Goodbye...for now

First off, if you don't have your speakers on, turn them on. HB was kind enough to pick up a CD on her way home yesterday. Silverstein's new(kind of) album. 18 Candles: The Early Years is a compilation of their early stuff with a couple added acoustic and live song. 2 of the songs were recorded right here at the 930 club on March 1, if you remember I was fighting with Specy to go to either that one or the next day in Baltimore but he bitched out on me. Fucking fag, you'd be able to hear us screaming "Already Dead" like we did at the other times we saw them. But this acoustic version of Call it Karma is fucking GREAT! The original kicks ass to but I love the way he plays his guitar. Now if your a fan which most of my readers aren't because you suck!(just kidding...well a little) most of the songs from the early albums are the same as what was on "When Broken is Easily Fixed" which was there first full length album. It's kind of cool hearing how Shane sounded 6 years ago.

Again I have tons of shit to do, I am supposed to show an officer how to cover for me while I'm gone but he's no where to be found. I am pissed and about to just leave and say fuck it, what are they gonna do fire me? Bend my dogtags? Fucking officers! I am starving! I have to eat all the breakfast sandwichs I have so they don't go bad and get thrown away, so thats gonna be my lunch today. I am about to go eat it so I can leave soon. Well there is the retard officer and he just said yeah I know how to do it...ok fuck you them later, now I have to go down and do the shit I could have done earlier. Fuckin asshole! and then the guy in charge of me gives me 2 big boxes of things and said to go through them and see if their are any old ones and take them out! I am out of here in an hour. Fuck all these fuckheads! Vacation is starting early cause I'm not staying long at my other job. I still need to pack and shit! Peace everyone. Like I said look for audio coming soon!

It's dangerous driving with air conditioning and subwoofers

That would make a good album name. Hmmmm where to begin. Nice boring weekend. Saturday Specy and his new bride came over and we had some drinks, food, and good times talking. They were our first real guests in the house since we moved in, HB did most the cleaning before they got there, I tried to help but felt mostly in the way so I tried to keep the boy busy. Today I was swamped at work so I left early. I like being different, most people stay late when they have a bunch of shit to do, I run away. I got most the shit done I needed to. I then drove here to my other job. It is hot as fucking hell outside. Anyone who has rode with me knows I usually have to have my window cracked a bit. I'm not really sure why but I do, in winter its because the heater chocks me, I need fresh air and summer, I just like the windows down and the wind blowing through, but it was too fucking hot. So I'm cruising with my air on and music blaring not thinking anything til I passed a couple cars and looked at the spedometer and was doing almost 100mph, I looked at my mirror to see if any cops were around but because of the vibrations of my bass I could barely see cars getting smaller. So I decided that I have to pay attention and slow down when I have the air on, I guess I can tell how fast I'm going by the wind blowing in when the windows are down. Luckily no tickets. We leave Thursday for Texas where it will be hotter, hopefully the weather is just trying to get me pre climatized, though I hear it's been flooding down there or some shit, so the rain will feel good. I will get to meet Hbs family, which I am sure they will kick me out of their home and forbid her from seeing me again, perhaps by not even letting her leave the home until I die. Just kidding, parents usually like me. I tend to keep my mouth shut around them for the most part, so they think I'm shy when I'm really just trying not to go off on some tangent argument about god knows what. Plus they don't speak good english so maybe I'll try saying stuff in jibberish and act like I can't believe they don't understand me. Again I guess I just get goofy when I get nervous but I am pretty sure things will go fine. HB's been trying like hell to get out of going to meet my family. Though I keep telling her they like her already. My mom even asked what kind of food she liked or wouldn't eat. She didn't give a shit about my ex...lol. She'd just say she's eating what everyone else is, or she just assumed because she was chunky that she wasn't picky, who knows. My mom is usually pretty honest and bitchy. I don't recall her saying anything to my ex, but I do remember her telling me she didn't like her when we were dating. But on the bright side of both we can meet the family and then if we don't get along we live far away(for now at least). We'll get to hang with Specy in his new place, drag him out if we're invited to hang with HBs friends down there, hopefully he can make some new friends, though I doubt it cause we are really bad when we get together. I wish I could have taped our dinner conversation...lol. I don't remember everything, just orgys, AIDs, and whatever else came to our minds at the time that we thought we could do. It's always fun but usually worse in pubic. But the girls get along and accept us, which is very hard to believe, I think when we're not around they talk about how dumb we are and how they are trying to change us and not let us hang out, but whatever. Hope everyone else had a good weekend and look for some audiobloggs when I'm gone, I am sure if Specy and I get drunk we'll call up. Laterz!

Another one bites the dust

When I was thinking about how much I wanted to say about Specy getting married yesterday, that song popped in my head. do..do..do..another one bites the dust... But it was nice and a good time. It's nice seeing friends get married and not being pregnant...lol. It's just a shame that the case has been one of them being far away for a bit, with Uncle Tom going to Korea and then Specy being in Texas. HB and I have been discussing our wedding plans, she said she didn't know who I was marrying because it wasn't her, I told her I'd hold a gun to her head and she told me to shoot her, she'd rather die than marry me. Nice huh? Here I give this woman my heart and soul and worship her with all my existance and this is what I get....Ok don't start to pity me or give HB shit. We both have a sick and twisted sense of humor so we laughed about it and I make her feel guilty. It's what I do. But Specy and his new bride will grace our home with their presence Saturday night, our first house guests...lol. Our bedroom is looking good it is nice to have dressers, everything is actually looking good, just messy now, like we've been living there for years...lol. I'm thinking about seeing if I can just not do my PRT(physical readiness test) I mean really I am getting out in January, so that means I would have to take this one and one more, so what are they gonna kick me out if I don't do it. I've been getting short timers syndrome, I just think fuck it I'm getting out, what are they gonna do? Wrong attitude I know but hey thats me. I am fucking dehydrated from drinking yesterday so I am thirsty as hell and of course a water main or some shit broke so we have like no water in the hospital. I am fucking tired!!!! I want to just hide and sleep, maybe I can actually sleep in tomorrow! Probably not, I don't know if it's because of Gabe or what but now my body forces my eyes open by at least 930 on weekends, I will still be tired and try to hold them close but they will open and just stare at the wall until I get up. It is really annoying. I miss when I would sleep until at least noon if not 3. But I guess that was because I was unconscious from drinking or whatever else and didn't hit whatever surface I ended up sleeping on until the sun was rising. AH, the good old days. But I'd like to dedicate this song to Specy, the love of my life

Another One Bites The Dust-Queen

Ooh, let's go
Steve walks warily down the street
With the brim pulled way down low
Ain't no sound but the sound of his feet
Machine guns ready to go

Are you ready, hey, are you ready for this
Are you hangin' on the edge of your seat
Out of the doorway the bullets rip
To the sound of the beat - yeah

Another one bites the dust
Another one bites the dust
And another one gone and another one gone
Another one bites the dust, eh
Hey, I'm gonna get you too
Another one bites the dust

How do you think I'm going to get along
Without you when you're gone
You took me for everything that I had
And kicked me out on my own

Are you happy, are you satisfied ?
How long can you stand the heat
Out of the doorway the bullets rip
To the sound of the beat
Look out

Another one bites the dust
Another one bites the dust
And another one gone and another one gone
Another one bites the dust, eh
Hey, I'm gonna get you too
Another one bites the dust

Hey
Oh take it
Bites the dust - bite the dust hey
Hey
Another one bites the dust
Another one bites the dust, ow
Another one bites the dust, hey hey
Another one bites the dust, heeey
Ooh show down

There are plenty of ways that you can hurt a man
And bring him to the ground
You can beat him
You can cheat him
You can treat him bad and leave him
When he's down, yeah
But I'm ready, yes I'm ready for you
I'm standing on my own two feet
Out of the doorway the bullets rip
Repeating to the sound of the beat
Oh yeah

Another one bites the dust
Another one bites the dust
And another one gone and another one gone
Another one bites the dust, yeah
Hey, I'm gonna get you too
Another one bites the dust
Shoot out
Hey, alright


But seriously Dance Fanatic better take care of him and I wish both of them the best. She is now my extended family and always welcome where every I am. And I will always be here if you need and ear or even a shoulder. Love you both! Everyone have a great weekend and celebrate! And be memorable of those of us fighting and those who have died and can't celebrate life and the day off!

Useless Facts

When your done click this thing above this and see where it goes and I'll see how much your supposed to get for every click.



Annually 17 tons of gold is used to make wedding rings in the United States.

An office desk has 400 times more bacteria than a toilet.

Amish people do not believe in the use of aerosal air fresheners.

A 13-year-old boy in India produced winged beetles in his urine after hatching the eggs in his body.

The average four year-old child asks over four hundred questions a day.

18% of an Americans income is spent on transportation

In 1982, Larry Walters tied 24 weather balloons to his lawn chair in Los Angeles and climbed to an altitude of 16,000 feet.

850 peanuts are needed to make an 18 oz. jar of peanut butter.

Amazingly, goalies in the National Hockey League played without masks until the year 1959.

The 1912, a wrestling match in Stockholm between Finn Alfred Asikainen and Russian Martin Klein lasted more than 11 hours. Klein eventually won, but was to tired to participate in the championship match.

More than 50% of the people in the world have never made or received a telephone call.

The most overdue book in the world was borrowed from Sidney Sussex College in Cambridge, England and was returned 288 years later.

Emilio Marco Palma was the first person born in Antarctica in 1978.

George Washington grew hemp in his garden.

The largest bill U.S. bill made is for $100,000.

The first domain name ever registered was Symbolics.com.

It would take twenty new mid-size cars to generate the same amount of pollution that a mid-size 1960's car did.

Another word for hiccups is "singultus."

Former U.S. president Ronald Reagan worked as a lifeguard in his youth at a beach near Dixon, Illinois and saved over 77 lives.

Alexandre Gustave Eiffel, the man who designed the Eiffel Tower, also designed the inner structure of the Statue of Liberty in New York Harbour.

In Singapore, it is illegal to sell or own chewing gum.

An average home creates more pollution than does the average car.

Each day the sun causes about one trillion tons of water to evaporate.

The term "mayday" used for signaling for help (after SOS) comes from the French "M'aidez" which is pronounced "MAYDAY" and means, "Help Me."

American Airlines saved $40,000 in 1987 by eliminating one olive from each salad served in first class.

Kite flying is a professional sport in Thailand.

Some bitching and stuff....

So yesterday after coming across the link below, I was infuriated. I am tired of coming across these websites that are so fucking ridiculous and yet genius at the same time. Trade a paperclip for a house, Save Toby, and all the rest that I don't know about yet. I ran an idea across HB, I was gonna start another blog in which I would buy a mouse and auction it's life off, I would mail it to the highest bidder, if it wasn't enough money I'd kill it, but with her being a vet she said I couldn't do it. That was the best idea I could come up with so I sold out my blog, if you notice above this post is a banner thing. Since blogger has adsense I figured I'd try it and see what happens. I was also surfing trying to find out how to make money taking surveys and surfing the web. There was a lot of spam and pop ups and shit but I am doing it on work computer so I don't care. Well all that amounted to nothing. When I find out how this adsense works I'll ask all of your help to earn me money and then let you know how it works and I'll help you. I don't know if it goes by views of this page or if you have to click it or what. They should be sending me an email in a day or so.

One of the things I have been meaning to bitch about but keep forgetting... I am tired of seeing fatasses!!! I'm not talking about chunky people or anything like that, I mean the huge fat fucks that can barely walk, the ones who get handicap stickers so they don't have to walk as far when they really need to park at the very back of the lot. I have one in my office, she pisses me the fuck off. She hobbles in on her cane and has to rest on one of the chairs she places around the room, then rolls towards her desk and the hobbles to the other chair. She gets fucking winded switching chairs. If she is in a chair away from her desk and her phone rings she asks someone else to run over and answer it. She asked me one time and I bit my tongue(really bit it) and answered it for her instead of saying get your fucking fat ass up and get it yourself, maybe if your fucking run you'll fucking have a heart attack and do yourself a fucking favor and just die! I don't understand how people can let themselves go like that. I can understand heredity and thyroid problems and all that making people chunky or overweight, but only to a certain degree. Watch what you fucking eat when that shit happens, especially if your too fucking lazy or your body(knees, ankles, whatever) doesn't permit you to exercise. For fucks sakes have some fucking dignity. But you see these people on talk shows and shit getting lifted out of their bed with a crane or bulldozer, fuck them if they don't have the will to get out of bed, they don't have the will to live, put them out of their misery. Fuck I am getting pissed now. But like I said I'm not talking about fat as in slightly overweight but still functional. My ex's cousin was 14 and weighed over 300 lbs. It was crazy, she should have done like her sister and married a heroine addict off the internet and gone on his diet and looked anorexic as hell a year later but that's a different story. She would sit down and eat a whole chicken that was cooked for the whole house and then eat cake and ice cream and whatever else she could get her fat fingers on. Looking at her actually made me nauseous. Ok I need to go smoke now....Happy Tuesday...Lol.

HORSESHIT!!!!!!!!

I hate the fact that I can't come up with a great retarded plan like THIS and get famous!

Nothing

Well I kind of got something to start out with. HB called me a bit ago and started off the convo with "I'm the worst girlfriend in the world" so my mind goes nuts, I'm thinking she ran over my dog while taking everything I own to a pawn shop so she can buy drugs on her way to a gangbang with all my friends and family and whoever else got the flyer or email. But then I realized that I don't have a dog and my family and now all guy friends are far away, so then maybe an ex or random guy tripped and landed with his penis in her, or stuck his tongue in her mouth and it took her a bit to realize that she can't do that, now one of these things especially the first would win the "worst girlfriend in the world award". But no the diamond fell out of the ring I got her for Valentines day. I looked up ojnline, it appears that the warranty I got for it covers lost diamonds so we can take it after work as long as I can find the paperwork in the mess that is our room.

I've come to decide that I probably need to stop posting little shit about my life since it has become really boring now that all my friends have left, and HB has tamed me...lol. Even Specy's girl told her last time they hung out that I've calmed down alot. When in reality I just stopped drinking so fucking much. Drinking+depression= me acting like a damn fool. Me+HB= me happy and calm. Now I still drink a little every once in a while but it is controlled amounts. I have been feeling the urge to get drunk lately and maybe get a little crazy but it's just not the same without having a bud there to get in trouble with. Specy will be in Wednesday, we may get drunk while he's here but I doubt we'll have a night to ourselves. And if we do we won't be out getting in trouble, probably just stay in and play xbox and shit. God what happened to us...lol women. Not that it's a bad thing, they keep us from getting in trouble, though we are due to get surrounded by cops. Ok Now I forgot where I was going I guess that's my point. I just really have nothing entertaining to talk about anymore. I still haven't posted the pics, I'd say I'll do it tonight but we'll need to go by the jewelry store and we need groceries, I don't think either of us can remember the last meal we had that was home cooked. But yeah so I am tired of typing so I'm sure your tired of reading, laterz...Happy Monday.

Letter Game

I sit here at work on a Sunday :( because my bank account has dwindled during this move and vacation coming up in a little over a week. I need some cash. But my love did this and no one volunteered so I figured I'd do it....

This is how it works: Comment on this entry and I will give you a letter. Write ten words beginning with that letter in your journal, including an explanation of what the word means to you and why, and then pass out letters to those who want to play along.

My letter is "b...I'm not sure where to begin, hey that begins with B...

Bed: I love to just lie in bad, I never want to get out of it, especially while I'm lying with my love. It is so comfortable and feel like nothing in the world can bother you.

Blood: The life fluid that everyone needs to live. It's so full of life with it's bright red color. I love the metallic taste of blood. I usually only drink my own blood but am open if HB is down...lol.

Blurry: It seems a huge part of my life is blurry, either drug induced or just from my delusional mind. I know that when I look back on past event some have been altered to better suit what I thought should have or what I wished would have happened. Plus it just seems like everything is flying bby so fast.

Baggage: I have it, not so much physically, yes I have a kid but not all the time. More emotional, I'm just fucked in the head. I am insecure and feel everyone is out to fuck me over, just because that's what it seems like so far but maybe that is all a part of my blurry memory.

Barbed Wire: I have always been fasinated with it, don't know why really. I used to have a necklace that I got in Myrtle Beach with one barb(?) on it. I wore it all the time, I'm not sure what happened to it, I think it stayed in the ex's jewelry box. I also have it tattoed around my left arm.

Baseball Cap: That's what it's called though I usually doin't wear one with a baseball team. Though I used to wear a White Sox one all the time until it flew out the back of a truch and then I got my Korn hat, and now my freak hat. I always wear a hat, don't know why, just my security item of clothes or something. I feel better wearing it.

Beach: I love the beach and have always dreamt of owning a beach house, though unless I win the lottery will probably never happen. I've been to several beaches and usually I would end up walking along it alone, just thinking as the waves and sound and just the whole atmosphere swallowed me whole. I just love the feeling and how it seems to open up my mind, though it was usually to dark and depressing thoughts.

Brain: Mine is highly disfunctional and sadistic. I end up thinking about the craziest shit for no apparent reason. It is a problem, like when I was painting for 5 hours. I woulod just start making up shit in my head, conversations that I hope never happen. Again I just need to keep it occupied and confined so it doesn't roam.

Burning: I am fasinated with fire. Perhaps that is why I was a pyro. But just watching a bondfire or anything, I find it beautiful. Again it is kind of like the beach, I get swallowed in and my mind wonders.

Breath: Everyone needs to breathe to survive. Sometimes though you just need to take the time to take that extra long slow breath. The one that clears your mind a bit and calms you down. The one that I forget to take way too often. The one that stops you from making a mistake or saying something you shouldn't.

Well that's my 10, anyone else up for it leave me a comment....

I'm sooooo fucking tired....

It seems lately all I want to do is sleep. I don't want to get up in the morning, I don't want to work, I just don't want to do anything, but I trudge along doing all the normal shit and just cutting corners. Our place is coming along nicely, still have a mess of shit in the dining room and our bedroom resembles a dump with the trashbags of clothes, but all that will be fixed soon. We got a nice bedroom set that will be delivered Wednesday. I recommend that no one goes to Marlo furniture in Rockville. I've been there before, a little expensive but not bad. We went one day and found this bitch from some 3rd world country more than likely around romania or something. She was rude and wierd. She recommend things we didn't want, we went back the next day to get the one we wanted and went to find someone to ring it up and ran into her again. She asked if we slept in the store, we showed her what we wanted she asks us if we know how to clean it and keeps going on about it and shit. I really wanted to say listen bitch fuck off, we want it give it to us and kieep your fucking mouth shut, but I behaved. She went and started to ring the shit up and said that it was out of stock and we couldn't have it til June, I said too long, we'll go else where, she made us stay so she could copy my drivers license and shit and say that it will be waiyting for us when we come back. I had to hold on to this piece of paper and guard it with my life or else someone would come and get it and I'd have to pay for it. I kept trying to refuse but she said she had to. We went to the room store where this really big dude let us wonder around and came to us exactly after we found what we wanted which was pretty much the same shit but cheaper. He was quiet and helpful and awesome. I then ripped up the paper that I needed to guard with my life and all is happy. With our bedset is gonna be a twin size bed for the boy, so we got all the big purchases out of the way now. Wedesday they hooked up the cable, internet, and phone but everything but the cable was fucked up yesterday, they fixed it today. Hopefully tonight I can get on Halo with Specy for a while since it has been a while. Sometime this weekend I'm sure I can get some pics up from the concert and see if I can get some pics of the place that aren't still clutered with boxes. Hope everyone has a good weekend. I will be trying to rest and get everything organized. Wish me luck, I'll need it!

Long weekend update

I need to try to make this quick because I've got a busy day, but it was a long weekend so I don't know if I can. Friday I painted for 5 hours and got the boys room, the bathroom, and office painted. I still have the dining room, our bedroom, and 3 bathrooms to paint, but they'll probably wait a while. We moved everything and nothing really got broken and no one really got hurt so it was a good move. My buddy from Bmore cancelled because he twisted his knee and we had to call in HBs Officer in charge who gladly helped and was very much appreciated. We've just been making trips to apartments to fill up cars with shit now and getting all the rest of the little shit. My apartment is finally cleared as of yesterday. Our living room looks livable, and HB fixed up the office to look nice, the boys room looks pretty good, but the kitchen, dining room, and our room are still a mess. Sunday we went to our concert, it was a great timne. First band was Red Jumpsuit Apparatus who was really good I dug it. A good rock band with some screaming. I don't thing HB cared too much for them. They were pretty funny, just thanking us for putting up with listening to them and for at least listening since they didn't have much choice since we were already there. Next up was Keating who was also pretty good, a little softer and I think the singer was gay. He liked touching himself while he sung. He also had his pants barely on his hips I guess to show off his big belt buckle or some thing but they still sounded good, it's hard for live music to suck. I mean a few beers and live music, you really have to suck to make it bad. Next up was Men, Women, and Children Uncle tom, Canowine and myself almost went to see them at the Black Cat a while back. They play kind of 70s music. It is very off, but it was a GREAT show! They put on a very entertaining live sow. Jumping around, getting the crowd to sing, clap and make you just jump along with them. They were having fun and it made everyone else have fun even though their music is very different. They came out equipped with head bands, and 2 had puffy shirts and bandanas hanging off thier guitars. It was awesome. Definately check this band out!! Then 30 Seconds to Mars took forever to come on stage which was very annoying. But eventually they came out and put on a great rock show. Jared annoyed me a little and it irritaed me that the crowd would just chant his name but I did admit, try chanting 20 seconds to mars, go aheadt try, it's hard, too many sylabols. I suggested 3SM to Hb but I wasn't sure if it would fly with the crowd. Jared talked to the crowd and asked how the back of the crowd was doing in which one guy flipped him off and he stopped and had the guy come up by the stage and he turned the lights on so everyone could see him and had us scream fuck you to him. And said shit about this was a family and he's too negative and shit. Plus Jared had a red smear on his forehead that really annoyed me, I hate when guys wwear makeup too "look rock" or whatever. But HB got a lot of pics and we just need to get them on the computer. She also got to meet the band and get their signatures for buying their CD there. I was happy for her. I think it was a pretty good Bday present, even though she's been fighting with me bout not really wanting to go, she had fun. Yesterday we went out to eat for HB's Bday with some people she works with, it was a pretty good time.

My back is really fucked up, I had to take a percocet this morning and feel like taking another. I'm not sure if it's just from moving or HB and I's run in. After moving it was sore and crap but now my sharp stabbing pains are back, it's always in the same spot. I've been running around all morning and unable to take big breaths I feel like I'm hyperventilating. Still no pics of our place since it is a mess but hopefully we can get our pics sometime soon and will post them when we do. Now I need to try to catch up on everyone elses blogs!

It's Friday!!!!!!!

About fucking time. Everyone is leaving but I have duty so I have to stay which is bullshit. I would normally just take off but I have to wait for the other dumbshit to come in so I can show him what needs to be done Monday and Tuesday since I won't be here and he hasn't really been here this week. I went during lunch to get more paint and other shit. I may just stay there and paint all night, so it's done and over with. I've been tired a shit lately, HB and I are like an old couple going to bed around 930 and shit but we've just been dragging ass!! She's been down and shit and I just don't really know what to do or how to help. Maybe if I finish painting that will be one less thing to bother her. Plus I know my lazy ass, if I don't do it now, it won't get done. Especially when we get cable and internet and I can play my xbox with specy! Mother's Day is Sunday and I didn't get my mom a card, I just figured I'll call. I've been wondering if I should do anything for my ex or HB. I guess I am taking HB to a concert on Sunday, does that count even though I said it was for her Bday? Who knows, who cares. Hb's been down about all the change, I've just kind of been blah. I mean I'm excited about having our own place, and meeting her family, and seeing specy soon, and getting my son but for right now it's blah. I'm trying to run around and get shit done. Picking up shit from my apartment and dropping it off, getting supplies and painting. My body's been sore and I've been lethargic. This is how I can tell HB is my kindred spirt. When one of us feels bad, so does the other, though she always seems to out do me. I have a sore tooth and back pain, she gets a UTI. I get eye problems, she gets pre cancerous lesions. But I don't mind too much not winning the "Ha, my problem is worse than yours" prize. Especially since that prize is just me moaning about my insignificant problems while she sucks up hers and still tries to baby me while I feel like a complete ass. HB is finishing painting the kitchen as I type, it is bright ass red, we will have to take pics. Seriously thought I mean RED it is different, our whole place is gonna be different which is cool but I hate the fact that it's not gonna be ours for ever you know. I guess it's just me being lazy and look at it as hey here's my hard work that's gonna be for nothing in a year you know. But what can I say, it's what she wants and I love her and want to do what I can to make her happy and this is just a little work that I can help with. Well jackass should be getting here soon and I need to smoke before he gets here and pisses me off. Have a great weekend, we should be back on Wednesday, hopefully with some pics of the place and 30 Seconds to Mars. Happy mother's day to all you mothers.

2 more days...!

That's right I have been living out of a duffel bag since November, stopping at my place and grabbing clothes and then staying at HBs. But in 2 more days that will be no more, well for 2 weeks anyway when we take our trip. Yesterday I painted our living room. We picked out our colors on Tuesday, which was more fun than I thought it was gonna be. HB pissed off a deaf person at Home Depot. She asked a question and he asked what because he was deaf and had to read her lips, she laughs when she's nervous and didn't know what to do and he got mad and asked why she was laughing. Then I asked him the question, whatever it was. My aunt is deaf and reads lips, I think sometimes we over do the lip thing but hey that's what I'm used to doing. I kept giving her a hard time asking if she was gonna laugh at my aunt because she can't talk as well as that guy could. She said probably...lol. I was wondering why the guy got so bent out of shape but I guess being in this area he probably gets a lot of shit. But we are still slowly dropping things off at the place, I am going by my place and grabbing some more shit here at lunch and dropping it off after work. We need more paint already, we only got one gallon of each color and it took the whole can to just do the living room, we still got the dining room, hall, and stairs to do in that one. Most the big stuff is going in the living room so we figured that should be the first thing to paint, not much furniture else where so it won't be too hard to move stuff when we get to it. But Saturday is gonna be the furniture and us being moved in!!

I bought a couple of CD's the other day. Tool's 10,000 days, which kicks ass just like Tool always does. I haven't had too much time to devote to listening so far but none of it really jumps out at me like Undertow and AEnima so I was a little disappointed in that sense but it still rocks! I also got Thursday's A City by the Lights Divided which is little softer than I thought it would be but it kicks ass as well. And Flyleaf's Flyleaf I forget how I stumbled over them the other day but I heard the beginning of their first song "I'm so sick" and it reminded me of Kittie and Otep so I had to get it but there isn't as much screaming on the rest of the songs, it's more like Evanescence and I've noticed I've run out of descriptive words so hold on why I consult with my thesaurus...it's transcendent. I just enjoy good music, I may not be able to explain it but hey I dig all 3 of them, That's all that matters. Look them up and maybe you will too and if your better at describing them, let me know what you think. Thank god tomorrow is Friday!!!!!!!

Music vids

I discovered a new website yesterday www.punkrockvids.com it has awesome videos like Silverstein "Smile in your Sleep" This doesn't capture all the energy of the show but if you watch close it shows how they don't care so much about people jumping on and off the stage and even shows a guy hit the stage head first. The quality isn't great but still I can't wait to see them again for the 4th time!

I actually stumbled on the site by looking up Chiodos and seeing they had a video there for "There's no penguins in Alaska" and after seeing that video I definately want to see them live! They play next Friday in Fredericksburg, VA with Between The Buried and Me, Giant, August Burns Red. I kind of want to go. I need to get as many concerts as I can in. But it's gonna suck going by myself.

They have quite a bit of live music but unfortuantly most are quicktime and I only have WMP on my computer here and can't get fucking QT on this fucking computer!

Well HB has been stuck with me for 200 days now. I think she won a new toaster or something for it. It is quite a feat. We are allowed to start moving our stuff into our new place so I'm gonna go during lunch to get some clothes and shit and maybe dishes. Everyday this week we should be dropping off carloads so that we can get the furniture this saturday and not have too much other shit to get and organize.

WATCH THE VIDEOS!!

I am weird

I have always been well aware that I am weird, but today it struck me in a different sense. I took my uniform home Friday and grabbed a new one when I was at my place, threw it in the car. Last night around 11 while I laid in bed trying to go to sleep I remembered it was still in a ball in a bag in my car. I was too lazy to go get it so this morning I woke up threw on clothes and ran out to get it. I gave it a quick as hell ironing job and was disappointed in the results but was strapped on time. Now I sit here in my uniform with little wrinkles and creases out of place that are driving me insane...me the same guy who could be going to a nice restraunt and grab a stained pair of clothes in a ball on the floor and go. But I am different in my uniform. It really pisses me off seeing people jacked up in uniform. When their hair is out of regulation or uniform looks like shit. Though when in civilian clothes I couldn't give 2 shits what my clothes look like. I don't really understand it. I guess it's just because I secretly do like looking good once in a while and my uniform is my chance to look professional or some shit, who knows. I had a good weekend. Friday I drove 3 fucking hous up north of Bmore to my buds bday party. I thought I was being slick by printing directions that avoided the major highways that I knew would be backed up during rush hour. Well my way took me on a long ass drive staight through the slums of Bmore. I am not easily scared but I turned down my stereo because of my speakers and got out my knife, opened it and sat it under my leg waiting for someone to come up and try to reach through my window. Yeah I could have simply rolled them up like everyone else but it was nice outside and I will not change my routine because there may be a chance of bitches fucking me over. Fuck them. But I arrived safely and consumed a shit ton of beer and passed out on his couch. Just like old times. Returned home to HB so she could go out Saturday night with the girls. Sunday we just vegged out and talked a bit. I love how we can just talk. I mean about anything and everything. Talked to Specy Saturday night and then HB and I talked to him yesterday because she felt the need to call and inform him that while I was talking to him the night before I was taking a dump. She thought it was odd though I knew he wouldn't care. We should be getting the key to our new place today after work. Move our shit this weekend!! I need to pack up all my shit sill, I threw some clothes in garbage bags on friday but I need to gather my dishes and shit I didn't even think of. I will probably do that this week sometime. We have quite a few little boxes in our dungeon that I didn't even think of. I'll grab them for dishes and shit it should be great. Well I suppose should get to doing something. Tomorrow I will hunt some more boxes for HB my co-worker just said that I should be able to find a bunch downstairs so I may grab them and hide them in the dungeon. I now have a mission. Happy Monday!

Music Shit

The other day a buddy offered me tix to see Blue October in Bmore, I denied because I didn't know who they were plus it was a weekday. Now I heard their song "Hate me" and kind of regret it, I like that song but watching the video I hate when guys wear eye make up, that's just gay!

HB bought some CDs yesterday I listened to a couple songs off Matchbook Romance "Voices" I only listened to the first couple songs but I am confused about it. It reminds me of Robert Smith, of the Cure, singing on Metallica's Black album. The music is great rock but the singing in my opinion sucks for that type of music. The song is fast and rocking and then the singing is soft and slow. He startes to pick it up a bit and sound like he is gonna wail but then nothing. Maybe the rest of the CD gets better but I was disappointed, I thought that I heard them before and liked them.

She got Desden Dolls because I've mentioned them before. I thought about picking it up before but it is just very weird, it kind of scares me. Haven't got a chance to listen to it yet. She also got Aqualung, the only sone I know is "Brighter than Sunshine" I like it.

DC101 has a shitload of Sonic Youth video's HERE is 100%, if you scroll the top to "S" you can see all the rest. They are really old, like 50 now. But Pixies still rocked for being that old. I need to start listening to the Cd canowine made of what he thought was their best songs.

I need to pick up Tool, Thursday, and possible Pearl Jam's new albums that came out Tuesday. Maybe I'll do that after work. If anyone has listened to any of them let me know what you think. Well I'm outta here. Have a good weekend all. Be safe and don't do anything that I WOULD do.

Sonic Youth!!!!!

I need to make plans for a babysitter. I saw Sonic Youth is playing the 930 club and had to get 2 tix. Problem is it's Thursday June 15th, I think HB has to go to work the next day and I'll need to find someone to watch my boy on a week night. Is 5 to young to stay at home by yourself, even if he's asleep. I'm kidding I will fid somthing. SONIC YOUTH!!!

THEY always pick on me

You know "they", being everyone who can. So I went to my eye appointment yesterday, my vision is 20/20 in one eye and 25/20 in the other. But he yelled at me, he asked how many times a day I've been putting in my eye drops. I lied and said twice a day, he said I needed to put them in 4 times a day and artificial tears 4-6. Apparently my eyes are starting to look scarred which is bad. I'm not sure and he didn't explain how bad, but I think if they scar I am going to go blind and die a couple days after. So I yelled at HB to make sure I put them in. He said I'll be doing this for a couple months. I haven't put them in in at least a week or so. I can see great, they didn't hurt, I thought I was all clear but I was wrong like usual.

I left work here early yesterday, about 12, I did a bunch of work so I figured I deserved it. When I got out to my car there was a ticket on it. I park in patient parking because staff is far away. How do they know I'm not a patient, just becasue my car has hospital stickers, maybe it's my wifes car and she has an appointment while I am working. But of course this isn't the case so I can't go argue that. I think it was one of the fat cops I made run the other day, he found my car and ticketed it. So that's another $50 out the window, my second in about a month, not to mention my speeding ticket. Fucking cops are always after me. They left me alone for a while so I didn't know it was a conspiracy but now they are back. I thought about fighting the system and keep parking in my spot but then decided that I didn't want to keep giving them my money that I could use on Cds or movies. I can't wait 250 days until I am a civilian and don't have to work here anymore!!!! Hopefully I will have enough leave to stop working around November! 2 full incomes for 2 months and only working one job! Merry fucking Christmas indeed if it works that way. I have it planned already, my hospital badge is good until 2008 so I can still get on base. I can wake up with HB and go to work and then leave after I get enough hours in and come to base and go to the gym, since I alway claim I don't have time, I will then.

Yesterday HB bought our tickets to Texas, "they" only screwed us on taxes and shit. But I called and reserved a Uhaul for moving next weekend, they only had a 10ft truck which I believe with my expert tetris skills I can fit all our big shit into, but I can't pick it up until after 4 on saturday which sucks because I wanted to get everything loaded up as early as possible so I can rest and shit, then unpack on Sunday. I have a friend coming down from north of baltimore on Saturday because the hard part is gonna be getting my shit out the window and HBs down 3 flights of stairs. But getting the stuff in the new place shouldn't be too bad. I'm excited. Then after unpacking the big shit we can go see 30 Seconds to Mars Sunday night for HBs Bday present up in Bmore. And unpack everything else Monday and Tuesday since we took off.

Thank god that tomrrow is Friday, I will be heading north of Bmore to that friend I mentioned house for his Bday, I haven't seen him in a couple months. I may have to get drunk as shit. He was one of the ones that went to the strip club with me in San Antonio for my Bday 2 years ago and bought me lap dances and I got to go on stage and everything. Good times except getting my sack hit by my belt. I'd like to do the same for him but I don't think his wife would like it...lol. Well in case I don't post tomorrow, everyone have a good weekend. Try not to get "them" hold you down. Fight the man!!!!!!

Surrounded by Cops....again

That's right I've mangaed to get surrounded by cops for I think the third time in a little over a year. This time at work of all places and thankfully not really at fault or in trouble. So here's the thing, we have a little room that we share with Radiation Safety, it has quite a bit of radioactive shit in it. Well there was talks of an alarm getting put on it and blah blah blah but we are authorized to go in. I had to go in to check on our shit. The phone rang when I went in, I didn't answer it because no one calls us there, well it rang again. Still didn't answer it. Heard car outside door. I was finished and walked out. Cop car was there, told me not to move, 2 more fat ass cops ran around the corner, it was funny one was fucking huge and out of breath. They asked what I was doing, I told them, they asked how I got in, I told them I had the code, they told me to read the sign about calling Rad safety, I told them I didn't have to. They asked if I went through that door, I said yes it's the only door(wanted to say no I walked through a concrete wall). They called everyone and verified that I was allowed and said to call them next time. Now here's the kicker I walked the couple of feet outside to smoke and there was a helicopter overhead!! That is a new feat that I don't think I can top and get away with. I told my officer in charge that I wanted to keep not calling because it was funny watching them run but he said that I'd get in trouble. There was only 3 cops and one car, but a helicopter! See my DUI there was like 5 cop cars and probably the same cops maybe a couple more, with Chris there was about 5 cars from county, state, and sheriffs. Next time I guess I need FBI or ATF! That could be fun. But that was my exciement for this afternoon. Hope everyone else can have that much excitment and not get in trouble. Well I guess I should do some work and planning for the next time!

TMI...Perhaps

Great weekend. Let's see, Friday I went to my other job and when I got home HB put Gabe to bed and went to a slumber party, it must be the season since Sandy just went to one the other day too. She came back late with a few things that shant be mentioned. Then we went to bed. Saturday we watched a couple movies in the morning and Gabe was excited about going to CHucky Cheeses but we said he had to take a nap first so he wanted to go to bed. He actually slept for like 3 and a half or so hours during which time HB and I participated in around 3 hours of love making which was the greatest I've experienced to date. And it was also the greatest workout I have ever had including in bootcamp where we had to exercise until we formed condensation on the ceiling. Every part of my body was sore. But yeah I know you guys didn't want to hear it but I just had to mention it, thats why it says TMI. But we went to chucky's and it wasn't bad, the pizza was way over priced and there were quite a few ghetto people there but the kids had fun running around and stuff so it was cool. Sunday was all about chillin, we watch Aeon Flux which I liked but it didn't match up with the cartoon, but then it made the cartoon make more sense. I am still not too sure if I liked it or not. I like the story line but it wasn't quite as weird as the cartoon. Though it did have some awesome outfits that I want to get for HB if I could find them anywhere. But yeah that was my weekend in a nutshell. Now this morning kind of sucked. I had to get up early and HB got to sleep in a bit. So I got up did my morning thing and then went back to bed to lay down for a while before I had to leave. Crawling into bed, her body was so warm, it felt so good. It was kind of like a chilly summer night and how good a fire feels warming your skin. So warm and felt so good. But then when I tried to get up she half asleep rolled over and grabbed me and tried not to let me go. She gripped my arm tightly as I tried to leave for work. I was so close to just crawling back into bed and saying fuck work. I really wish I would have. I await the day when I am out and can go to my other job whenever I please. I can crawl back into bed and wait to go in until she is up. I can stay in bed forever. I talked to Chris he should be in a couple days after I move, what a dick, I helped him move 4 times and he can't come in a couple days earlier. But fuck him, I can do it on my own, ok maybe not but I will have someone help me lift the heavy shit. Well I guess I need to start doing something here. Hope everyone had a good weekend and has a decent Monday.