Another boring weekend

Yeah Happy Halloween, usually my favorite holiday filled with drunken partys and people in stupid costumes but not this year. I wasn't invited to any but I really don't give a shit. Saturday I helped Chris move and yesterday I just kind of laid around most of the day then went to a bar with me friend Nate to see his friends band Dbauchery They sounded really good, but went on pretty late so I could only stay for a couple songs and then had to go to bed. We had some beers and he whipped my ass at pool. I won one because he scratched on the 8 ball but that was it. But yeah really boring weekend filled with talking to HB a couple times and shitloads of text messages to her, it's a little easier because she can get to it whenever so it doesn't take time away from her family and her son. But the talks have been going really good. We've been trying to figure out how often I can see her and all that good stuff so we don't tramatize her kid. But it's pretty much a waiting game until she gets back Thursday and then we'll just go from there. But yeah, boring shit. Thursday is also UnderOath concert! So hopefully this weekend will be a little more exciting.

Happy Friday's random thoughts and Useless facts

So it's Friday. We had a little awards breakfast this morning that Uncle Tom kept getting awards, which I think is proof that he really is superman. Keoki was kind of mad that I put a pic of him up yesterday but then laughed when he saw it so I think it's ok. So what's my plans for this weekend? Not much I am seriously cutting down on drinking. Granted I have done this before but only for short times but I have a better reason this time. When HB comes back she's gonna have her son and the last thing she'll need is a drunk hanging around. I've been trying for a while but lacked the discipline or reason to quit I mean yeah I felt like shit alot but hey that's how I felt emotionally why not actually make my body feel that way too, right. Last night I was bored as shit and was really close to making a drink and playing some Halo but instead I picked up my weights that I have barely lifted since I got them. I figured and mix this up with trying to play my guitar again since that has also fallen by the wasteside to me getting drunk instead. I lose ambition on things way to easy. But on a good well actually GREAT note a friend at work is moving and said she can't fit her old furnature in her new apartment and said she'll give me it for free. I will find a way to get this shit in my apartment, it is really nice. Huge entertainment stand, couch, 2 chairs. Chris is leaving his computer desk, all I'll have to buy is a bed and I am set! I am excited. I am helping him move his stuff out this weekend and am hoping to pick that up and drop it off. The landlord wanted me to wait a week or so to move in so he can clean up a bit. But I wanna move in now, get the hell out of the barracks and have a stove and a full size fridge/freezer. I am stocking that shit up!! But besides all that just trying to keep my sanity, bored as hell at both jobs, so here's some Useless shit:

Washington State has the longest single beach in the United States. Long Beach, WA.

The largest living thing on the face of the Earth is a mushroom underground in Oregon, it measures three and a half miles in diameter.

The town of Los Angeles, California, was originally named El Pueblo la Nuestra Senora de Reina de los Angeles de la Porciuncula.

9 out of 10 people believe Thomas Edison invented the light bulb. This isn’t true; Joseph Swan did.

Honey is the only food that does not spoil. Honey found in the tombs of Egyptian pharaohs has been tasted by archaeologists and found edible.

The Population of the world can live within the state boundaries of Texas.

Studies show that couples that smoke during the time of conception have a higher chance of having a girl compared to couples that do not smoke. (Bullshit, I got a boy)

On May 9, 1999 approximately 600,000 gallons of whiskey flowed into the Kentucky River during a fire at Wild Turkey Distillery in Lawrenceburg. (sounds like heavan!)

Charlie Chaplin once lost a contest for a Charlie Chaplin look a like.

The longest engagement lasted 67 years, and the couple ended up marrying when they were 82 years old.

A leech has 32 brains.

Alaska is the western-most AND eastern-most state of the United States. It's islands stretch so far they actually cross the 180th meridian - the global dividing line between "east" and "west".

The Melvins pics finally

The pit, hard to get all the action


the Melvins wore these the whole set with Jello Biafra


Jello Biafra used to be lead singer of Dead Kennedys


Closeup of Kevin


Melvins


Haram

HNT

Since I am at work and not sure if I will remember to take a pic of myself here is Kieoki and Uncle Tom dressed up today and Tom's ass in tights. I think he has been working out, damn it's hot...lol!!! He made me censor it so people couldn't see his man camel toe.

Jello Biafra and The Melvins

Hey guess what I'm tired. Yesterday I went to the new AA place and it seemed crackhead free. Most of the people there were old yuppies. I think I would rather deal with them than crackies. But it was ok, almost put me to sleep. I left work yesterday and took a nice ass nap til 5 when I woke up to go to counseling. We talked about nutrition which was good because I was starving. Boring shit, I went and picked up Uncle Tom for our concert. We got there right when the doors opened. I didn't wear my boots because I didn't think there would be too many people there, hell I kept my hat on which I usually never do for fear of losing it. So we go in and get beers and the fucking pinball machines were occupied. So we just kind of sat and waited til one opened, then played a little. He kicked my ass like always, I think he cheats somehow. We go upstairs and I got a t-shirt and stickers, more beer.

Haram took the stage and sounded really good. I knew this was going to be a good show. They sounded really good and is supposedly from the DC area but can't really find anything of them online. He even used a beer bottle as a slide and for distortion effects, I wanted a pic but he had his back to me. There were a bunch of little kids up front trying to "mosh" it was funny, a couple even tried to crown surf.

Next was The Melvins, first out was Kevin Rutamanis on bass in a dress with pink hearts and some sound effect thing that went on for probably 20 minutes of screeching noise. Then King Buzzo came out wearing a camoflauged almost mumu(he was pretty big) and rocking a huge frizzy afro. They did probably 30 or so minutes of just sounds and guitars, it was a pretty rocking instrumental. They did some songs and the moshing got harder and harder and the little kids moved further back and were replaced with slightly older and larger guys. The pit spread over to where we were. I got to see Tom get pissed and start shoving people, we were on the edge and just shoved people who ran into us. It was awesome I just kept making my devil horns and yelling "PUNK ROCK!" to him. Then Buzzo and Kevin put on ski masks and a fat old guy came out.

Now I should have actually done research on this shit before we went. This fat old guy was Jello Biafra Now you are probably like me saying who the fuck. Well it wasn't til this morning that I found out who he really was. He was the lead singer for the Dead Kennedys. SO he did a lot of talking about polotics and the war and everything else in between songs. The crowd is absolutly nuts by now and I notice the pit is now full of really big bald headed white guys, who I assume are white supremisists, the black guys that were around us have disappeared. It seemed that after every song Jello lost an article of clothing. He came out wearing a robe and took it off, them had a confederate flag shirt and took it off, and was down to a tshirt. He jumped out into the crowd a couple times and crowd surfed. But it was definatly an interesting show. I tried to watch his little mimeings(things mime's do) but kept having to watch the pit. I had some little chick in front of me jumping aound and flailing and pissing me off, I looked at Tom and pretended that I was going to hit her and she punched me in the chin so I shoved her into the pit, where she fell on her ass. I felt bad afterwards but if she wanted to do that shit she needed to do it in the pit damnit. Finally towards the end I told Tom we needed another beer so we got one and hung out towards the back. Thankfully we did because he took off his tshirt to show off his fat sweaty gut and rung the sweat out of his shirt onto himself. And then jumped out to surf while singing. It woul;d have been scary, like the scene in Along Came Polly, the sweaty guy rubbing his chest against your face...(shudder)ewwwww! There were quite a few wierdos there. Then we went to the pizza place and I don't think anything in the world tasted better! I am hungry now, I want another huge ass slice of peperoni and mushrooms....mmmmmmmmm. I will try to post the pics tonight if they came out. I finally got to sleep about 130am and didn't wanna get up this morning. But Happy Humpday.

Busy day

SO still sick, damnit! It's been like a week, I probably should go to the clinic and get some drugs but maybe I'll just try some theraflu like martini suggested. I've never tried it, Dayquil helps in short term. Last night I went over to HB's place to say goodbye and she owed me a back massage, which was good, I almost fell asleep. It's cool, she's almost as goofy as me, a little wierd but in a good way. But she is now probably bording a plane, I was going to take her to the airport but another friend already took off work to and I wanted to pick her up when she gets back but unfortunatly that will be on the 3rd and during the UnderOath concert. So unless completely necessary I won't be picking her up either. Which I feel really bad about but she didn't ask me to, I was just gonna offer til I found out when it was. Oh well. So today I am going to try to go to a new AA place during lunch so I don't have to go to the crazy one after work. Then I can take a nap and eat after work until my counseling. I have to drive like a maniac after my counseling to go pick up Uncle Tom to go to the Black Cat to see The Melvins. I actually don't know too much about the Melvins. I really only heard about them by reading about Kurt Cobain. He used to be a huge fan/roadie for them before Nirvana. And I figured if he loved them I would too, I heard a couple songs and they sounded good, so we'll see. I don't think there can be a bad concert there anyway. Me and Tom go in get a couple beers, play some pinball while the bands set up and shit, go up stairs chill and watch, then after wards theres an awesome place like 3 doors down with huge slices of pizza(the perfect after concert beer food). It's just the best and then of course we both have to come in tomorrow so that's another reason I need a nap after work. I didn't get much sleep last night and I probably won't tonight, I am sick and supposed to be sleeping all the time but since I've been sick it seems I have been sleeping less, WTF? Oh well, still gotta have fun right.

Sickly Weekend

Yeah So I have been pretty fucking sick all weekend. But that didn't stop me from having a pretty good time. Our field trip Friday would have been extremely boring but actually turned out pretty fun. I have debated with myself whether or not to post about it because shit always changes so fast in my life that this could be gone as soon as it came but fuck it. So Friday we got off the bus and had our own little smoke crew light up and the has been a hottie thats been here a little while I'll call her HB(hot brownie(Uncle Tom likes to call latinas brownies)). But she bums a smoke off me and everyone breaks off to go into groups and split amonst the ship and museum. Since everyone was gone our smoking group went to the ship together. The was 5 or 6 of us including 2 guys who are kind of dicks, you know the "het hottie, I'm the shit" guys. But she kind of ignored them and we talked a bit. We then proceded over to the museum where we talked a little more, sat and watched part of a cheesy black and white movie that I said was our first date, and then there was another one so that was our second date. Talking we have alot in common. She has a 2 year old and will be offically divorced on Wednesday. It was kind of scary how much we had in common. She is/was convinced I am a closet psyco, because thats been the kind of people she has been attracting lately. I warned her that I was really wierd but not really a psyco. Though she did get a little scared when I told her I had a few daggers and used to start fires, but hey I'm an honest person...lol. But we sat together on the bus ride back and I finally worked up some courage to ask her what she was doing and if she wanted to see a movie. She just kind of giggled and then the bus stopped to let her group(she kind of works in a different building) off so she left without an answer. SO I figured that yeah it was just like normal, I suck. But Decided to send an email and ask why I didn't get an answer. A little while later she said yes. She is sick too, so I figured 2 sick people hanging out wouldn't be too bad. SO we had dinner and then just sat and talked for hours. It was really nice. The only problem is she is on leave this week to go back home and actually bring her son up here to live with her now that she is settled. And I know that they'll need alot of bonding time since she hasn't seen him for a while and he's gonna need to get used to living here. But we'll see what happens when she gets back.

Buddy Nielsen from Senses Fail, all my pics look like this but worse and generally far away. My camera must have been on a bad setting. 

Mike Glita from Senses Fail, the only good pic my camera fucking took
 

Senses Fail kicked ass!

Yeah so this morning I had to get up after 4 and a half hours of sleep and put on the most uncomfortable uniform the navy has (the working blues) it has a tie and I hate ties with a passion. My throat is killing me from smoking like a chimney, my cold, and screaming my lungs out last night. First up was a band called Emanuel who wasn't on the list, it was supposed to be Say Anything. But they kicked some ass. I was gonna buy the CD but after Senses Fail I was too tired and sweaty and dehydrated to go buy it. The lead singer kept doing this skinny white boy dance which I found filarious because the kind of music he was screaming could only be headbangged or moshed to.

Next band was Early November who all of you would probably like, a little rock/pop. I saw them before with Hawthorne Heights, but I was really fucked up for that show so I kind of forgot. They were decent and we kept screaming like little girls to make fun of all the little kids trying to rock out and even starting mosh pits and crowd surfing. Neither of which should be done while seeing this band.

Then we had Saves the Day Who was pretty good as well. Around this point we were a little tipsy and my "spot" at the bar in this place is right next to the free water so we start handing out water to all these little kids that were coming out of the "pit" and since Chris has been making me stop damning god and jesus because he is currently driving 10 hours to Mississippi to return a friends dog and didn't want a repeat of UnderOath, I am telling everyone that Jesus loves them. Well Ok screaming that Jesus loves them and everyone else. But Kevin, another guy that went with us, wanted to crowd surf. So this music was ok to crowd surf to, not really to mosh to but whatever so I take him into the crowd and throw him up, by time I got back to Chris at the bar he had been dropped but got back up and rode to the stage. He enjoyed it. The had a shirt that I wanted, but it was a girls tanktop and probably wouldn't look too sexy on me, it said "I(heart)my STD" but undernieth said "Saves the Day" I(heart) my STDs or lack of, whatever.

Then it was time for the main event, SENSES motherfuckin FAIL We get all 3 of us in a good position pretty close to the stage, which by the end we had one row between us and the stage. Now this is a talent that I have mastered through my concert experience that is quite hard for 3 pretty tall guys. But I get us up there. They kicked ass, sung all my favorite songs and put on just a great show. We didn't start any mosh pits this time though we tried but were to close to the stage for anyone to join in. I was pushing back to try to stop squishing this 4ft something girl in front of me and this kid kept shoving me up. Chris saw me getting irritated and I threw an elbow and caught this kid above the eye. He backed off, Chris watched him to make sure he didn't do shit. After the song he told me to watch the elbows, I told him to watch my kidneys they are kind of sensative. It was funny. Next on the menu is UnderOath again on November 3, unless I can talk Uncle Tom into going to see The Melvins on Tuesday. We'll see how that works out. I'm off to my field trip, yay, IT'S FRIDAY!

Mama Taught me...

So I don't have much to say today, my cold is kicking my ass, though it's getting better now. I sat here this morning with my eyes watering and snot flowing like a hose. Did you know that on average most humans swallow about a quart of snot daily, well I think I swallowed a gallon today. Yummy. Oh well, Senses Fail is tonight, I got my camera(with memory card) so hopefully I will have some good pics tomorrow. I can't drink too much because I really have to be at work on time tomorrow for our field trip to some Navy museum. My aunt sent me this email the other day and I thought it was funny and reminded me of Matini's mama saying "someday you'll see" post the other day, these are things that I'm sure everyones mama told them at least once.

My Mom taught me TO APPRECIATE A JOB WELL DONE.
"If you're going to kill each other, do it outside. I just finished cleaning!"

My Mom taught me about INDIVIDUALISM.
"I bet if all your friends jumped off a bridge, you would too!

My Mom taught me RELIGION.
"You better pray that stain will come out of the carpet."

My Mom taught me about BEHAVIOR MODIFICATION.
"Stop acting like your father!"

My Mom taught me about TIME TRAVEL.
"If you don't straighten up, I'm going to knock you into the middle of next week!"

My Mom taught me LOGIC.
"Because I said so, that's why."

My Mom taught me FORESIGHT.
"Make sure you wear clean underwear, in case you're in an accident."

My Mom taught me about HYPOCRISY.
"If I've told you once, I've told you a million times - Don't exaggerate!!!"

My Mom taught me IRONY.
"Keep crying and I'll *give* you something to cry about!"

My Mom taught me THE CIRCLE OF LIFE.
"I brought you into this world, and I can take you out."

My Mom taught me about the science of OSMOSIS.
"Shut your mouth and eat your supper!"

My Mom taught me about CONTORTIONISM.
"Will you *look* at the dirt on the back of your neck!"

My Mom taught me about ENVY.
"There are millions of less fortunate children in this world who don't have wonderful parents like you do!"

My Mom taught me about STAMINA.
"You'll sit there until all that spinach is finished."

My Mom taught me how to solve PHYSICS PROBLEMS.
"If I yelled because I saw a meteor coming toward you; would you listen then?"

My Mom taught me about WEATHER.
"It looks like a tornado swept through your room!"

Killing Yourself To Live

Ok so I finally finished Killing Yourself to Live : 85% of a True Story by Spin magazines Chuck Klosterman. And I loved it, I swear this will be the last time I talk about this book. But next Time I am at Borders I am going to pick up Sex, Drugs, and Cocoa Puffs : A Low Culture Manifesto by good ole Chuck. I just really dig the narrative story line where he has to kind of jump one place to explain shit and then jump back to where he was. But he goes around the country to visit places where famous rock stars died. He talks about his life and love and a ton of useless information about rock stars. Now this awe-inspiring roadtrip wasn't to write a book about, it was origanlly for an article but he seems to have kept a journal and at the end tells his editor that after he writes the article that he is thinking about expanding it into a book. She pleas with him not to because he'd be making an ass out of himself and she say idiot bloggers will write things like "Ultimately, the author should have listened to his friend Lucy Chance." Well if Chuck ever stumbles on my blog, I am glad you wrote it Chuck. Everyone needs to go get this book, though I know the few people who do read my site never actually take my advice and probably nevere even click the links I give.

Chris would also like to openly admit he is gay and is madly in love with me!

AA & CT

SO I went to AA yesterday and it wasn't as bad as last time, the homeless kid wan't there. I talked to some of the former crackheads and they were ok. I went to my counseling that was stupid as shit. We watched a video about HIV/AIDS that had such famous faces as Majic Johnson, Arsenio Hall, Pauly Shore, Blossom, Urkel, and other stupid stars from the 80s. It was a waste of my time. I need to find some haunted houses to go to in the area. I used to love going to them. We used to get fucked up (usually trippin balls) and go to them back home. It was awesome. I think it'll be almost as fun to get a group of friends and get drunk and go. I feel like shit and don't want to be here. I am tired, hungry, sore, and getting a cold. I was gonna bitch about something but I forgot. So last night I converted another person into the blogosphere. I'd like everyone to check out Miss Understood and welcome her. and while your at it go yell at Uncle Tom for starting a blog and never posting even though I yell at him like once a week to blog. If he'd just bitch about shit there I wouldn't have to listen to it all the time. He should rename it "Disgruntled Ramblings"! But I hope everyone else has a Happy Humpday.

I'm still fucking tired

Really I am. SO Sunday night I was hanging out with a friend and didn't get home until 4am Monday, so I got to take a short nap before I came into work where I continued to drag ass. Then went to my other job where I fought to stay awake by doing the unthinkable...working. During the process I busted the shit out of my knuckle and it bled like I hit an artery, not really the squirting but a nice steady flow that seemed to never end. By time I got to a bandaid it looked like I was wearing lipstick from me sucking on my wound. Yes I am a vampire and like the taste of blood, I prefer my own because I know where it's been but am willing to try others. But that's off topic. So I go home eat and try to watch Stewie's untold story which was filarious, at least until I fell asleep half way through and kind of woke up at the end. Good thing I woke up because I can't go to bed before 9, or I have to wake up sometime to call and see if I have to take a piss test. God that still pisses me off. So today I have to take my PRT(physical readiness test) which includes me running a mile and a half under 13 minutes, doing at least 50 pushups and situps. I have been training by smoking a little over a pack a day and drinking Beam as always. But though I extremely hate doing the PRT taking it today is bad, cuz it's CT and that means if I take it at noon I can't go to the noon AA at the new place I wanted to try, I'll have to go to the 4 at the same one from last week and deal with the crazys. So I am really not looking foreward to today. But on a plus note I will be going to see Senses Fail Thursday, though I will have to get up early on Friday to come to work and go tour the Navy museum or some shit.

Update: Finished my PRT did 46 pushups(luckily I only had to do 43), 75 situps and ran in 11:19. PS. DO NOT trim yourselves before you run, it feels like someone took a cheese grater to me then set my balls on fire. Your all welcome for the visual.

But I leave you with some:

Senses Fail-"Let It Enfold You"

So the lie now is my weapon
Like a bush dried withered in the sun
With this spark I'll go up in flames.
I'd lay my guts out but they're too small to see
It's kinda cute how I pretend to be
Everything but the instrument I am.

Peace or happiness
So let it enfold you

A birth to life is what I'm after
My first name won't be my last one
Let the light just drip into your eyes.

So it's true my words are contrived
I tell lies just to get into your mind
I'm as fake as a widow's smile.
This mask of glass is what I choose to wear
So I won't ever have the need to bear
The total truth to anyone but me.

Peace or happiness
So let it enfold you

I'm just a bad actor stuck with a shitty script
All of my lines are cheap and the cast is weak
There was no music for the first time I got kissed
There was no femme fatal, my mistress wasn't rich.
So I've been formatted to fit your TV screen
The film went straight to tape, I'll bow out quietly.
So quietly. So quietly.

Please do this now I beg
Duct tape my arms and legs
Throw me into the sea
(Please save me, please save me)

Now watch the waves eat me
Setting my cold heart free
I'll wash ashore in weeks
(You can't save me, can't save me)

Now watch the waves eat me
Setting my cold heart free
I'll wash ashore in weeks
(You can't save me, you can't save me now)

More Useless Facts

The largest number of children born to one woman, who was a Russian peasant is 69.

The projection light used for IMAX theaters can be seen from space.

Someone gets divorced every ten to thirteen seconds.

African Baobab tree's circumference can reach 180 feet. If the trunk is hollow, 20 people would be able to fit inside of it.

Hockey pucks were originally made from frozen cow dung.

A Singapore singing group by the name of "The Oriental Singers," sang non-stop for 74 hours and five minutes.

The University of Plymouth was the first university to offer a degree in surfing.

In 1989, twenty-three people were hired in Jacksonville Florida just to flush toilets so the pipes would not freeze.

The largest ketchup bottle is a 170 feet (52 m) tall water tower.

Bamboo plants can grow up to 36 inches in a day.

There are mirrors on the moon. Astronauts left them so that laser beams could be bounced off of them from Earth. These beams help give us the distance to the moon, give or take a few metres.

Daytime dramas are called Soap Operas because they were originally used to advertise soap powder. In America in the early days of TV, advertisers would write stories around the use of their soap powder.

The best time for a person to buy shoes is in the afternoon. This is because the foot tends to swell a bit around this time.

Gardening is said to be one of the best exercises for maintaining healthy bones.

At age 47, the Rolling Stones' bassist, Bill Wyman, began a relationship with 13-year old Mandy Smith, with her mother's blessing. Six years later, they were married, but the marriage only lasted a year. Not long after, Bill's 30-year-old son Stephen married Mandy's mother, age 46. That made Stephen a stepfather to his former stepmother. If Bill and Mandy had remained married, Stephen would have been his father's father-in-law and his own grandpa.

Dark Side of The Moon (a Pink Floyd album) stayed on the top 200 Billboard charts for 741 weeks! That is 14 years.

HNT

Uncle Tom gave me these at work today and requested that I wear them for this weeks Half naked Thurday. I almost forgot it was Thursday but then he said I should only wear these and my boxers. So now I am a little freaked out why Uncle Tom wants to see me not wearing any pants, but since he is my friend I will amuse him by wearing the nipple thingies that I have no clue where he found or why he gave them to me. But pants are staying on.

WARNING: THIS MAY GIVE YOU NIGHTMARES!

Happy Birthday Navy

That's right today is the Navy's birthday, so I think that gives me, hell everyone, a reason to drink and celebrate tonight. Today marks the day that Congress established the Continental Navy in 1775 which makes us 230 years old. We are the second oldest service, behind the army. Our few ships were originally under George Washington's army before Congress made us our own branch. We usually have a nice little cake cutting ceremony, the Navy is all about tradition, and tradition is that the oldest and youngest at the command cut the cake. And of course for the third staight year, I am the youngest. I am not the most jounior(lowest ranking) anymore but still at 23, the closest in the Navy is 25. So as usual I was voluntold that I had to. I don't like being told to do things, so I was bitter. But the cake was really good. Tomorrow we have this thing, a Combat dinning in, we get free food and beer. It's again mandatory fun, so people aren't really looking forward to it. But that's because we(me and few friends) don't like too many people here, but free beer. I can get drunk and piss the higher ups off because they watch everytime I get a beer and give me a dirty look, but hey I can walk back to the barracks so HA! Fuckers, I really hate them but thats another story. I am doing the color guard thing for it, I finally get to be National flag again so that should be fun, well if Uncle Tom were in it, Chris is in it. Fuckin Uncle Tom(I know your reading)...lol. Oh well Everyone drink up and celebrate 230 years of drunken sailing!

Tagged, well sort of...

So Martini didn't actually tag me, but said "RC666- That is why I cheated my 23rd was lame.. so you should just cheat and do it anyways come on!! Okay you don't have to but if you get bored it is quite fun to look back!" Now I guess it is supposed to be your 23 post and 5th line. Well THIS was my 23rd post,
My 5th line is: "Which Historical Lunatic Are You?" so that is boring.

So I will go to my 24th post kind of about the upcoming Valentines day back earlier this year. I will read the 5th sentence from the Washington Post article, since my writing just explains it.

"Kind, intelligent, loving and hot;
Is everything that you are not."

I can be kind, intelligent, loving when I want to be, but it usually isn't me so I guess it kind of fits me well. And hot is out of the question, I can clean up pretty nice when I want to again but yeah not so much. I am not going to tag anyone because I don't seem to have many readers. On a plus note people have stopped finding my site from google images for T1la T3quila(spelled wrong to keep those fuckers from coming) My hits went down from 100-150 a day back to 20-40. Thank GOD! Happy Humpday!

CT (counseling Tuesday) and AA

So I attempted to go to an AA meeting during lunch today, and as usual the sheet they gave me was wrong. The address that I went to didn't even exist anymore. SO I was pissed as shit that I wasted my time and was throwing a fit saying that they better not give me any shit at my counseling about me not going to AA, I attempted to 3 times now and their sheet was wrong. But I took some initiative and found another one that had a 4pm meeting, so I could go to that and then to my counseling at 6. I need to find a different one, I knew this shit wasn't going to be happy but I felt really bad and uncomfortable there. One kid, couldn't have been 18, was homeless and sleeping on benches, almost everyone there was also a crack addict, they ended it with a prayer. Truthfully the prayer set me over the edge. When they were talking I felt really bad and shit, some of the crackheads freaked me out, but the holding hands and prayer was the one that kind of made me realize I really couldn't keep going to that one. The one I tried to go to at lunch moved to a different place, I think I am going to try to check it out tomorrow.

CT(I am getting tired of typing counseling so it is CT from now on) was ok. Last week we had a sub counselor or some shit that was cool. This one was ok, but talking about the shit he gave reasons that people drink, and they totally outweighed the consequenses. Though we did watch another 70s movie lecture. I learned about THIQ, please take the time to read THIS STUDY It is really fucking interesting. THIQ is kind of an opiate, similar to heroine, that is found in the brain of alcoholics. OK my last piss test, I drank quite a bit the night before and the opiate part almost came up hot, it barely had a line. I was wondering how this was, I know I didn't do any opium or any shit like that. Well now this makes since, my dad is still an alcoholic, drinks beer like water. And I am pretty sure I will end up like him. He wasn't a bad alcoholic, sometimes he'd get cranky but he was usually mellow, like me. But one thing that I don't understand is what is the difference between a "normal" or "social" drinker and an alcoholic. I still think I am a social drinker except right now "I drink alone, yeah, with nobody else. You know when I drink alone, I prefer to be by myself"

Story of the Year, blurry but cool 

Hell yeah Dan Marsala right there 

Funeral for a Friend 

Anberlin  

Anberlin 

Story of the Year

I am at my other job, so kind of have to make this quick. So the first band was He is Legend which sounded pretty good but the lead singer looked like a hippie and danced around like a hippie fairy. He was freaking me out.

Second band was Anberlin who I've heard a lot of good things about but haven't listened to them. They were ok, didn't really live up to the hype that I was thinking. The singer looked like a late 30s surfer pretty boy.

Third on the list was Funeral for a Friend who kicked ass! Chris's friend Kevin and I went up and got pretty close to the stage and almost got in a fight because apparently some girl in front of Kevin tryed elbowing him the nuts and he called her a name or something and her friends started talking shit. A fight would have been fun, but then we'd missed Story of the Year. Well they played a cover of STP's "Dead and Bloated" that kicked ass!

Story of the Year came out, we fought our was back up front after a couple more drinks. On the second song the singer Dan jumped out in the crowed and surfed over top of us. They did a nice little cover melody, kind of like the Ramones did for MTV that canowine posted this about. I can't remember all the songs, I remember Twisted Sister "we're not gonna take it", 50 cent "Candyshop" and some classic rock songs, I forget them all but it was awesome! It The bassist, Adam, climbed o the speakers ad jumped right on us. It was great, my ears are still ringing and neck is killing me from headbanging. Unfortunately I forgot to put my memory card thing in my camera so I could only take a couple pics, I will post them whenever I make it home. Story of the Year's new CD comes out tomorrow, so everyone needs to go buy it! Next on the list is Senses Fail's Sold out show.

Friday

Yep, TGIF at least for now. I got out of work at like 1030 today. That was awesome but I took my van to get fixed and it's costing me like $700 so that sucks. Damn thing needing tires and brakes, if winter wasn't coming I'd say fuck it but I think I might need them. As for tonight and tomorrow night I have no clue or plans as to what I am going to do. I think Chris is going to lend me his apartment to get fucked up in so I don't have to sit in the barracks and he at least gets good cable. I am waiting on him to get off to take me to pick up my van. So I was thinking about calling someone or anyone else up to find something to do but now I am broke until next weekend when I get paid. So I will sit and be bored. Maybe try to read some more of my book. I love it! It's an awesome style of writing and a great story that is 85% true. Well I am not very talkative right now so everyone have a good weekend. Hopefully I will get some good pics of Story of the Year Sunday, which is also Martini Love's B-day. In which I will consume several drinks for and then Monday I'll sleep off her hangover since I will have it off and unforunately she won't. That's what I'm here for, to be a good friend!

HNT

Yep it's that time of week again. So I've been throwing around the idea of my next Tattoo. I want it to read "Life's A Bitch. Then You Die!" I was originally thinking around my stomach, you know kind of like where 2Pac had "THUG" or some stupid shit, but I was thinking about when I get old and either get fat and have a big gut, or even worse I stay like my skinny ass and get the loose wrinkly stomach. So I've thought about my back, I already have a tat on top of my back, though it would be cool at the top of the shoulders, it's too late for that, so now I am thinking about right above my pants. So I somehow managed to take a pic of my back and then photoshopped kind of what I want and this is what it looks like. What do you think?

AA or A Not

So Last night I attempted to go to my AA meeting. I get there nice and early so I was sure I found it and wasn't late. SO I sit in the parking lot for a while reading my book and smoking a pack of cigarettes. Finally at 645 I go in and there's a guy there who looked like a roady for ZZ Top... actually he looked like my uncles old friend Snake, when my uncle used to watch me we would go to Snakes and they would sit in a circle and I didn't know why I got tired, hungry, and want Cherry 7up. Ah my first contact at like 9. Well one day at SM's grandparents house we were looking at a plate with a family tree on it, I knew most of her family. I saw a name I think it was Diane or someshit. SM said but she goes by Coochie(sp?) and I jump back and ask Coochie is she married to a guy named Snake, she said yes. It was really weird I had known these people since I was old enough for my uncle to take me over there while he'd gotten stoned. OK but this Snake lookalike tells me the don't have meetings at 7 they have them at 830. SO I said I didn't really feel like sticking around in VA til after that and then driving back home so I left. I decided to go home and drink instead. I took my uniform home to iron it and make it look all sharp for color guard practice today since I haven't been to one in a while but forgot it in my car so now I look like shit today. But you know what I don't give a fuck I am still better than everyone except maybe Uncle Tom and Chris, they are as good as me. For some reason I started dreaming again. And they are getting really weird. Last night I watched a fox and bobcat get eaten by a lion and then it chased me up a tree and then a bear came and kept me in the tree. I pulled out my cell and was going to call someone but I woke up before I could see whose number I was scolling for. I guess I better not go on any safari's for a while. I was like super high in the tree to, thinking that if the bear shook it I'd fall and die on impact.

OH yeah, so I can't go see Beck concert in Jersey on Saturday, I told my PO and he said I can't leave the state until they evaluate my case later in the month. So it's a good thing that I told him I was already gone on my trip when he gave me the results. So no Beck but still got Story of the Year on Sunday and no Work on Monday because of Columbus day! Yay! 3 day weekend.

First Counseling session

So I had my first counseling shit yesterday. It wasn't too bad, just annoying. I was supposed to be there at 6, SO I had time to kill after I left here, I went and got some groceries since I had no more food in my room. Then I kind of fell asleep while eating nachos and watching that 70s show. I woke up at 550, thinking FUCK! I had to miss my other job to go to this and if they make me come Thursday, Im gonna have to miss work again. SO I jumped up ran out and called them on the way saying I was stuck in traffic, there was an accident in front of me and all that good shit that happens all thim around here. I said I'd be like 15-20 minutes late, she gave me a hard time but then just told me to hurry up. SO I am speeding my ass there, figuring that I'd get pulled over for speeding and expired tags (they're not expired really they just haven't sent me the new ones in the mail yet) But no problems, then I found a parking lot close to the building so I didn't have to walk the normal block in a half. OH yeah I had to piss like a motherfucker, I didn't have time to go after my nap, and wasn't sure if I had to take a piss test before the meeting. So this parking lot is exclusivly for a liquor store with the sign that says it and violators will be shot and have their car jacked or some shit like that. But I am late and have to piss and have no idea how long this shit was gonna last so I risk it. I get up stairs tell them I'm there, they dick around so I grab the keys and go to the bathroom. I figured if they wanted to test it they should say something before they let me take the keys. I get back and sign in and take a breathalizer and go to class. There was all kinds of people in there, a couple guys in suits, a big biker dude, me and a bartender. So we watched a video from like the 70s with some professor/priest(he had the white collar thing) who talked for ever making not so funny jokes. He compared alcohol to ether and other fluids(water, milk, coffee) made some interesting points that I've already forgotten, I should have took notes. People would look at me funny but hey it's only so I can share it with the world right here. We had a short discussion at the end about the film and what we thought about it. And tonight I'll probably go to my first AA meeting, I found one by my other job, I'll see how they sign the sheet for the counselor and see if I like it or not, if not I'll sign the sheet. Forgery isn't that hard really. Wait who wrote that.....Prank post, Prank post! What'd Shaggy say, "It wasn't me!" Well Happy Hump day, enjoy your cocktails this evening while I'm in AA, I'll catch up when It's over.

Scary shit

So I came across THESE pics and I was really scared. Then I saw THIS video which then makes me think that it was all meant to be funny. It is funny but I still think I'm gonna have nightmares about her. But I really wanted to share it so everyone can share it with me. Apparently Gem sweaters are cool.

Slipknot

I started thinking of the "fuck it all" lyrics and then realized that I don't have that CD anymore. I used to have hundreds of CD's but the ended up getting thrown out by the ex during a fight one night. I remember when I only had a few CD's and my shitload of tapes. I wish I remembered what my first CD was I know one of the firsts was Bon Jovi- Crossroads, that one kicked ass. But here are some Slipknot lyrics that kind of catches how I'm feeling, Duality and Wait and Bleed, the duality seems a little more fitting at the moment.

Slipknot- "Duality"

I push my fingers into my eyes
It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache
But it's made of all the things I have to take
Jesus it never ends, it works it's way inside
If the pain goes on...

I have screamed until my veins collapsed
I've waited as my time's elapsed
Now all I do is live with so much fate
I've wished for this, I've bitched at that
I've left behind this little fact
You cannot kill what you did not create

I've gotta say what I've gotta say
And then I swear I'll go away
But I can't promise you'll enjoy the noise
I guess I'll save the best for last
My future seems like one big past
You're left with me 'cause you left me no choice

Put me back together or separate the skin from bone
Leave me all the pieces, then you can leave me alone
Tell me the reality is better than the dream
But I found out the hard way - nothing is what it seems

(I push my fingers into my) eyes
It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache
But it's made of all the things I have to take
Jesus it never ends, it works it's way inside
If the pain goes on, I'm not gonna make it!

All I've got - all I've got is insane


Slipknot- "Wait and Bleed"

I've felt the hate rise up in me...
Kneel down and clear the stone of leaves...
I wander out where you can't see...
Inside my shell, I wait and bleed...

Goodbye!

I wipe it off on tile, the light is brighter this time
Everything is 3D blasphemy
My eyes are red and gold, the hair is standing straight up
This is not the way I pictured me
I CAN'T CONTROL MY SHAKES!
How the hell did I get here?
Something about this, so very wrong...
I have to laugh out loud, I wish I didn't like this
Is it a dream or a memory?

GET OUTTA MY HEAD CUZ I DON'T NEED THIS!
Why I didn't I see this?
I'm a victim - Manchurian Candidate
I - HAVE - SINNED - BY - JUST
Makin' my mind up and takin' your breath away

GOODBYE!

You haven't learned a thing
I haven't changed a thing
My flesh was in my bones
The pain was always free

I've felt the hate rise up in me...
Kneel down and clear the stone of leaves...
I wander out where you can't see...
Inside my shell, I wait and bleed...

AND IT WAITS FOR YOU!

After Lunch thoughts

A friend made a comment to me on Saturday night and oddly I have thought about it out of no where, she claims that guys go through emotional PMS just like girls. I of course say no we don’t and she claims that my depressive times are my PMS. So now I don’t know why I am even giving this a second thought, I am down a lot, I am just more vocal about it at times. So today I was sitting here thinking that there was supposed to be some good movies coming out soon, that I really wanted to see. So I am looking on yahoo movies and finding ones that I wanted to see but then I am wondering, who am I going to go see them with. It’s little shit like that that piss me off. Little things like that, wondering what movies are coming out, is a gateway to all kind of other thoughts. I used to see movies with CG and before her was her roommate, both of who I could do couples things with except I didn’t get the sex or physical shit whatsoever. SO when little thing spawn all other shit, I started wondering if this is PMS or something. Ok now this is just getting retarded. But I did get my haircut and get a grilled stuffed burrito, shouldn’t I be happy now. I’ve read 2 more chapters in my book and done absolutely nothing work related today, though I do have a weekly meeting in a little while. One would say it hasn’t been that bad of a Monday despite my mind converting back to the dark side. Need a smoke before meeting!

Back to Work

I don't think I hate anything more than going back to work after a vacation. I really, really didn't want to get up this morning. But I did after a wierd ass dream about me going crazy about some sandwich thing and punching a microwave and throwing it at my dad. I think it was just because I was really hungry and I am still starving. Maybe I'll get some Taco Bell when I go to get a haircut. I feel like a bum, my hair is all sorts of jacked up since I haven't cut it in about a month. But I just finally finished going through all my stupid emails that I tried to keep up on deleting from home but then got tired of it so left them for today. God I just want to eat and go to sleep, Damn Mondays! I feel like a Zombie, feed me brains, I am not thinking of anything. Food, grilled stuffed burrito, cheesy gordita cruch, Chilli cheese burrito with sour cream (damnit why can't they have those here!). Ok Fuck I can see I have no other thoughts so posting is pointless. I guess I can just read my book to distract me for an hour or so.

Pixes and stuff

So Yesterday starts with me going to take one of my random piss tests and shit. Followed by me hurring my ass to pick up Sugarduck(Toms girl) and Uncle Tom. They gave me a birthday present with is actually the only present I recieved and was much appreciated, granted I did get dinner from Chris and money from family but they gave me a present which does mean a lot. First of course there was John Q which I almost picked up the other day but didn't I just finished watching it and enjoyed the tears rolling down my face. And also a book that kicks ass so far, granted I've only read 20 pages but Killing yourself to Live is a book that so far fits me and dreams of a road trip that I would hopefully one day venture on. Sex, drugs and rock and roll!! But we went and saw the Pixies and met Canowine there who will probably do a better review than me but it was still a great time. The opening act was a band called Lake Trout who started out with an instumental piece that I thought sounded decent and then the second song seemed to have the same drum beat but the guitar was awesome and I noticed the keyboardist bringing up a series of other instruments including an oboe(sp?) and a flute, and on one song he was screaming and we all know how much I enjoy screaming. But I enjoyed their performance. The Pixies took the stage and put on a kick ass show! They rolled straight from one song to the next performing for almost and hour and a half! Playing several of my favorites, including "where is my mind", Monkey's gone to heavan", "U-Mass" and other songs that I can never remember the names of, I am bad at remembering song names for some reason, I just know the song. But they rocked so much for seeming old enough to be my parents. But now I need to get dressed finally and head out to cause some chaos. Though Chris made me promise to be good, trouble seems to find me. Happy Saturday peoples!

Pixies

Just got back from pixies concert, was awesome but tired so heres lyrics from a song that was played tonight.

U-Mass

In the sleepy west ofthe woody east
is a valley full, full o' pioneer
we're not just kids, to say the least
we got ideas to us that's dear
like capitalist, like communist
like lots of things you've heard about
and redneckers they get us pissed
and stupid stuff it makes us shout
oh dance with me oh don't be shy
oh kissme cunt and kiss me cock
oh kiss the world oh kiss the sky
oh kiss my ass oh let it rock
of the april birds and the may bee
oh baby
university
of massachusetts, please
and here's the last five
it's educational
it's educational
it's educational
it's educational
it's educational.