Message from Hawthorne Heights on myspace

Hello,

This message is going to all of our supporters so we apologize in advance if it seems impersonal.

Tomorrow, our second album, “If Only You Were Lonely” will be in stores. We are reaching out to you because Hawthorne Heights can use your help. We need you, your friends and anyone else you know that likes ROCK music to buy our album tomorrow. The only reason we are able to be a band is because of your support. Without you we would not be able to do what we do.

You buying our album tomorrow has much greater meaning than simply supporting Hawthorne Heights. ROCK music needs your support. Our society and culture has put rock music on the backburner. If our album can debut at ..1 all of us will have taken ROCK music back to the top of the charts where it belongs. You might ask, how has ROCK been put on the backburner? A current example is an artist that we are up against called Ne-Yo. Many people are saying that Ne-Yo is going to outsell us because Ne-Yo has had a tremendous amount of over the top, mainstream media coverage. His album will be in stores tomorrow. Radio has played his single 160,000 times. Our single has been played 3,800 times. We know that does not seem possible but it is the truth. Ne-Yo is on a major label. Hawthorne Heights is on an independent label. ROCK music needs to win tomorrow. Independent needs to beat Major tomorrow. If all of you take action we can create history. The mainstream media may not choose to fully embrace this ROCK band from Dayton, Ohio but all of you have. No one can take that away from us. It cannot be bought because it comes from the heart. That is what makes us different. Your support means everything to us and is the most valuable thing that we have. You are the people that we depend on. This is as much about you as it is about us. You hear our voices every night. Now, we need to hear yours. You see us at our merch table every night. We need to see you in the stores tomorrow. We cannot come out on top without you. Passion and music with real meaning has a chance to beat out what the media forces down our throats. No one expects us to win. We need to prove them wrong. They underestimate us. Please help us create history tomorrow. This is a ‘call to arms’, a ‘battle cry’, not just for Hawthorne Heights but for all of the other great ROCK bands and independent labels that we all love. All of us deserve this and it is something that we can do together.

Your Friends,
Hawthorne Heights


Hey everyone,
I know you've been bombarded with messages from our label all day long about our new CD coming out. If you didn't know, our new CD, If Only You Were Lonely, comes out tomorrow, 2/28. As our label pointed out, we have a legitimate chance of debuting at ..1. If we do great, if not, who cares. We want our fans to listen to the music we've created. Chart numbers aren't important to us, playing music is, that is what drives us. Would it be cool if we beat out Ne-Yo and were ..1...sure, it would be a dream come true, I'm not going to lie. Everyone at some point in their life has dreamt big. To be in the position we're in is a huge accomplishment in and of itself...the fact that there are people predicting us to actually debut at ..1 is insane to even think about. At the end of the week, if we are ..1 or ..2 or .. whatever, it doesn't really matter. We're still the same band that you either love (or hate) and the chart .. will not change your mind about us. Charts are for industry people, not music fans. So, go buy our album if you like us, not because we're "ROCK". We hope you enjoy what we created!

Eron

Stars and lazy weekend

Friday was very pissy. I get off from work and drive towards Uncle Tom. I was hungry and keeping in touch with HB, she was working on getting a babysitter so she could come with us. I stopped at Wendy's by Uncle Toms and kept trying to call him but his phone is stupid and just kept giving me static. I ate and kept trying to call, I knocked on his door and no answer. HB got a babysitter who was on her way and I sat in my car. Eventually Tom called and said he was asleep, him and his girl came out and we went to my place to wait for HB. I lazily looked up directions towards black cat from my place to find a faster way. I put in 14th st, DC. Big mistake. Anyone who knows DC, there a 4 sets of every street, one for each, NW NE SW SE. Well apparently I am close to NE and Black Cat is in NW. It gave me directions to the wrong one, we get lost, I get pissed. I start back tracking, we are running very late. Streets change names on me too many times, I make a bunch of Uturns. Eventually I give up and start back tracking actually attempting to go home. Well I find our way there. When we got upstairs Magnet was just ending. We get drinks and shirts and head towards our spot in a big crowd. Couldn't quite make it, pretty sure the few pics I took probably didn't turn out. Stars were very good. I thought it was amusing that they acted like they were playing hard rock but it was pretty melow. I really don't feel like going into details but it was a fun show and I got some pics of the pizza afterwards that I will probably post Wenesday.

Saturday and Sunday I didn't get dressed I wore my old sleeping pants since I had to watch Gabe and couldn't be naked. Saturday was at my place and then HB took me to Target and her place where I still wore the same thing. Sunday I just watched movies and played with Gabe all day and never left the apartment. It felt good to be lazy! She bought me a couple gifts yesterday that were great. She finally got the new Action Action CD I've been looking for as well as one from a group called Chiodos and a new book since I am almost finished with the one I have now. It was really nice except it was in a gay bag but that was ok...lol. Well Hope everyone has a good Monday!

Friday night Live

I know I was gonna bitch some shit about stereotypes but I'll save that for later. I've just been bitter lately and I have no clue why. But tonight I'll be going to a concert so maybe some live music and a couple beers will chill me the fuck out. TOnight we will be attending the Black Cat again to see the Stars and Magnet. Neither are really my type of music but I like the Stars, I only gave them a chance because their album was called "Set yourself on fire" so it sounded cool and Uncle Tom said the chick was hot. She's got a really good, smooth, calm voice. I like it. I was listening to Magnet a little this morning. He's pretty much the same, Kind of reminds me of Jack Johnson or something. I thought it was a band but apparently it's just one guy, must be like Final Fantasy or some shit. But it should be a good show, It sold out a couple weeks ago. Tom's got 4 tickets, was supposed to be him, his girl, me and HB but HB can't make it and he doesn't know if his girl is gonna come. SO it may just be the 2 of us, with 2 extra tickets to a sold out show. You know what that means, FREE DRINKS! Someone asks for tickets and you say ok, first rounds on you, someone else they have to get second round. Tickets were like 12 or 15 bucks so it's almost the same. 2 drinks are 9 I think. Tom doesn't believe in being greedy like me. I can't help it though when people walk the line offering twice the price. Like if no one goes with me to Rob Zombie next month. It sold out in seconds, $40 a ticket. I can probably sell the extra for 100. For Manson at the 930 club was the same deal people were offering 150-200 for a ticket. SO I hope I will make some money at least if no one comes with me. And I won't get as fucked up as I did for Manson.... ah, good times! Anyway, so hopefully I will be nice and relaxed after tonight at least for a while as long as no one starts shit there we'll be ok. Well I need to get started on some of this work shit so I can maybe take off a little early today! Happy Friday, hope everyone has a good weekend, If I still have readers afetr the last 2 posts which no one gave me any responses to, except take a barbituate and that Chris is a fag, but I already knew that.

Black History Month

SO if I didn't piss everyone off yesterday, here's another shot. Just kidding I'm not trying, just expressing my views. SO Last night as I was tossing and turning trying to go to sleep when I had a 3 hour nap after work my mind was wondering all over the place, I realized it was still Black history month. This shit pisses me off. I hate how it's cool to be black and proud, but if your proud to be white, your racist. America doesn't have a white history month, we don't have a strictly white Miss America pagent, and we don't have a white entertainment channel. Why because if we did it would be considered racist. This thing has constantly upset me. I don't consider myself racist, I do say some racist shit while I'm driving or playing Halo but they are just words to me and whatever. I don't judge people based on their race though I see alot of people meeting their stereotypes. That's how they get stereotyped because a lot of people have set it, like last night at counseling... nevermind I'll save that for tomorrow. Right now I'm on racism and mostly Black reverse racism. Slaves were freed in 1862, that's 144 years ago. People make mistakes, it wasn't us today it was our ancestors, why must we pay for their mistakes. Groups like THIS ONE are still fighting for reparations. SO sorry that our ancestors took your ancestors out of Africa, I'm sure you would rather be back there on a continent that has 25.8 million people infected with HIV. That's more than 60% of the total HIV population in hate world. Not to mention the poverty over there if way worse than here. You would almost think that we should charge them for the free trip over here. But a lot of people want to bitch and moan about shit that cannot be changed. Yes slavery was bad, it's not nice, we can't fix the past, but your not a slave now and you and your family have a better life because of the suffering that your ancestors went through. Be happy for that fact. How many people come and try to have a better life in America, a lot. So I think a Thank you should be given instead of a plea for money. But I would like to promote White Pride but that would sound racist so I just say fuck everyone reguardless of color!

On another note, I just found out today is national chilli day! SO I need to get some chilli!

To be or not to be....

Gay. That's right gay, homosexual, fag, lesbian, dyke, and whatever else they are called that I forgot. It seems homosexuality has been a big thing lately with them trying to get married and all that happy horse shit. Now I am not particularly fond of the whole thing. I don't think they should be allowed to get married. I've met a couple, not many, but they are usually ok people, it just freaks me out a bit. And most people try to play it off so they don't seem "predjudice" or some shit, but it depends how far you take it. I'm not gonna run away saying "Don't touch me, I don't wanna catch Gay!" or anything like that it just makes me uncomfortable. Now many of you are probably wondering why I'm talking about Homos. Well THIS is the reason. So studies are finding that people are gay based on a cromosome now they will eventually pin it down and then maybe soon after that be able to fix this problem. Ok say let's say hypotetically that we can do that, we can prevent baby's from growing up to be gay. Now this is my question to those who so far are starting to hate my guts and getting ready to leave me a comment calling me a fuckin bigot. Still hypotetically, If we could stop babies from becoming gay, would we. Now I think the obvious answer for everybody should be yes. I mean it would solve the marriage issue, for one. B) One less hate crime to be commited III) Do gay people really enjoy being gay? Now since I don't have any to ask I ask of my loyal few readers to ask the ones that they know and report back for me. Again I am not trying to be a dick or an ass, or a dick in... nevermind that may have crossed the line. But I really wonder if this thing did end up happening it may be another thing for homos(not trying to use it negativly but faster than typing homosexuals everytime) to unite and try to fight against. But most of them when they realize they're gay hide it and deny it and all that other shit. They get discriminated, they always say they didn't choose to be gay. Well what if you could choose not to be gay, would you.

Sorry I have been having writers block lately as you can see by my last several posts, so this is my topic of the moment. *Some disclaimer about if anyone is offended it's not my fault*

Marriage Contract

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Fuck the world...

Thinking sucks! I was supposed to win powerball the other day so I could have 365 million dollars and not have to think or work again but I guess that didn't happen. I checked my tickets today and all I got was a hole in my pants, no not in my wallet but in my pants. HB ripped my pocket where I keep my wallet as I was heading out the door to come to my other job and now I sit here with a huge hole in my ass, good thing I wear boxers, if I wore whity tighties skid marks may be showing. I really wanted that money, Friday I was going through everything I was gonna do with it in my head. I really don't want to be here today, I may not stay as late as I wanted. I wish I could just kept the hours I had before, I was happy, my routine was set and I'd been doing it for so long. I like the fact that I can spend more time with HB every other week, but I hate the fact that I'm not putting in the hours I am used to. I don't actually NEED this money anymore, since like I said on the first I should be completely out of credit card debt and the only thing I really need to pay will be my car and perhaps I can start paying more on that. I want to save money. I want to have a big ass nest egg, I never have had one before. It's hard having money in my bank account, I wanna go out and buy shit that I don't need. I was thinking about quitting this job but this is where I need to work when I get out. I need to go to school, Hell I need to figure out what I want to do. If I won the lottery I was gonna go to school and probably start a construction company. I miss doing that, it was fun. And if we ended up in Texas there would be work year round. No worries about winter. I could build houses, and when I didn't feel like working I would have to, perks of being a boss and owning your own company. But I didn't win I sit here making my ends meet, though not really happily. I get too bored working. Though the military had taught me the discipline to continue working even though I'm not happy, the thought is still in my mind like before, when I'm not happy I don't go to work and then I get fired or quit. It seems I never want to go to work anymore, I'm tired of it. I want to retire. Perhaps I can figure out how to use the Navy's money when I get out to go to school and have them send me a check while I work part time still. But then I'll get bored with school and I'll be right back in the same place. I don't know why I've been feeling down lately. Perhaps it's because I'm 23 and am still not sure what I want to do for the rest of my life, or what I want to be when I "grow up". I will probably keep doing what I'm doing with radioactive shit just because it's easy and good money. Though schooling is gonna be hard because they want me to understand everything. But I've already been doing it for almost 4years now, 2 different jobs and know that there really isn't any reason to understand it. I vaguely remember shit from school that I had a feeling I would never use again, and have been right thus far. Who knows. I just want to sleep for maybe a year or so. I could set my body on autopilot and see where I am when I wake up and just go from there. All the decisions can be made for me. I don't want to deal with them. I hate making decisions. How can I choose when I don't know what I want, when I really don't care. All I know is that I need to make money, that's what we're programmed to do. We have to pick something so we can make money and live and buy the stuff we need and want. Fuck money and fuck working. I just want to sit here and not do a god damn thing but scratch my ass through the hole in my pants. I just want to leave. Go off sit in the middle of the woods and fucking scream until my throat bleeds at this whole fucking world and myself for being a part of it. I am one of the cogs that keeps everything moving and I hate myself for that. I wish there was a way to rebel and change this but there isn't the world is happy in its routine, there a far to many of them and only one of me. If I refuse to work, think that if one cog stops the rest will fall, you are wrong, you will be replaced. I have no idea where I am going with this and frankly I don't care. I'm hungry I think I'm gonna leave now and go feed the machine my money some more. why fight it, there is no way to win. I'm too tired to even try, I just wanna sleep.

I'm mad about MADD

I finally got to go to the MADD meeting. It sucked balls. I pull up to the place and the line looked like a sold out show at the black cat, actually longer for getting there early. There was no parking, they expected us to park in a garage 3 blocks away, I parked illegally 2 blocks away. SO I waited in line and we slowly made our way into the place. There was probably 100-150 people there, $30 a person, they make pretty good money. There were all sorts of characters there. Crack heads with messed up teeth, business men and women in suits, thugs, wierdos, and then me. I walk in and unconciously say in the middle of a group of latino's(I still want to call them mexicans, thats what I'm used to, brownies are mexican, but no HB says their not, most were probably El Salvadorean but still) So they were all speaking spanish and I was trying my hardest to pick out the words that I knew and tried to understand what they were saying. But all I really heard was que, como, different numbers and shit. It's hard, they don't breath when they talk. It's all in one breath and each word runs together with the others. We need to stop having all these different lanuages, the US and other English speaking countries just need to put our foot down and say "HEY! Your all gonna speak English now, all other lanuages are extinct. Anyone who disabeys will be killed!" I think it will help us reduce the over populated earth and in the long run help us preserve our natural resources. But we didn't even listen to any MADD it was a FADD, Well towards the end of him talking my contact was bothering me so I rubbed it, and it decided it didn't want rubbed so it folded up and ran up in my eyelid. SO I'm sitting there crying and sniffling. I get up and went to the bathroom and was trying to dig it out. I leaned against the sink trying to look in the mirror to find it. The counter was wet, I ended up getting a big wet spot right on my crotch. SO not only did it appear I was crying out there but now I peed my pants. SO I put my contact back and rubbed the wet spot for a while trying to get rid of it and then decided to hike my pants up as high as they'd go and pull my shirt down to cover it. It worked. I think everyone should file lawsuits against MADD because of their name, why is it mothers? It could be family and friends(FAFADD) or the world(TWADD). I think it should be TWADD. It just has a nice ring to it. Everyone call 800-GET-MADD (438-6233) and tell them you want it changed or else we, the people are gonna do some legal action shit.

I agree that people shouldn't drink and drive, it does fuck with your reaction and shit. There has been several times that I still don't know how I made it home in one piece and without getting pulled over. But I don't really understand why people want to be so hard on the people who drink and drive and kill people. Yes it's a tragedy and shit, I haven't quite witnessed it though my mother was ran off the road and into a ditch by someone almost dead from alcohol and percadone(I think thats it the new pill shit for heroine addicts) Luckily she just got her mirror ripped off. But why do we get MADD at them, get it...lol. Ok in 2004, 42,636 people were killed in traffic accidents, 16,694 were alcohol related, thats 39%. Ok so MADD goes after them, now what about the other 61%? Where is the group against bad drivers that killed 25,942 people? No one cares about them? I just hate the fact that people pick certain things to make "important" and groups about. What if I was driving drunk and a bad driver ran a red light and hit and killed me. The report would probably say it was my fault because I had alcohol in my system. I should start a group called DDABD, drunk drivers against bad drivers or something like that. Why not we have all sorts of other stupid groups. Fuck all groups and they are all probably hypocrits, everyone has driven under the influence of something at least once. I'm sure some of them have had a glass of wine, or a beer out at dinner and then drove home. Sure this may or may not be above the legal limit for them but I know everyone has done it. That's why there should be no groups. I don't know I'm just rambling now, fucking stupid people....at least it's Friday and I at least got that stupid shit out of the way!

The Bamboozle

I wanna go!! Someone needs to go here with me! DAMN YOU CHRIS FOR LEAVING ME!!! Wait maybe you can play your thing this spring around this time, we can have a bcahlor thing here. Roadtrip and 2 days of concert!! If not HB your gonna need to get a babysitter for the weekend and go with me, sorry dear no choice!

MEADOWLANDS SPORT COMPLEX
ROUTE 3 & ROUTE 120
EAST RUTHERFORD, NJ


Saturday May 6th
Fall Out Boy
All American Rejects
Thursday
Hawthorne Heights
MOTION CITY SOUNDTRACK
From First to Last
Armor For Sleep
Mae
Relient K
Streetlight Manifesto
HelloGoodbye
The Spill Canvas
A Very Special Reunion For A Cause
HIDDEN IN PLAIN VIEW
BAYSIDE
PARAMORE
OVER IT
THE ROCKET SUMMER
THIS DAY AND AGE
HIT THE LIGHTS
JONAS BROTHERS
DRIVE BY
SUNGLASSES AT KNIGHT
KEATING
HOUSE OF HEROES
PISTOLITA

Sunday May 7th
Taking Back Sunday
Senses Fail
Underoath
Panic! At The Disco
Circa Survive
Say Anything
Every Time I Die
The Bled
It Dies Today
The Sleeping
HIM
LIFETIME
NIGHTMARE OF YOU
EMANUEL
JUNE
I AM THE AVALANCHE
ANTERRABAE
HE IS LEGEND
ZOX
CAFFEINE
Linc's Special Guest: Def Jam Recording Artist ?

My god, I am fucking HOT, they can't get the fucking temperature right in this fucking building. We freeze like we're outside with it being 40* and now it's like 80. I am sweating my balls off. My window is locked and We don't have a key so I can't open it. I can open one behind my desk but it is blocked my the desk so i doesn't help much. Counseling sucked again last night. Our usual instructor was back but must have had a bad VD or some shit. Chris called at 6, when the class is supposed to start and he just walked in so I answered it knowing we weren't gonna start for another half hour and he threw a little temper tantrum telling me to get off the phone and when I did he said it was supposed to be off and I told him, he was late and class wasn't begining yet. He got mad at me, he continued being a dick for a while and everyone was just quiet. Eventuall people came in late and they didn't know he was being a dick so they started talking and helped pass the time. I did call my buddy in NY. He was a telemarketer but now works with the mantally handicap, he was at work when I called. He continued to call them retards while he was at work. He isn't too bright. I asked him what he was doing this weekend, HB said something about maybe taking a trip up there but with all the snow I decided to invite him down here. He said he had to work this weekend and that he just got his learners permit. I forgot he didn't have a lisence, I guess you don't really need one with public transpotation there. 24 years old and no lisence was funny. But Chris and I are gonna have a guys night in on Friday, so that should be fun. Drink a little, play some Halo2, talk since we don't get the chance to talk much. Perhaps give him a good ramming in his ass before he leaves. I am pretty sure I will have no more credit card debt on the first!! God it feels good, if I wasn't paying rent on a place I stay at once a week, I'd be rolling in PHAt money. Looking at my checkbook, after getting paid and paying bills last night, I am very pleased. I just need to save a bunch of money. For my trip to Texas in June, and I'm really looking foreward to Alaska and Hawaii for Christmas. Plus I need to save money for when I get out and all that other good shit. I've never been able to get that much in my savings. I usually save up to what I've got about now then go blow it on stupid shit like Speakers or something. But not this time. I am gonna be responsible! Well I need to look up some shit about shipping so my boss doesn't yell at me. It's almost Friday, which means 3 day weekend for everybody but me! I have to come in sometime this weekend. Plus I need to go to my other job to get more of that good money. Tonight I am making another attempt to go to MADD, we'll see if the 4th times a charm!

Random Humpday Thoughts....

It seems from time to time that I think of things I want to post but by time I get to the comp I forget or feel like bitching about something else. I miss those days at USU when I had all the time in the world to remember and type it. I have been very busy here and it sucks ass. Sunday when I venture out after the snow storm I went to Taget to get some new movies to entertain HB and I. I was looking for the new Action Action CD that I found out came out at the end of January. They didn't have it at Target, though they did have a little section at the front of an aisle that had "new music" which had Silverstein, Hawthorne Heights, Bloc Party (Silent Alarm, not the new one). It kind of shocked me, I even heard Silverstein and Hawthorne Heights on the PA, that was even more scary. These Underground bands that I have already seen in concert and had their album for about a year are becoming "new music". I think it's great when the bands I really like get more national recognition but at the same time I hate it, because I'll never get the chance to see them at small venues again. Bloc Party at the Black Cat, HA they sold out a year ago when they were only getting play on a few college stations and internet buzz from blogs like The Smudge. I can't even search for new music at work anymore. Purevolume only works once in a while here, myspace is blocked, and launch on yahoo wants you to sign in now and I can't on this comp. I did see action action is up for who's next, go check out their video and hear the new song and vote for them! GO NOW! but then come back. God I have a bunch of work to do before 9 and then after I do some more shit I need to go down and help audit another department that I'm not looking foreward to. A chief that was my instructor in Connecticut works down there and I hate her because she is a bitch and a backstabber, I need to call my buddy tonight, she tried to get him thrown out and he eventually did it himself. He is in New York with the shitload of snow. I will call him. I'm fucking hungry as shit, I don't know why. HB cooked an awesome meal last night. The moron is gone and I only vaguely know how to do my job. I know the basics but not everything, I don't care too much because I'm out of here by December, but I still hate being a piece of shit. I miss my son. I wish he could come here this summer, but it would be too hard with me working 2 jobs, it would be pointless and I wouldn't have a sitter for him. It would just be pointless. I'm a bummed that I'm probably gonna miss Mike when I'm in Texas. I just want to go to sleep. I need to save money, for Texas, Alaska, Hawaii if I'm still allowed to go. I need to go home in July for Aaron's bday, I want to make a trip up to New York to see my buddy sometime because his fat ass will probably never come down here. Hell I don't even know if he's still fat I haven't seen him in 3 over 3 years now. I had a dream a coupld nights ago about me and HB getting married, I had Chris, Uncle Tom, him, and Mike there it was great, but kind of sad that the only people who mean anything to me(friend wise) I have met in the military. No one from back home, another reason to not go back. The ex was talking about transferring to an Arby's in South Carolina, but I doubt that'll happen. I told her I don't really care where she goes since I have no clue where I'm gonna go. I told here I was staying here for a while after I got out. I'm still waiting on the Child support people to send me shit so I can do my taxes and find out how much I owe this year. HR Block online said I get back $29, I'm hoping if I can deduct child support I should get more back, I think it's because I move into a new tax bracket with my other job. I'm glad out housing allowance isn't taxed, we make a hitload off of that. I don't want to go to counseling tonight. Last week we had a sub that we had before and I thought she was pretty cool, cuz she said she's done every drug and shit, well last week she hinted that she never did. and was being a bitch, she said all of us were in her book of mental disorders and one guy was talking about his ex that keeps getting him locked up by sayin he hit her but he never did and she kept saying that he did because he was an alcoholic. He hasn't drank in a year and goes to AA meetings everyday and shit because of his kids but she just kept saying he hit her. I was pissed and I changed the subject and kept on her about some shit about everyone is an addict because people drink soda or smoke and that shit isn't in her book. She got mad and changed the subject to something else. Fucking bitch. This guy has been getting shit straight and she wants to knock him down. She wasn't there, though neither was I, we have no choice but to believe him. Not to say that because her book says something and she has 2 masters degrees that what she says is right. Fuck her! And I'm gonna tell my counselor tonight that her attitude towards us drove me to drink or some shit. I'll probably think of something better than that to try to get her in trouble but right now I just keep staring at the stack of folders that I need to do and thinking about food. Oh well those are some of my random thoughts. HAppy Humpday.

V-Day

SO I was looking back on V-day 2005, remembering my drunk blogging and typing stupid shit, it's pretty bad when I was drunk by 9pm on a Monday. But fuck it. I also noticed that I have been posting pretty consistently for a year now, wow that truly is a lot of nothingness. All my batching, complaining, drunken adventures, and the concerts I've been to. I wonder if these blogs will be here forever, so when my son is older I can say hey go to this website and read about when I was in my early 20s. That's the crazy shit your old man used to do and think. I may have thought differently of my father if I read some shit like this about my dad. He always seemed like a hard ass, strong guy. Hopefully I will look like that through my sons eyes. But because my dad always looked like that I never thought he'd been through or felt like I did. I never talked to him about anything really. Perhaps Aaron would read this and say dad, that's what I'm going through. I don't know why I was thinking about that but oh well there it is.

Back to V-day. I apparently struck gold! I get up this morning and tell HB happy V-day and she kind of ignored me and made it clear or at least I am gonna think this way anyway, that she despises a day created by hallmark to sell more cards and candy and shit. So we all know that means no more V-day celebrations! No cards, flowers, candy, or any of that bullshit! Why do we need a day that says we need to give women this crap anyway. I give flowers and candy when I want to, that should mean more than giving it on a day that "They" say I should. Surprises are way better anyway. Which is why I got her a nice ring instead of all that other crap. And if Kay would have made it the size I told them, it wouldn't have been too small, though we might have had to make it a little bigger for comfort. Then it wouldn't be in the shop until the 22nd! Fucking bastards. Does 5 sound or look like 4 and 3/4 no it doesn't! Fucking Nazi's at least their not trying to charge me or anything since I took it to a diffeerent Kay's. But I sigh a huge sigh to the fact that I'll never have to celebrate this day again. Last year I was sad because this day tortures single people and drives us to drink and try to type shit on the internet for everyone to see. And now I am happy and with a beautiful woman that I love, and I celebrate that fact everyday! So I want to give a big giant
FUCK YOU V-DAY AND HALLMARK!
Everyone else, have a good Tuesday!

Some weekend fun

I had a lot of fun this weekend. Didn't really do much but it was fun. We exchanged Valentine's gifts on Saturday night because she couldn't wait. We were on our way to get groceries and she said something about the mall being packed with guys trying to get last minute gifts, I told her that's why I got her's last weekend. She got mad, because we didn't discuss getting gifts, I didn't think you had to, I thought it was a given. I guess I have been out of the Vday loop for too long or something. I got her a nice heart shaped ring. She was shocked since I try to surprise people like her Christmas gift that was way off the wall. I enjoyed my gift but I don't think I can mention it...lol. But yeah wwe got a bunch of snow on Saturday night. I went to the store to get some new movies and stuff to keep us entertained inside. The backroads were bad, I was sliding all over the place but the main roads were good. I like driving in snow, at least when no one else is on the road. It's when everyone else is out there that it freaks me out because they all suck ass! I drove us both in this morning, When I went to pull into my parking place and the cop car was pulling up to start yelling at people. So I thought I made it just in time. So I went and parked but the fucking prick walked over to my car and asked what I was doing and I wanted to be a smart ass. I said parking. He said why, I said I had a 7 oc lock appointment at family health, he asked if I worked there, I said kind of, he said it's an easy yes or no question, I said my place is located in the hospital but detachment for Virginia, he said to move my car. So I went back to the garage and parked in the Carpool parking. FUCK THEM! I hate the fact that I had to stand the fucking gate for 10 hours in the freezing fucking cold because we had like 10 fucking people assigned to do it and now we have enough fucking people that we don't know what to do with. Hey let's put them at all the fucking parking lots for a while so we can fucking keep people from parking in people's parking spots. Why Fucking create parking spots if we don't want people to park in them, because we don't have enough parking on base, well how about instead of paying people to be fucking parking monitors, we build the parking garages taller, or put in other ones. Probably because that would make too much fucking sense. We just put parking monitors out because some big wig fucking came to the base and couldn't find a parking spot and complained even thought they have floors of parking for thesee VIPs maybe I consider myself a VIP and I do actually and I should be able to park there and not get a fucking ticket. Maybe I should drive my car into the security office and try to hit the little armory and when they come out and yell at me, ask if thats not an adequate place to park. and then just drive away. Deep breaths, only 10 more months and then I will be a civilian and I will have more pull with these fuckers because I can tell them off and not get in trouble for it!! Ah, I can't fucking wait. But anyways it's Monday and I have duty this week, which means I just have to sit on my ass til like 4-430 and make sure all the doors are locked because god forbid people shut off the lights and lock the doors behind them. SO I'm not going to my other job but I get to spend more time with HB but I don't get much money. We're trying to get a timeline for our trip in June. Hopefully it will be around the same times as Zefyur. Ok I need to go do some work!

ALRIGHT ALREADY!!!

My top 8. I've been busy all day doing actuall work. I even had to stay like 20 minutes later at Navy because I had to do a bunch of other shit. But HB still wants to rush me for my top 8. I am at my other job and have shit to do here as well. But first I'd like to invite everyone over to myspace to listen to The Seldon Plan they've been over on my sidebar for a while and people may have forgotten. Be their myspace friends, go HERE. Ok my top 8 whatever I am supposed to do. Even though everyones are pretty much the same.

1. Of couse Sense of humor, I mean come on when we can sit and laugh together at stupid shit, that's always a good time. And she's still giving me shit because last night she was pinching my ass and I farted on her hand. It wasn't on purpose she just jiggled it out. But we have a good laugh.

2. Communication, I've always been bad at this. I keep emotions and thought bottled up so it doesn't offend the other or make them worry. But with HB I tell her everything and try to get her to tell me everything. Any insecurities, just voice them instead of letting them brew. As long as it is discussed calmly and rationally everything will be fine...I hope.

3. Honesty of course. I mean who likes being lied to, Uncle Tom please put your hand down. But I've been lied to a lot, and I've also lied alot to keep from fights. But this goes with communication because not telling is almost as bad as lying. And lying isn't honest.

4. Attractive, No one else is gonna put this for fear of being shallow, well fuck all of you. It's tru you don't usually fall in love with someone your not attracted to. Although it does happen, your friends first and then bam, but whatever. HB is smoking hot, I don't see why she thinks I'm hot but whatever I'm not ugly, just skinny.

5. What's the word that means put up with my shit, we'll just call it understanding. This is life we all fuck up from time to time, we have emotions and sometimes we get angry and I yell at you for smacking my lower back 5 minutes after I woke up, I'm sorry. I wasn't mad at you just a little cranky.

6. Caring I guess, just thinking of the other. I try to do it and it's nice to finally have someone else do it for me. Ask how the others day went and actually care, not just saying it to say it. Do things that may not be your favorite but the others favorite. I go shopping for christ sakes, that's only fun for CDs, movies and sometimes books. Clothes are a no.

7. Adventerous, I like to be spontanious from time to time. Like it's says over there to the left. I get stuck in routine and I don't think its a bad thing because it's safe but sometimes I like to get up and go somewhere anywhere.

8. Love, self explanitory right. I've finally found someone who loves my faults and I love hers, we accept our pasts and love that they have made us the people we are now and have brought us together. I love everything about her and I think she loves everything about me, except how I dress and fart on her hand. And she's accusing me of yelling at her lately but I'll settle that tonight with the back of my hand! Just kidding, she'd whoop my ass!...lol. There hunny I did what you asked off me....I love you. Everyone else happy Friday have a good weekend.


I Tag Uncle Tom so he'll fucking post something!! and anyone else who wants to.

More useless shit....

It was during World War II that clothes with elastic waists were introduced. This is because the metal used in zippers was badly needed for the war.

Walmart-mart sells more apparel a year than all the other competing department stores combined.

After the U.S Civil War, about 33%-50% of all U.S. paper currency in circulation was counterfeit.

Thomas Edison, the inventor of the light bulb was afraid of the dark.Thomas Edison, the inventor of the light bulb was afraid of the dark.

The most senior crayon maker Emerson Moser retired after making 1.4 billion crayons for Crayola. It was then that he revealed that he was actually colorblind.

Less than 1% of the women in the world will ever be able to wear a diamond that is the size of a carat or more.

Istanbul, Turkey is the only city in the world located on two continents.

The word Spain means "the land of rabbits."

Pilgrims did not eat potatoes for Thanksgiving as they thought they were poisonous.

In 1983, a Japanese artist, Tadahiko Ogawa, made a copy of the Mona Lisa completely out of ordinary toast.

Bugs Bunny was originally called "Happy Rabbit."

An olive tree can live up to 1500 years.

An acre of trees can remove about 13 tons of dust and gases every year from the surrounding environment.

In 1992, the Antarctic Ozone hole was larger than the continent of North America.

The hog-nosed skunk can spray up to fifteen feet with incredible accuracy.

In one gram of soil, about ten million bacteria live in it.

Pics

French Toast


French Toast 2


(Sounds of) Keileidoscope


Black Cat, Black Cat...for Canowine


Lily's


Uncle Tom and Sugarduck


Hb and I

Happy Humpday

Yes it is. Yesterday I got to leave work a whole half hour early and today I got to come in 4 hours late! I can't remember if I mentioned it my other posts or not since I've been to busy being pissed at Moron to post everything that I wanted too, but Monday it was below 40 in my office, it was fucking freezing. It felt like the air conditionaing was on but I think that since we are on the top floor, outside air was just blowing in, it warmed up to about 50 later that day but was still too cold. I went outside to smoke and warm up, it was actually warmer outside, I think it was just because of the sun, but whatever. Yesterday it was still cold as shit, it was about 50 and our officer in charge said that he was sorry for us staying yesterday because he's new here and was making phone calls and shit to find out if he could shut this place down until they fixed it. They were supposed to fix it yesterday but they didn't so he told us to go home and come in late today because they were supposed to fix it first thing this morning. And they did so it actually feels good in here. I wish they wouldn't have fixed it so we could go home again. Hmmmmmm, I think I have and idea....... Anyways so I got to sleep in til 9, and I went to bed around 9. God I feel all refreshed and shit, I don't even sleep that much on weekends. I don't think I've slept that much since my last all night drinkfest where I passed the hell out. But it did feel good. Everyone else doesn't have to be here til noon, but since I come in earlier than them so I can leave at 2, I came in at 10. That gives me time to myself without them here. And then when they come in, it will be time for me to go home! I get to do Laundry and try to clean up my place a bit tonight before counseling. Good times, at least I shouldn't need my nap after work. Happy Humpday everyone, I hope your goes as good as mine has been thus far!

New look...for the blog at least

Since everyone else has been changing their template I wanted to too. Except I didn't just copy it from somewhere so it has a fancy picture crap! I worked hard last night at my other job and this morning here in between Moron's talking and making me run around and do crap on the computer, he kept getting mad because he'd have me open a program and I kept clicking over to the template to edit. He was pissing me off again today. Plus This morning they wouldn't let me park where they told me to park last time so I parked illegally in a carpool spot and hope that I don't have a ticket on my car when I go home. So I was pretty pissed this morning. I need to get here before they set up that horseshit in the mornings or just lie and say I have an appointment.

I had lunch with HB yesterday in which she revealed some startling news. She made a comment about the way I dressed. Now I know that I dress bad, I like to wear offensive shirts, I like to shock people. That's the way I've always been. Almost got kicked out of school several times for wearing offensive shirts. I like to take advantage of freedom of speech. But she said that if I'd been dressed in civilian clothes when I asked he out she probably would have said no. This hurts. I mean that's just my style, though she claimed that I have no style. Just because I wear jeans and funny shirts, concert tees, or hoodies with skulls of dragons. That's all the shirts I have. I keep saying that most of my wardrobe is still from High school. If everything fits and isn't all jacked up why waste money on new shit, that's my philosophy. Now had I received this complaint from anyone I was just "seeing" I'd wear my extremely offensive shirts and perhaps buy some worse shit from t-shirt hell and where them all the time just to piss them off further. And wait for them to fun away. But I love HB too much to do that. Plus, I would hope that even if I tried something like that, she would still stay and just not like the fact that it is what I choose to wear. Perhaps someday I will buy more nice clothes, I have a couple pairs now. But I would rather be comfortable and in something that it doesn't matter if I stain or anything. I am very clumsy and spill shit and cut myself(not on purpose) and bleed on things. Not to mention that I work 2 jobs and on weekends I don't do much that I think I need to dress up for. When I think it is warranted I dress nice. I dressed up when I did the little night I did the rose petal fantasy thing. And I think there was another time or 2 that I dressed up. I don't really understand why women think that we should dress up all the time. See us guys look at a woman and may think she'd look hot in a catholic school girl outfit or a skirt with fishnet stockings but if we bring stuff like that up, we're perverts. Damn double standard america. Damn whoever invented clothes. If we were still able to fun around naked, we wouldn't have to worry about things like this. We wouldn't be self conscious the first time we were naked with someone, we'd be naked all the time. Just my thought on the situation. Moron's bugging me again so I guess I need to go, Happy whatever day today is, I think it's Tuesday yeah, because I got counseling tomorrow, 9 more to go YippIE!!!

Weekend and Concert

SO Friday we went to the concert at the Black Cat. It was a pretty good show. I mean no one was great but it's always a good time. I think we agreed that Frech Toast sounded the best. We were right up front for them. They sounded really good but pissed me off when I bought their CD saying that I'd only buy it if they signed it and they said ok, but one of them was missing so they were gonna wait until he came back and I never got them to sign it. I was pretty salty about that. Uncle Tom and I kept trying to guess who was Ian since the only pics we could find of him were about 20 years old. So it was kind of funny. (Sounds of) Kaleidascope were ok, they were a younger, kind of, garage band. Lily's were all right, we were sitting in the back for their performance, we were talking and waiting for French Toast to sign my shit. But we had some drinks and just bullshitted with some pretty good music. Saturday I went to my other job and didn't have as much to do as I thought, so I punched in and went to the mall and then came back and played on the computer, moved some shit around then left. I killed about 3 and a half hours there. I was gonna clean my car out but it was raining. Yesterday was pretty much a lazy day. HB and I went to IKEA to get an entertainment center and I put it together. I think she was a little upset that I took that task over but I like working with my hands and my current profession doesn't really require me to do that. Watched some movies, nothing new though. We need to get some newer movies, we've watched all of the ones we have too many times. But it was a nice relaxing weekend. Hope today goes good. I am tired, damn Mondays! I will hopefully put the pics up on Wednesday.

I'm back...kind of

So I am still pissed. This guys is gonna be CM for complete moron for the next week until I don't have to look at him again. Now I'm trying to get programs set up on my computer so I can do my job but since the damn military wants me to not instal shit I have to get computer guys to come do it and all kinds of shit which is why I had to go earlier. But they continue to fuck it up, the program is fucked up, CM has been over my shoulder saying stupid shit that I can figure out on my own. Earlier he was fucking with me while I was messing with said fucked up program and I was being mean to him pretty much telling him to shut the fuck up, like I did last night at the grocery store(will talk about that in a minute) adn I had to get up and leave. The other guy I work with came out to smoke with me, I was so pissed my legs were shaking. I just wanted to throw him through the fucking window of our 4th floor fucking office into a bucket of hot tar below(their working on our roof, so there is tar down there). I sit here silently typing on my computer but inside I am fucking screaming until my throat bleeds, I am grabbing the fucking phone and bashing his face in, Shoveing his face through the monitor, stabbing him with my pen. He is just that type of person, if you talk to him for more than 5 minutes you hate him, longer than that you want to kill him. There is no fucking reason a person like him should be on my planet!!! AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok Grocery store last night, HB and I went to the one I hate the baggers at and I said we had to get less than 20 items, it didn't work. So why is it cashiers feel the need to give the kids something. Stupid fucking foreign fucks, just because they found a military guy to marry their fucking ass because they cooked, cleaned, and were pretty much fuckiing slaves to them, they get a green card, come here and work on military installations. And can't hear or understand someone putting candy on the counter and telling said child that he can have it after he eats dinner. No the fucking cashier wants to try to hand candy to the kid, causing him to cry when the parent takes it. And then the stupid ass cashier wants to try to tell the kid ways to coherce the parent into giving them the candy. All while I stand there and tell the cashier to stop talking and do their fucking job. Start fucking ringing up the fucking items so we can leave instead telling child to stop crying and ask please. Then trying to give a crying child a loaf of fucking bread. Yes let's give an angry person bread, so he can smash it throw it or whatever(He didn't, he didn't want it but that's what I would have done if I was in his shoes). Let's just give him the eggs! Fucking stupid fuck. While I continued to say mean things to the cashier, HB is yelling at me(not yelling but trying to get me to stop) and telling me she's gonna start leaving me and Gabe in the car. Then she gives the fucking bagger a tip! But my evilness is rubbing off on her, while we were driving there was a biker in the road and swerving into where I'm going and I made a smart ass comment and out of the corner of my eye I seen her flip the biker off. I just kind of laughed shocked. It was truely a moment of love, when we share a hatred for people...lol. Ok I need to smoke again, eat some food, and then try to fix this fucking program....don't worry people I'm gonna be pissed off enough today for the whole world!

Show tomorrow night

I am suprised that I haven't said anything about the show I am going to tomorrow night. I am pretty excited, it'll be my first show with HB and probably my last show with canowine. We are going to see Lilys, (sounds of) Kaleidoscope, and French Toast. French Toast has a couple members from Fugazi and Ian MacKaye usually goes to the Black Cat. So we are hoping we'll see him there. Maybe we'll be able to talk to him and get some pics with him or at least the band. Since they are an opening band, they will probably be at the merch table, where me and Uncle Tom usualy harrass the bands and get them to take pics with us. I will have my camera so let's hope for the best. Uncle Tom and sugarduck are coming too so it should be a grand old time! I don't think Ian will be to happy that we will be drinking beer. Since he is a straight edger and shit but who knows, we'll find out if we find him huh. But the guy I'm replacing is a moron after trying to explain that my son was in Ohio yesterday and not on an acre cruise or whatever the fuck was going through his mind, he asks me again today if my family was here. To avoid talking to him again I said that I didn't have a family and the he says what about your son, I said in Ohio. and then turned away. He is a moron, I only have to deal with him til next Friday. BUt I need to go .

Time....

So I am almost done with Einstein's Dreams and it got me thinking and I tried to look some shit up but it was too much reading and shit. But who decided that we should have time? I know at first there was a sundial and shit to approximate time. But who decided that there were 60 seconds and 24 hours and how many days in a week and how many days in a month and all that shit. I can see how many days in a year, that can be calculated by how the earth rotates and shit but why isn't there 10 months with 25 or 36 days, did some one count from when the sun came up one day until the sun came up the next day to figure out that there was about 86400 seconds in a day. This shit pisses me off. I like the book because it talks about different realms of time. The book is very discriptive and helps me "see" what they are talking about, except I think the author was a brit or some shit because I don't understand the places he is talking about like Marktgasse and shit. I think he is saying markettown or something. Anyway, different realms where time goes backward, stops, you can see your future, where time radiates from a certain point, one where every moment seems like the end, and so on. It is kind of cool, I wish we did have these realms. In one you can walk through time. Like walking to another place, you can walk to another time. I wish I alone could do this. I would be filthy rich, I would win the lottery and become a professional gambler. Go to Vegas and take a step back from the roulette wheel and put everything I had on 36, Take a step back and bet on the boxing match or keno. God that would be awesome! But anyways, damn the fucker who came up with a clock. If they hadn't invented it you'd just have to be at work when the sun came up, on rainy days you wouldn't be late and you would be able to leave when the sun started to get low. I think it would be pretty fucking cool. Civilization made it for a damn long time without clocks and having to be somewhere by a certain time. Why fuck up a good thing that wasn't broken! In one realm there wasn't a concept of time, a couple met and the man said to meet him at the fountain, she waited for a couple days at the fountain for fear she would miss him. Now that's great, that's love and dedication. But I am bored as shit and trying to kill this so-called "time" until I can go home so I going to keep reading. Happy Humpday! Maybe I can ask the group at counseling what their thought of time are to kill time there.