vengence. Last night it hurt but was just more irritating. I woke up around midnight and completely out of control and half asleep I started digging at it and thought my contacts were still in, obviously nothing came out since I took them out earlier. So I jumped in the shower hoping to wash them out. I knock of the shower curtain and shit in the bathroom and proceded to the freezer where I grabbed my Jim Beam and chugged straight from the bottle. I went back to sleep still not fully dried from my episode. This morning I didn't want to get up it hurt so bad. It is pretty much the same thing as last week but the pain and light sensitivity has doubled or tripled. So I tried to go to the eye people this time to get it looked at but they don't see people until 8, so I will be going back in an hour. Looking at the screen is killing me, the floresent lights, I don't know how I made it in this morning, the headlights and everything seem to make me double over in pain. Just a little bit ago I was walking through the halls, blinded by pain, I couldn't keep my good eye open and almost fell to the floor crying. I pride myself on having a high tolerance for pain but this shit is killing me. It's already as if I'm crying, the watering and the sniffeling from my sinuses. I just want to sob in pain, but I know that won't help any. Well I am tired of looking at the screen, I may type more after I see the doc, hopefully he will send me home, though I won't appreciate a 3 day weekend when I feel like this it would be better to be at home. FUCK YOU EYES!! I have an appointment Tuesday for my Laser eye surgery consultation too, hopefully it will be better by then.

So Doc said it's not pink eye, it's corneal epithelial defect from wearing my contacts or some shit. So I am not allowed to wear my contacts. I thought about asking for an eye patch but didn't. It fucking hurts! Good thing I decided to move my Laser surgery sooner, I don't wanna wear my glasses, I can't wear sunglasses and the sun is bright as shit!Ah, I still want to stab it and pull it out with a fork!

Hump me it's Humpday

No humpin this humpday or the next 4 of them. HB had her surgery, doc said no humping for a month. Zefyur got his package, I think he was sadly disappointed but it included the one thing he asked for as well as random shit... you know the usual... a blowup doll, some KY, lubriderm, a hat, and porn. He only asked for porn. I'm sure most of it found the trash already but thats cool, I'm sure he at least laughed at the shit. Not much really happening in my world. The usual shit. Glad HB's surgery is over so she doesn't have to worry about that anymore. I miss Chris, talked to him for a quick minute last night. I saw he audioblogged but I can't listen to it at work so I'll have to listen to it tonight when I get home, I'm sure he yelled at me for being a fag and not staying up to talk to him after he was done with his girl. Oh well, I'll call him tonight in between Halo games after counseling. HB and I need to find a place, she wants me to move in with her, and I want to but I'd rather if we had a bigger place, and perferably closer to work. I need to talk to my landlord tonight if I see him. I'd rather us move while Gabe's gone, it would just be eaasier and the weather would be nicer. But the problem is I woun't have anyone to help me. Getting my shit out of my apartment shouldn't be as hard as getting it in but it will still be a pain in the ass nonetheless. I just ate me some Taco Bell...MMMMMMMMM. Thanks to HB I got out of work yesterday. Her appointment was supposed to be at 9 and not take that long, So I talked to my partner here at work and told him the situation, he said cool. Well I sat outside OBGYN reading my book surrounded by pregnant people until around 11 and then she came out, we got some food and went to my place. I decided I didn't want to go back to work so I called him and said I was disappearing for the day, he said cool, so we took a couple hour long nap. It was excellent. Today he didn't come in til like 10, he said that he overslept and not he is leaving about an hour and a half later. So I guess I just repaid him. It's pretty cool. Rob Zombie concert is next weekend, the 26th. That should be fun except that I don't have any concert buddies anymore! HB can't go because it's a Sunday night, so I will go by myself. I went to HFStival by myself a couple years back and Slipknot as well, so I will be ok. I may have to go to Ozzfest and Warped tour by myself unless HB comes with me, both are in August. I hate Warped Tour because of last year but there are gonna be a bunch of great bands again so I may have to put up with the Nazis. Well I suppose I should get back to work. Fuck you Humpday!

Useless Facts

In Albania, nodding your head means "no" and shaking your head means "yes."

The CIA has made a disk camera that is as big as a quarter. This gadget can take many pictures at a time when the disk is opened.

In China, pancakes are generally served as side dishes. They are stuffed with meat, bean sprouts, and other vegetables.

Americans on average use about 580 pounds of paper per year per person.

Nintendo was first establish in 1889 and they started out making special playing cards.

St. Paul, Minnesota was originally called Pigs Eye after a man named Pierre "Pig's Eye" Parrant who set up the first business there.

The lining of the a person's stomach is replaced every 36 hours.

Budweiser beer is named after a town in Czechoslovakia.

Back in 1919, the Russian transplant pioneer Serge Voronoff made headlines by grafting monkey testicles onto human males.

The oldest roller coaster in the world is the Leap-The-Dips roller coaster located in Lakemont Park in Pennsylvania. The roller coaster was built in 1902.

Consuming chocolate was once considered a sin during the 16th and 17th century.

215 jeans can be made with one bale of cotton.

One average, men spend 60 hours a year shaving.

The country of Fiji is made up of 332 islands.

The peregrine falcon can spot its prey from more than 8 km away.

Althaiophobia is the fear of marshmallows.

My 3 amigos and I

So the bachelor party had all the elements of a normal bachelor party, we had 4 guys, all good friends, a hotel room, a bunch of beer, good resteraunt, and a strip club. But it wasn't really a normal one, why is that... because it was in Dover, Delaware! Let's recap, we decided to only stay for one night since we all have women we wanted to be with, though we knew a guys night out was needed especially since Uncle Tom is going to Korea soon, plus poor canowine being stuck in Dover all by his lonesome. So I get off work early and told Tom I was going to his house, I stopped and got some beer. Get there drink one before he got there, we drank some more while waiting for his brother to get off and home. We watch some tv and bullshit. His brother gets home and we have a slight buzz so he has to drive, which was the plan. So We leave off for Dover around 5 or so. Light traffic, nice ass weather, his bro got directions from a guy so we could take back roads. We got there around 7 or so, so by Dover Downs, the casino thing that's there to get a room, they were booked due to basketball and a tournament or some shit, so we headed down the road to a budget inn, got a room for less than 50. Great! We call canowine and he headed over, meanwhile we drank and watched "I love toys" on VH1. Toms laughing about how lame this bachelor party was. Outside we noticed thug wannabes walking back and forth since our curtains didn't close all the way. It appeared that drug deals were going down and possible blowjobs in cars. I called a cab for us to head back to the casino. We go and gamble for a short while, break about even, then get hungry. We walked down the road and got some seafood. We decided to go check out the local strip club because there seemed to be nothing else to do in Dover except sit at a slot machine for hours on in. Slots suck ass because there is no skill just luck. So We call for a cab while waiting on the check, they said half an hour, the restraunt kicked us out because they closed, it is now 1130, the cab gets there around 12, we were getting tired because we aren't quite young pups anymore and had been up since 5 am. So the cab takes us to Classics, Dovers strip club. While getting out of the cab these thug wannabes on there motorcycles start talking shit. We just ignored them, walk in and there is a fat chick on stage wearing her thong and making it disappear and reappear under the folds of her body, we kind of look at each other and knew the cab was gone, so we sat for a beer. half way through the beer they switched strippers and the next one wasn't as fat but still nasty ass shit so I called the cab back, we finished our beer and waited outside for the cab. The door man was telling us how this wasn't the best strip club but the best in the area, the other one had old fat chicks, an 80 year old lady owned it and would flash her saggy tits and rub them on guy faces. The cab driver confirmed it, we joked about taking Tom there but just headed back to our room. Canowine sat for a while while we bullshitted and watched tv then took off around 2. The rest of us played some cards, kept drinking and after 2 hours of arguing about sleeping arrangements and fighting over everything we passed out around 530, with me on a mattress on the floor, Uncle Tom on the box springs, and his bro on a bed. We woke up to people screaming outside but fell back asleep woke up just in time to check out and head to Denny's. Then back to the casino where I again broke even and they lost some money. We decided to head to a beach on the way back since it was nice. We drove and then stopped for a map and found the closest beach, Slaughter Beach. We stopped, it was chilly with the wind blowing off the water, we sat for a while then headed home. Tom tried to take a nap in the backseat, I got a pen from his bro since he didn't have any markers and I turned around and went to write on his face but he woke up and jumped. Then we all parted our ways to our women. May not have been normal but it was a great adventure.

The rest of the weekend was pretty uneventful, just hung out with HB, yesterday I got on my rollerblades again, first time in a long time. I stayed up and didn't wreck so it was fun, I just went around her neighborhood. But good times, the weather is nice as shit out! It's perfect, not hot no cold! Well I guess I need to do work so, Have a good Monday!

Am I settling or is this the eye of the storm

So I am starting to calm down. I am feeling better though I continue to wear my glasses until my eyes stop being so dry. It seems I am regaining my sanity. I am catching back up at work and getting the things done that need be. I don't think I was cranky with HB yesterday, though I did fail my piss test. Yes America I am an Opiate abuser! Ok not really I just forgot one of the many meds they gave me was Robotussin with Codeine, so it popped but they told me to just bring my perscription in next week and it wouldn't be a problem. We watched Elizabethtown finally, as most Cameron Crow flicks it was pretty good until the abrupt ending. It was sad, funny and wierd but good until it just ends. I still enjoyed it. I am kind of sad that I won't be spending time with HB this weekend. I haven't been spending much time with her. But it's pretty much been goodbyes on the weekends. Goodbye Specy, goodbye Uncle Tom's manhood, just kidding. I'm sure this trip will be fun, liquor, hookers, strippers.... Just kidding. Guys, drinks, gambling. One of us is bound to win big and I think it's gonna be me. Since I didn't win the big lottery I have to win something soon. It is boiling hot in my office yet again. It is really nice outside it's like 65 already. Jackass is taking duty today so I can bolt a little early, I went home yesterday and got Zefs address so I can mail his package today. I'd like to thank him for adding blogupload music to his site so I could steal it and do the same on mine. I added what I think is the best song on Chiodos album, it's got the eerie piano and screaming. His voice kind of sounds like the guy from From first to last kind of high pitch, but after a while it sounds cool. Gives me some hope of becoming a huge rock star someday. Me, Spec, Zef need to start up a band. Spec can scream, I'll sing and play guitar badly and we'll give Zef a drum set to bang on and he can grunt and shit since he wouldn't scream for us last time we took him out and I puked all over Spec's car. But I am getting off subject, oh wait I don't have/never have a subject so I guess I am ok. All I can say is Thank satan it's friday! I hope everyone haas a good weekend, I may audioblog from Dover, I don't think I've been to Delaware yet, I may have passed through it and not paid attention since it is only as big as my little toe. CANOWINE! We're comin to get ya!

Random hells

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Back to the Grind

What is grind and why is that referred to work? I don't know but that was the first thing that popped into my head. I am back to work, my stomach is still a little queezy. All the damn meds. My eye is a little better it just feels really dry. I'm still wearing my glasses that I hate with a passion. I'm pushing up my laser eye surgery, I was gonna call to make my free consultation this week but with all this shit I'll wait until next week, especially because I almost forgot that I am taking a trip this weekend for Uncle Tom's bachelor party. I wanted it to be full of all the usual bachelor things just to see Uncle Tom freak out, he wouldn't even go to a strip club for my birthday when we were out in San Antonio on the last day of the exercise, Bitch I'll never forgive you for that. But we are going to see canowine and do some gambling and shit. Maybe I'll win big and be able to pay cash up front for my laser shit but I doubt it. My days off weren't quite as relaxing as I'd hope. Monday I went home and messed with the computer and got some more shit ready to send to Zefyur, hopefully should be able to send it out at the end of the week. I'm still downloading a bunch of porn for him, since that is the only thing he actually told me he wanted, I threw a bunch of random crap in as well and am gonna put together a couple CD's that he may like. Yesterday I spent most the day at the MVA to get that title for the minivan so that is over with. It took some lying but I finally got it, since my ex's name was on it too. But I sent that off and finally got back to my place around 1, I got there at 830. So I did some more shit on the computer and called Specy since his audioblog was him crying about missing me. He just can't audioblog without me drunk screaming or us getting attacked by God. Ah, good times. He said that if HB and I still want to make a side trip over to Vegas when we're down there in June he'd see if he could go. That would be some good audioblogs again. I get back to work with a bunch of shit on my desk for me to do. I just wanna sleep or eat, My stomachs been fucked up. I get hungry but nauseous. I got my counseling tonight, it will be my 22nd, which means 4 more!! 26 weeks of hell, gone! Then hopefully I will get off probation, I haven't talked to my PO in like 2 or 3 months anyway. But I need to get back to finishing all this shit. Oh I've got my advancement test tomorrow, I haven't even looked at a book or thought about studying. There is no point, I could ace the test and still not advance because of my DUI eval, people could say well try your best for the test in Sept, but if I aced that one too and get a better eval in July, I wouldn't put it on until January and guess what in January I will be a civilian, I tried to put a countdown to that when I fucked up my Template last week, I may try again later today if I get a chance, Happy Humpday all!

Some bad pics from a while back

If your eye looks like mine does today:

You get all these meds and 2 days off from work, yes that is a Z-Pak


After Black Cat Pizza!MMMMMMMMM!!!!!!!

HB, Sugarduck and Uncle Tom

HB and I enjoying pizza!

Fuck

I think I fucked up my Template because this computer is a piece of shit, need to post something to find out. If it is I'm fucked!

I hate this fucking computer and internet. Luckily I had a backup but as you can see was the original before I tweaked it. I'm gonna puch a fucking hole in something, fuck this I'll fix it later!!!!!!!!!

It's fucking Friday

I hate the fucking military! Yesterday I had an appointment to get my taxes done, I went with everything and the guy didn't know what the fuck he was doing so he asked if I could come back later, I said yeah but I had a dental appointment so I wasn't sure when. So I went to Dental and they did a pulpectomy, starting my root canal. It took forever. I got out of there about 330 or 4, went back to the tax place and he wasn't there. OK So I went to the pharmacy to get my motrin, the doc forgot to write motrin, it just said 800mg tabs. So They wouldn't give me them. I was pissed and went to go smoke and write motrin on the slip. I didn't have my lighter, it fell out in the dental chair. So I went back got my lighter and had them write motrin on the slip, went back and got them and left finally about 430, when I was supposed to get off at 2 and go to my other job. Today I find out that the other guy I work with who said he'd do duty this week was on leave and didn't tell or ask me shit. So I need to stay and do his shit today. I went back by the tax place and he wasn't there, they couldn't find all my paper work shit! Then tell me that they don't like to and probably won't do state taxes. I got pissed and asked what the point was if I had to go pay HR Block to do my state anyways, I might as well had them do federal. Fucking piece of shit people. They told me that guy should be in Tuesday or Thurday. Then Friday I have to go back and have them work on my tooth some more. They said it would take quite a few appointments. The denist was awesome though, the best I ever had. When it hurt and I groaned or made a sound, she was concerned when others would just say, deal with it. That was cool, she gave me another shot to numb it more when they were done since it took them a while and she knew the pharmacy would take their sweet ass time. It hurt last night but feels normal today, my jaw is just a little sore from being streched open for so long. She took a break halfway through because her pager kept going off. I got to get up and strech and looked in the mirror, it was pretty cool. I kind of looked out of Saw 2. I had a big blue tarp thing halfway in my mouth and my tooth was hollow, I wish I had my camera to take a pic. I was pissed I missed work but HB made it better. She cooked some chicken that was awesome and nice and tender for my tooth. I was gonna go to work today to make up for it until I realized that fuckhole is on leave. Plus I am supposed to go to Chris's. I need to call him and find out what time. So HB is just gonna come chill at my place until whenever. I am hungry but not, it's weird. My stomach is a little upset. I've been feeling like an old fuck lately. Pain switches from my knees and ankles. I don't know why I don't excercise or anything.

I finished my Richard Brautigan book, it was strange. They all have slow beginings and then get good, and then have crappy endings. I don't know if I'll read anymore of his work. Now I can start on the Kafka book HB gave to me. The Hawthorne Heights album is pretty good. I don't think I like it as much as the first one, maybe it will grow on me. I think the need to let the guitarist scream more, he sounds the best. The CD sounds a little different. It doesn't have quite as much screaming but has more hard metal guitar and shit. I still like it. What else has been going on that I've been forgetting to post... I think if I get money back from this tax shit, or if I ever find out I may push up my laser eye shit. I am tired of wearing contacts. Well I can't think of anymore so I better get started on filing this huge stack of papers, I can't wait to be done with the military shit! Maybe I'll go get a snack to eat. Hope everyone has a good weekend!

Fucking Humpday!

Pretty bad day so far. Hb and I were running a little late this morning that caused us to be slightly cranky. Get to work and have a bunch of emails about shit they want me to do, I have a stack of my usual work that I need to do. I figured whatever they can wait and I'll get to them. I went down to play with my liquid nitrogen shits and found out that I left one open last night after I filled it so it leaked. No problem it disinegrates but that meant that I had to use the other one and then fill them again. Not too big of a thing but a pain in the ass. I come back up and do my hourly blog surfing and shit. Then I went back down to do my checks and they were jacked up. That meant I had to fucking around with this machine and try to remember the one time I was showed how to adjust it because I didn't feel like going all the way back to my office to get the sheet I wrote it down on. It is a long walk, it's a big hospital! Well it took me a long while but I fixed it and went and filled my liquid nitrogen. I get back to my office here about 15 minutes ago and I have another stack of shit and more request to do shit while the other guy sits at his computer and watches a season of Angel! Fucking ass wipe, I can't ask him to do half this shit because no one trusts him to, he fucks things up. Fuck it, it can wait til tomorrow, why, because it's about time to change and go to my LPOs going away at a china buffet. We better be able to go home after that. I've got shit I need to do, not to mention sometime really soon I've got to go sit at the MVA to get the title for my van. They called again today, I figured if I ignored it, it would go away, it didn't. So I need to get the fucking title. I need to do laundry, dishes, clean a bit, get some shit online and shit at home, take a piss test and counseling tonight! I think a nice Beam and coke will be great after all that shit and maybe a couple games of Halo! Friday I will be crying like a bitch because Chris and I are gonna hang out and he leaves next week. FUCK!! Silverstein concerts tonight and tomorrow! HE never told me which one we were gonna go to, fucker skippin out, I knew he would because he's a fuckin pussy. Can't take it, well time to change, hope everyone else is doin better!!