Time to get DRUNK!!

Ok so time with CG was pretty good. Of course I wussed out as always. I could tell the whole story here, but I have noticed since I have been getting into this site I haven't written in my notebook. I actually feel this shit I am feeling needs to go in there instead of on display for the world. Let's just say I am a wuss and suck. I am doing the same shit I did with CG's roommate when she was here. I have a very hard time with advancing on someone who was a friend first because it always turned into a problem. It gets screwed up and I lose everything. Eventually maybe I will come to realize that these "friends" are short term because we get transferred and leave. I hung out with her today and thought I'd try TG's kiss in the car when she dropped me off and when I looked over to her she did that look around thing. I don't know if it's the subconcience nervousness of her, or the "god please don't have him lean over and kiss me" thing. As usual I see these things that may be nothing and over analyze them in a split second and chicken out. Oh well. Here's some lyrics for you:

ACTION ACTION - "Eighth Grade Summer Romance"

Hold your knife against my throat, cut me deeper
Feel the blood drip down your arm, darling
I paint this picture on the back of my mind,
But it's fading quickly like an eighth-grade summer romance

The sleeping pills are mixing nicely with red wine
Catch them all, before panic hits monday
Trapped like rats, and oh the water is rising
We'd use the life boat, but we gnawed through the tubing

You're a drug, like the gun inside my mouth
I know it's wrong but i just can't spit you out
Happiness is a warm pun
And i love the taste of steel tonight
I know it happens for the rest of your life
Not asking, just doing darling

I know it happens for the rest of your life

I paint this picture on the back of my mind,
But it's fading quickly like an eighth-grade summer romance